woww... de 1st few days of my yr2 was like woahh... i was late for sch on monday, coz the bus stop at clementi was crowded wid students, duno from nyp or sim. i wasited for 3 to 4 buses b4 actually boarding 1. hahha...tml's thursday and i'll b havin my AF.

i saw Mr E on tuesdae, after lamenting how cum i haven seen him ard in sch. den sandy joked tt he has quit sch.. lolz. well, just as i was tinkin abt tt, he appeared infront of me.. hahhaa! i duno.. i just feel happy when i see him. andy said im madly in love.. sounds abit crazy. but cant blame me la.. haven seen him during the 3 mths long holidae. wonder how he did for his exams... so far, i dun hav any classes wid him. Hui told me tt he and 'mini-eyes' were in de same mkting class as her.. so gd.... dun tink i can change my class, coz it clashes... tokin abt mkting class, i had a hard time avoiding jh. he still duno tt im in de same class as him. sadny kept teasin tt he's alone. wat has tt gota do wid me?! hahha... im just afraid tt he'll sit wid us when he noes tt im thr, esp when he's alone for de lecture! yikes!!.... haha... den blur kaili accidentally flung her shoe hp pouch into the garbage bag. den she went to dig it out, and it was dripping wet wid milk tea! muahaha... sandy and i were luffin so hard tt every1 else were lookin at us. it was damn disgusting man....

hmm.... not sure if its a mistake to take cbis, coz u noe computer stuff is not my cup of tea. den i duno wats de lecturer tokin also... i must thank my lucky stars... haha, coz joyce and sharon are in the same class! pheww... meaning i'll hav company nxt time. hahha, den i icq simon just now, askin him if was in tt class. so he said nxt time we could sit together.. not a bad idea, afterall, guys are betta at such subjects rite? haha, can ask him if i've got any qns nxt time. hmmm... den we went to megabites to have our lunch.. and guess wat?! i saw Mr E again. muahahha.... he was at the both outside, tink odac havin activities again. tokin abt him, i saw his friendster pic wid tis gal again! haiyoz... *wonders if he's attached*

aaron kana wack my daddy tis afternoon, till de cane broke... coz he came home late frm sch after his prelim. den he didnt even call to say he'll be back late. worse, mummy was on half day leave, went to sch to fetch him, but couldn't find him. oops... so de anger was accumulated from last time... and aaron's so suay, coz he just lost his wallet (again!) yesterday... bad luck!....

im now havin classes from mon to thurs, tink im still not havin myself adjusted to this new routine. coz when back from sch, i'm like a dead pig, i need to sleep! hhaha.. den no energy to go gym and exercise! haiyoz... (thr goes my $$...) anyway, i tink thr goes my chance of going to tioman for my advance dive.. coz just quarrelled wid mummy, it was abt my sch stuff. she keep sayin wat wait i dun study i'll fail all my yr2 subjects... how can she say tt? as though im happy to be failing...always comparing me wid others...hmnph! she even ask me switch off de tv..stop me frm watchin. how can....!?

so angry... haizz....andy asked how cum nowadays i seemed to be angry wid every1. maybe im stressed la.. sorrie.... so have mood swings more often. im determined to prove tt i can do well k. i can create miracles...thr's nth i can't achieve if i WANT to...im gona prove to her, everyone else, to myself, and also to grampa. i CAN!! i believe tt was just a minor hiccup, im not just gona fall behind coz of this hiccup...i'll recover and show them wat im capable of. den grampa wun b worried abt me.. he can at least rest in peace. shiet! tokin abt grampa im all sad again.... im STRONG.

nowadays i hav less time and energy to tink of grampa (unlike when i was working). but of coz i still see him everydae, coz of de photo i put on my dressing table.. *i miss him SO much!* okok... im fine. im learning how to cope wid my feelings...though sometimes i feel myself choked wid emotions...and i just havta swallow it back....

okies time to sleep! tml havta wake up at 6.45am *AGAIN!!*... so tt i can at least take a bus instead of mrt.. hahha...(tis morning i saw a Mr E look alike on mrt).. *wink*... hahhaa... =)