Haiz... just like a nitemare coming through, such things does seem to always happen at an inappropriate time. Maybe its just pure coincidence... haiz... I really hate it when such things happen to me, esp during exam period. It really seem to me that i'll experience such stuff in every yr of my uni life. It really sucks...

I 1st received daddy's msg just when i was walking into the sch this morning... 2nd aunt was critical danger. I immediately called, and he was crying... saying the blood pressure was too low. Haiz.. duno y, history seem to repeat itself again. Just like when it was during my grampa's time. I called again later during my class break, and he told me the doctor said she won't be able to last thru today. And not long after the break... i receive the final news. My 2nd aunt just passed away.

My 2nd aunt just celebrated her 55th birthday in hospital the other day, I bought her a funny birthday card while daddy bought her a fruit cum bird nest cum flower basket. She really seemed happy... the last time I saw her was yesterday, she was still quite awake... but still quite breathless. Well, think i can save on the details.

Did I ever told u how did my christian name came abt? well... it was 2nd aunt who gave my this name 'Emily'. It stands for 'Every Minute I Love You'... haaha.. funny rite? I was told, when I was born, everyone thought i looked ugly... so they associated me with 2nd aunt, whom she herself also claimed that i'm even uglier than her! haizz...

She and my uncle were looking forward to spending their May holidays in Spain and Portugal... and now... haiz.

I once watched this show, the actress said something which I felt it was quite true.

She said, when those who are leaving, often are like kites flying with the wind.

But often they are held back, by those whom they loved and those who loved them, as if they are pulling onto the string attached to the kite.

Hence, they can't let go...

Therefore, we must learn to let go when it is time to do so, then they can fly with the wind, and land at a place wherever the wind brings them to, and settle there peacefully.

True huh? But how often isit when u'll use your mind to think esp when u are overcome by emotions?? Quite unlikely it seems...

Actually my 2nd aunt has always been soft-spoken... always encouraged me, believed in me. Even when she was in the hospital, i msg her to tell her not to giveup, we'll always be there for her. But instead, so asked abt my exams, how am i coping. I told her I'm fine, just a little stressed. And she said she believed I can do it, just like i always had.

So how can god take away such a nice person? But sometimes such things can't be explained.. when ur time is up, its time to say gdbye... We're are all very saddened by her sudden departure, we never meant to say gdbye. I didn't... tts y i left the hospital quietly yest, coz i didnt want to disturb her resting. Or maybe i shld.. haiz.

Life is so fragile... esp when anything can happen anytime, to anyone. Like my 2nd aunt, she was already suppose to enjoy her life...when both my cousins are already living quite well. My elder cousin is even pregnant with her 3rd child. A pity that the child couldn't have a chance to see his/her gramma. And my 2nd cousin was promoted recently...

So what I suggest to all my frenz, pls persuade your parents and grandparents to go for yearly full body checkup... esp when there is a history of sickness in your family genes.Pls don't try ti save such expenses coz it'll be even a larger amt when ur health deteroriates!! I think everytime when we regret, it is often too late to make amendments. So live your life well and strong, cherish every minute of it.

haizz... Hope she can find a peaceful place up there, wherever she is...She'll always be loved and living in our hearts.

In loving memory of my 2nd aunt,
Your niece whom you gave this name, I love this name very much and...
Thank u so much for believing in me...

Friday, 28 April 2006