Friday, April 28, 2006
Haiz... just like a nitemare coming through, such things does seem to always happen at an inappropriate time. Maybe its just pure coincidence... haiz... I really hate it when such things happen to me, esp during exam period. It really seem to me that i'll experience such stuff in every yr of my uni life. It really sucks...
I 1st received daddy's msg just when i was walking into the sch this morning... 2nd aunt was critical danger. I immediately called, and he was crying... saying the blood pressure was too low. Haiz.. duno y, history seem to repeat itself again. Just like when it was during my grampa's time. I called again later during my class break, and he told me the doctor said she won't be able to last thru today. And not long after the break... i receive the final news. My 2nd aunt just passed away.
My 2nd aunt just celebrated her 55th birthday in hospital the other day, I bought her a funny birthday card while daddy bought her a fruit cum bird nest cum flower basket. She really seemed happy... the last time I saw her was yesterday, she was still quite awake... but still quite breathless. Well, think i can save on the details.
Did I ever told u how did my christian name came abt? well... it was 2nd aunt who gave my this name 'Emily'. It stands for 'Every Minute I Love You'... haaha.. funny rite? I was told, when I was born, everyone thought i looked ugly... so they associated me with 2nd aunt, whom she herself also claimed that i'm even uglier than her! haizz...
She and my uncle were looking forward to spending their May holidays in Spain and Portugal... and now... haiz.
I once watched this show, the actress said something which I felt it was quite true.
She said, when those who are leaving, often are like kites flying with the wind.
But often they are held back, by those whom they loved and those who loved them, as if they are pulling onto the string attached to the kite.
Hence, they can't let go...
Therefore, we must learn to let go when it is time to do so, then they can fly with the wind, and land at a place wherever the wind brings them to, and settle there peacefully.
True huh? But how often isit when u'll use your mind to think esp when u are overcome by emotions?? Quite unlikely it seems...
Actually my 2nd aunt has always been soft-spoken... always encouraged me, believed in me. Even when she was in the hospital, i msg her to tell her not to giveup, we'll always be there for her. But instead, so asked abt my exams, how am i coping. I told her I'm fine, just a little stressed. And she said she believed I can do it, just like i always had.
So how can god take away such a nice person? But sometimes such things can't be explained.. when ur time is up, its time to say gdbye... We're are all very saddened by her sudden departure, we never meant to say gdbye. I didn't... tts y i left the hospital quietly yest, coz i didnt want to disturb her resting. Or maybe i shld.. haiz.
Life is so fragile... esp when anything can happen anytime, to anyone. Like my 2nd aunt, she was already suppose to enjoy her life...when both my cousins are already living quite well. My elder cousin is even pregnant with her 3rd child. A pity that the child couldn't have a chance to see his/her gramma. And my 2nd cousin was promoted recently...
So what I suggest to all my frenz, pls persuade your parents and grandparents to go for yearly full body checkup... esp when there is a history of sickness in your family genes.Pls don't try ti save such expenses coz it'll be even a larger amt when ur health deteroriates!! I think everytime when we regret, it is often too late to make amendments. So live your life well and strong, cherish every minute of it.
haizz... Hope she can find a peaceful place up there, wherever she is...She'll always be loved and living in our hearts.
In loving memory of my 2nd aunt,
Your niece whom you gave this name, I love this name very much and...
Thank u so much for believing in me...
Friday, 28 April 2006
I 1st received daddy's msg just when i was walking into the sch this morning... 2nd aunt was critical danger. I immediately called, and he was crying... saying the blood pressure was too low. Haiz.. duno y, history seem to repeat itself again. Just like when it was during my grampa's time. I called again later during my class break, and he told me the doctor said she won't be able to last thru today. And not long after the break... i receive the final news. My 2nd aunt just passed away.
My 2nd aunt just celebrated her 55th birthday in hospital the other day, I bought her a funny birthday card while daddy bought her a fruit cum bird nest cum flower basket. She really seemed happy... the last time I saw her was yesterday, she was still quite awake... but still quite breathless. Well, think i can save on the details.
Did I ever told u how did my christian name came abt? well... it was 2nd aunt who gave my this name 'Emily'. It stands for 'Every Minute I Love You'... haaha.. funny rite? I was told, when I was born, everyone thought i looked ugly... so they associated me with 2nd aunt, whom she herself also claimed that i'm even uglier than her! haizz...
She and my uncle were looking forward to spending their May holidays in Spain and Portugal... and now... haiz.
I once watched this show, the actress said something which I felt it was quite true.
She said, when those who are leaving, often are like kites flying with the wind.
But often they are held back, by those whom they loved and those who loved them, as if they are pulling onto the string attached to the kite.
Hence, they can't let go...
Therefore, we must learn to let go when it is time to do so, then they can fly with the wind, and land at a place wherever the wind brings them to, and settle there peacefully.
True huh? But how often isit when u'll use your mind to think esp when u are overcome by emotions?? Quite unlikely it seems...
Actually my 2nd aunt has always been soft-spoken... always encouraged me, believed in me. Even when she was in the hospital, i msg her to tell her not to giveup, we'll always be there for her. But instead, so asked abt my exams, how am i coping. I told her I'm fine, just a little stressed. And she said she believed I can do it, just like i always had.
So how can god take away such a nice person? But sometimes such things can't be explained.. when ur time is up, its time to say gdbye... We're are all very saddened by her sudden departure, we never meant to say gdbye. I didn't... tts y i left the hospital quietly yest, coz i didnt want to disturb her resting. Or maybe i shld.. haiz.
Life is so fragile... esp when anything can happen anytime, to anyone. Like my 2nd aunt, she was already suppose to enjoy her life...when both my cousins are already living quite well. My elder cousin is even pregnant with her 3rd child. A pity that the child couldn't have a chance to see his/her gramma. And my 2nd cousin was promoted recently...
So what I suggest to all my frenz, pls persuade your parents and grandparents to go for yearly full body checkup... esp when there is a history of sickness in your family genes.Pls don't try ti save such expenses coz it'll be even a larger amt when ur health deteroriates!! I think everytime when we regret, it is often too late to make amendments. So live your life well and strong, cherish every minute of it.
haizz... Hope she can find a peaceful place up there, wherever she is...She'll always be loved and living in our hearts.
In loving memory of my 2nd aunt,
Your niece whom you gave this name, I love this name very much and...
Thank u so much for believing in me...
Friday, 28 April 2006
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Haaha,... I feel blessed to have such gd friends around me. Was quite surprised when i received a msg from Ms D... from her msg, it suddenly dawn on me that she might have grown to be more mature as compared to her younger days. It was very comforting to hear from her... haaha, she sms saying "gd nite em, u must be weary nowadays.. see u soon" It might seem short, but its already very comforting for me to hear this.. esp from her. Thanx... I really appreciate it. But i'm fine.. cooping well, but abit stress, everyday telling myself I don't have much time, theer are still many materials I have not touch on to revise for exams!!!
I saw W online the other day... I duno y, but it always seem so coincidental that whenever I need come comfort or words of advice, W will pop out all of a sudden. ha... that was my initial impression of W when we were in jc. W was suppose to be from the Science stream when W changed and join the Arts stream, and suddenly just appeared in my class one day. Funny... some ppl think W is weird.. coz we just simply can't understand W's behaviour and actions. But still, we became friends, and even closer friends after we left jc. Actually, W is just being nice, W is always nice to everybody... (or else i thought so), haaha...
My mom & youngest aunt, even 2nd aunt herself is understanding to tell me to focus and concentrate on my exam preparation. Ya.. I do know my priorities... but I can't help feeling a little upset when I know I can't do much to help sharing their burden and worry. Ya, even if i'm free, i might not be able to offer much help either... coz i'm not god.. which sometimes i wish i was. Hopefully I'll be able to help out after my exams...
Heard tt 2nd aunt has started on her therapy yesterday, and she seemed to be in gd spirits and having a gd appetite. She had tomyam noodle for supper last nite... glad to hear tt. Today is her birthday, i wish she'll get well soon and be brave to fight against her sickness. We're quite a close nitted family... (or else I thought so)... =)
yawnz... sleeping is never enough for me. I took a nap the other day from 6 to 8pm and woke up feeling superb tired and lazy. Gramma was saying 'y don't u sleep longer so u won't feel so tired, and then u can concentrate better when ur studying?' hmmm... it does makes sense.. but!! How many hours are considered enough? Duhz... I'm someone who can sleep 12hrs straight and wake up still feeling tired. HHAAAHAH!!! Gd gracious... lolz
I saw W online the other day... I duno y, but it always seem so coincidental that whenever I need come comfort or words of advice, W will pop out all of a sudden. ha... that was my initial impression of W when we were in jc. W was suppose to be from the Science stream when W changed and join the Arts stream, and suddenly just appeared in my class one day. Funny... some ppl think W is weird.. coz we just simply can't understand W's behaviour and actions. But still, we became friends, and even closer friends after we left jc. Actually, W is just being nice, W is always nice to everybody... (or else i thought so), haaha...
My mom & youngest aunt, even 2nd aunt herself is understanding to tell me to focus and concentrate on my exam preparation. Ya.. I do know my priorities... but I can't help feeling a little upset when I know I can't do much to help sharing their burden and worry. Ya, even if i'm free, i might not be able to offer much help either... coz i'm not god.. which sometimes i wish i was. Hopefully I'll be able to help out after my exams...
Heard tt 2nd aunt has started on her therapy yesterday, and she seemed to be in gd spirits and having a gd appetite. She had tomyam noodle for supper last nite... glad to hear tt. Today is her birthday, i wish she'll get well soon and be brave to fight against her sickness. We're quite a close nitted family... (or else I thought so)... =)
yawnz... sleeping is never enough for me. I took a nap the other day from 6 to 8pm and woke up feeling superb tired and lazy. Gramma was saying 'y don't u sleep longer so u won't feel so tired, and then u can concentrate better when ur studying?' hmmm... it does makes sense.. but!! How many hours are considered enough? Duhz... I'm someone who can sleep 12hrs straight and wake up still feeling tired. HHAAAHAH!!! Gd gracious... lolz
Friday, April 14, 2006
I need to breathe in fresh air... exercise more and why can't I fastforward my Taiwan trip??! arghh...
Things i want and wish:
1)score well for exams
2)be slimmer... faintz, i wish i won't outgrow my suit i bought for my future interviews
3)2nd aunt to be cured quickly and leave the dreadful hospital
4)holidays!!... my alisan-de-gu-niang
5)get a interesting job, work with fantastic and nice ppl and with a reasonable pay =)
6)catch up with all my frenz... sec, jc, temp job and uni mates! whr's the fun tt is missing? waiting to be found at the lost-n-found?
7)live happily ever after... (*sniggles)
Things i want and wish:
1)score well for exams
2)be slimmer... faintz, i wish i won't outgrow my suit i bought for my future interviews
3)2nd aunt to be cured quickly and leave the dreadful hospital
4)holidays!!... my alisan-de-gu-niang
5)get a interesting job, work with fantastic and nice ppl and with a reasonable pay =)
6)catch up with all my frenz... sec, jc, temp job and uni mates! whr's the fun tt is missing? waiting to be found at the lost-n-found?
7)live happily ever after... (*sniggles)
Well well well... I just realised my last blogging was in march... time really flies!
Exams exams exams... I really hate it!! Why can't we go to sch without having exams and tests? Do exams really examine what we've learnt in sch? Or does it examine how much we can memorise and remember instead?
I'd rather live a life that all I need to do is to hunt for my own and family's food and live a life with no worries. Why doesn't anyone feel that we have to live a life worrying abt stuff in every stage of our life? Like when we're in pri to uni.. we have to worry abt exams, tests and sch. Then as we step into the society to work, we have to worry abt our pay, family, expenses. And as we grow even older, we have to worry abt ourselves, family, grandchildren... blah blah. Life is full of worries. Haaha, so thats why we have desserts 'tien ping' sold everywhere to sweeten our life.. isn't it? But then if we were to overeat the sweet stuff, we'll be down with diabetise. What an irony... =(
Tml is grampa's 2nd yr anniversary... Really miss him alot. Sometimes i'm still quite convinced that everything just happened yesterday, or rather nothing has happened. I still remember the pain... the anguish we all felt, the mental torment we had to go through. 2 years has passed so quickly... I was in Econs revision class when it happened. haiz...
Most prob tml i'll be going to de temple to pray my maternal grandmother too... she has left us for almost half a yr already. Sometimes i really wonder if this is all real, if its really true, does it really exist.
I think life is very unpredictable... sometimes things just happen so suddenly like it hits u so hard and fast on ur face. U can't avoid it... neither can u choose to hide away from it. So what do we do? Face the problem? But what are the consequences? The problem may still be there...
arghh... what a problematic world. sheesh....
Exams exams exams... I really hate it!! Why can't we go to sch without having exams and tests? Do exams really examine what we've learnt in sch? Or does it examine how much we can memorise and remember instead?
I'd rather live a life that all I need to do is to hunt for my own and family's food and live a life with no worries. Why doesn't anyone feel that we have to live a life worrying abt stuff in every stage of our life? Like when we're in pri to uni.. we have to worry abt exams, tests and sch. Then as we step into the society to work, we have to worry abt our pay, family, expenses. And as we grow even older, we have to worry abt ourselves, family, grandchildren... blah blah. Life is full of worries. Haaha, so thats why we have desserts 'tien ping' sold everywhere to sweeten our life.. isn't it? But then if we were to overeat the sweet stuff, we'll be down with diabetise. What an irony... =(
Tml is grampa's 2nd yr anniversary... Really miss him alot. Sometimes i'm still quite convinced that everything just happened yesterday, or rather nothing has happened. I still remember the pain... the anguish we all felt, the mental torment we had to go through. 2 years has passed so quickly... I was in Econs revision class when it happened. haiz...
Most prob tml i'll be going to de temple to pray my maternal grandmother too... she has left us for almost half a yr already. Sometimes i really wonder if this is all real, if its really true, does it really exist.
I think life is very unpredictable... sometimes things just happen so suddenly like it hits u so hard and fast on ur face. U can't avoid it... neither can u choose to hide away from it. So what do we do? Face the problem? But what are the consequences? The problem may still be there...
arghh... what a problematic world. sheesh....
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