yawnz...morning! woke up at 10+am just now, finished eating my milo balls and reading the newspaper. hmmm... i've been thinking alot since yesterday... i just can't figure out y. i mean, wat really happened to him? does ppl gain weight once they are attached or wat? so the need to feel and look beautiful isin't impt anymore?? i got a shock of my life when i saw him yesterday...even jin say she saw me jump. frankly speaking, i was, indeed shocked to see him like that. afterall, he was once my... (ahem!).... prince charming. coz he was so considerate, understanding, and caring... i still tink he's like that, but den... judging frm the physical appearance, i can't comprehend what is going on.

yaa yaa, teachers also teach us not to judge a book by its cover and not to judge a person from their outer appearance, and i've learnt an impt lesson from yesterday's birthdae bbq party. frenz who were huge and looked like teddy bears who accompany to sleep, now looked like hunks from baywatch... and those who were once pretty and handsome, now looked like they were surrendering hands down, defeated by the temptation of good food. haizz.... hmm, i wonder if im the latter.. hahahha!! some things are worth thinking abt. i was telling 1 of my guy frenz to bring me into camp with him so tt i can also slim down abit. lolz

i've been in a daze like mode since yesterday when i woke up... i'm still in my own world now. i seemed to be thinking of something, yet i have no idea what is that 'something' i am thinking. weird... yes, i'm a weirdo. emily the strange... ha!

oh no! just as i was day dreaming abt going back sch, i finally found out that i really need to get back to sch. shucks!! noe y? coz i accidentally left my econs notes under the desk yesterday after my AF lecture. damnit! hahaha... was tinking if i shld go down to sch personally to retrieve it when i tot of askin andy to keep it for me 1st. den i regretted coz he will onli be in sch on wed and thurs. meaning i'll have to go to sch on those days... and to get it back frm him personally. pai seh ah... hehehe. haven realli talked to him in real life before, except 'hi' and 'hey!' or 'bye!' hahaha... it whld b real awkward man!

uohh! i tink he realli looks cute! (pls save me the agony of being questioned who is the 'he' i'm tokin abt...thanx)
realli, i swear tt he really looks different when i 1st saw him this wk. hmmm... didn't see him for a few wks alreadi, seeing him again makes my heart skip a beat, esp having to had lunch together...i was trying not to stare, but not sure if my eyes betrayed me. hehhe... i still remember when i 1st met him, i was still wondering who he is. but alias! he is sort of "engaged".. so well... erm.. forget it la, i shldn't pinned such hopes for it it was meant to be a dream only. lolz.. (i tink i'm going crazy from all the studying, pardon me...) he realli looks gd, like he'll look even better after time to time. actually i have to admit tt i feel a little awkward having to sit together, coz we weren't very close, thus i was forced to look somewhr else e.g my hp, the ceiling, other ppl in the canteen etc. i kept his msg in my hp, looking at this simple msg can make me smile...haizz...

was tokin to derrick (my self-proclaimed gay partner), he said tt his time was up..he's preparing to be a gay or monk. made me laugh like hell...guys like him won't have the courage to ask gals out for the fear of rejection. well, i tink tt guys shld b thick skinned enuff, otherwise the gal will end up in someone's elses embrace. true rite...?! on the other hand, we have gals who are waiting desperately for the thick headed guys to open their GIM aka 'gold infested mouth' to ask them out for a date. sighh... i wonder what has this world become to..

tml we havta attend jorine's 21st bdae.. oh so i dislike having attend such gatherings when it is so near towards my exams!!! arghh... den i can't enjoy myself alreadi... can onli just pop in 'hi, eat.. bye!' hahahha... and meiyun's bdae nxt sat... die la... i hav 2 papers on tt day itself, not sure if i have the time and energy to go.

shucks!! =(

ahem ahem! haiz... having a bad throat and cough this new yr. guess i must have eaten too much of those heaty goodies. hahha...

well, this new yr have been a boring one. actually doesnt make a difference, just like any other normal day. most of my relatives didnt come coz they tot we're not celebrating. not true lei! we still welcome ppl, but den we didnt make tis new yr a much of a 'hoo ha' thingy. not really suppose to go hse visiting, but still i went, coz my mom's frenz didnt mind, so ask my mom to bring me along. so boh bian la, she drag me along. of coz i whld hav stayed at hm, even though thr's nth much to do at hm too. sianz...

tis is the 1st new yr widout grampa... feeling a little weird during reunion dinner, coz he is not thr. den we havta go to my ah ma's hse during de 1st day, so gramma is at hm alone wid de maid. usualli she'll be sitting nxt to de door wid my grampa, half alssep, half waiting for other relatives to come by. but tis yr is different... she's alone. haizz... i'm feeling a little sad. den my aunt brought her vcr to my hm coz we found a tape tt we took when going china for holiday. grampa is also in tt tape. so when i came hm, daddy ask me to put the tape, he wana watch, coz gramma is asleep. i put de the inside, but den it got stucked!! i panick like hell, so told daddy to take it out himself. he asked my bro to bring it to the shop to fix it. tis is the onli thingy we have since my bro's lappy break down, den all of grampa's pics also vanished within tt very minute. so pray hard tt tis tape whld b ok...

after new yr is mock exams... jialat la! haven even finish revising. i'm determine to make amendments for last yr. no way whld i staudy last min again... for i pray tt nth will happen tis yr. i'm also feeling guilty for failing my econs last yr. grampa always emphasize de need to study hard and make a mark for myself. this is my driving force, HE IS MY DRIVING FORCE... i'll do my best. i promise...

hey ho.. de mosquitoe! hahaha... siao char boh, duno wat de hell im tokin abt. sianz la!!chinese new yr is just next wk and after tt is my mock exams. haizz... so many things to revise, so many things to memorise, so mani things to do. arghh!!

im as lazy as a pig, infact, i tink i already looked like one... muaahahahaa!! self actualisation is the best policy.. hehehe. aiya! i also duno wat de hell im tokin abt. lolz... tink im going crazy.

hmnph! im going to eat my apple now, followed by doing things im suppose to be doing. haizz.... *giggles*