my heart goes out to those who have died in the earthquake and sincereity to those families who have lost their loved ones. lets pray for them... hope they'll find a place in heaven. may them be blessed.

haizz... just a stupid earthquake is enuff to jolt the whole Asia, leaving hundered thousands dead and many missing. Reading the newspaper, its so heartwrenching to see pictures of children who were bloated with stomachs as they were drowned. others who dead have many others accompanying them, either siblings, parents, or close relative members. haizz

thank god! my elder bro was safe and sound. he went to india for volunteery work, he called back to report his safety.
he was just a few hrs at the scene to watch sunrise. luckily.... pheww...and also, i was wid my frenz 1 wk ago at batu ferringhi beach. thank god i wasn't at penang a wk later, if not... who noes wat will happen?? hmm....

haizz... i was just tinkin, if i'm workin, i'll definitely quit my job and take on the role as a volunteer. i'll go to indonesia, or sri lanka to help those needy. they realli need our help. pls... all the gods, regardless or race and language, let us all pray for a simple hope, for a better tomorrow.

hahha... merry christmas everyone!!

seriousli i had a gd luff over wat jin and dot wrote for my christmas testimonial. wat a joke.. im totalli speechless. muahahaha

dot gave me a love dice, and jin gave me a box of roche prestige choc.. yummy!!
while exchanging presents, i got a cute doggy pencil holder frm kaili.
santa also said he'll gimme a teddy bear tt looked like de forever frenz' bear (who's santa?? i shall not divulge as he doesn't wana be named)

lalallala...later we're goin for steamboat at Tian Tian steamboat near bugis area. gramma, dad, mom, aunt, me and aaron. w0o h0o0!!

okies, gtg now and shower. i'm goin to visit my ah ma, so long nv see her alreadi. hope she's well. see yas everybody!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! =P

is christmas tt merry?? hmm.. i don't noe. thr's sth going on in my mind but i cant explain it.

saw snr in sch todae. my heart stop pounding and my blood turned cold and freeze. hahha. dun get me wrong, not tt i was surprised to see him, but i was shocked. a rude shock u can imagine. we were tokin outside megabites when i accidentalli turn my head and found him standing 1M away, staring at me. *faintzz* freaky man!! i felt as though my heart found its way to my mouth for a moment. i didnt noe wat to do, but to blurt out a 'err...hi!' lolz. it was terrible. and also at de busstop, he was thr! sandy was asking me if he changed his specs, well, i guess so. but its non-of-my-biz. hahahhaa... scary lei.... he gives me creeps and jitters down my back.

neway, todae is christmas eve's eve. we all went swensens for ice cream and logcake. i tot i onli promised to treat them de logcake, yet i can't explain wat happen to de $$i got back. hhaha, but nvm la. was fun indeed!guys were tokin like young sch boys and de gals were yakking away like siao char bohs. muahahaa... onli me and ruiyi concentrated on the 'earthquake'. lolz....

after tt we went ktv at cuppage, while justin and shaf went to play pool. actualli wana join them, coz i noe aaron wasn't inteerested in singing, and i had no plans to sing either. but den i was told he can't go in, coz underage. so we joined de rest instead. i onli sang a few songs. though didnt realli had de chance to sing, but on the other hand, i also have no mood to sing. abit sianz la.hahha...

i can't understand myself. how come when ppl are noisy i'll be quiet. den when ppl are like dead fishes, i'll be like a mad woman wid so much energy tt i duno whr i can let it out. hahhaha... i duno wats wrong wid myself. i'm confused, its complicated. do i realli like him? or isit tt he's too nice so i'm moved and trying to reciprocate? haizz....i duno........ i duno....

*sighz* i'm really very confused and lost... i really wana clarify all the doubts tt has been in my mind. but yet im afraid tt after c;arifying those doubts, it may jeopardise our friendship. but yet i'm very troubled if i don't. somebody pls help!!! he's being too nice, i can't stand it. not tt i don't appreciate ppl being nice to me, but at least i noe their intentions. but tis time round, i don't!! seems to me he's treating me as a very gd fren, but yet in de eyes of other ppl, he's being more den just a fren. tian ahhh...... im going bonkas. dun like such feelings and making me guess. its not a game. neither isit as easy as ABC. arghh... i duno if i shld just tell him straight, coz i'm afraid he isn;t feeling the same way as i do. den wait i malu. heellpppp..............!!!

hello!! hahha.... came back frm penang not long ago. well, dun ask me how was the trip, coz it wasn't really tt enjoyable. haizz.... many things cock up along the way. i'm tired of explaining again. well, hopefully the stupid agency will give as a satisfied explanation of wats going on and apology if necessary, damn fucked up leh!!

anyway, christmas is coming!! tis saturday is christmas!! somehow im not feeling as enthusiastic as before. perhaps becoz grampa is no longer ard. the feeling is different, coz as long i can still remember, he was hospitalised during last yr's christmas. i also dun feel anything for the coming chinese new yr. nth matters anymore...haiz

yest went down to 'enjoy tour agency' to complain abt the trip! PLS PPL! DUN EVER JOIN "ENJOY TOUR AGENCY" coz they suck... or perhaps i tink so. tis is the very 1st time such things happen when i travel to m'sia lor. hahaha.... li juan's face was quite scary when she dun smile... haha, but tt was de effect we need, so as to scare the agency's manager. muahaha...
after tt we all head down to IMM's Long Beach Restaurant to have our dinner and also to celebrate Lynette's bdae. i also duno y i joined them. onli when i see de bill, i regret. hahaha... i mean $21 for such a sumptous dinner is worth it. but den hor, i ana save $$ lei. so after my dinner, came hm online and complain to june, andy and cliff abt me wanting to find a part time job. but they dun hav lobang wor... no $$ = no satisfaction i get frm spending. lolz.

yeah.... they asked me to join them tis sunday go sentosa! so happy! coz i didnt get de satisfaction frm penang's beach... coz we went thr in de nite. (ya la! in de nite, see wat?!!) well, hopefully tis sentosa trip will be a fun one. hahahahha....

haha... i'm so happy and tired at de same time. *yawnz..*

todae met up wid jin and we shopped at far east, she bough me a purple top. lolz... anyway, walked till very tired. den dot joined us for dinner at NYDC, de new open air one outside heeren. den after tt we shopped somemore. de food at NYDC was ok... but de cake i had was fabulous! YUMMY! *slup slupz...* hehhe...

had a happy birthdae, but soemhow couldn't help but feel older. *ouch!!* hhaha. many ppl msg me tis morning and even the afternoon, birthday wishes came flooding in. i'm happy my frenz remembered my bdae! thanx everyone! i realli appreciated it!

my bdae ended nicely.. but somehow, 'nicely' became not so nice. i duno how to describe. WM called me askin me whr i was, i told him i was on de mrt, on de way hm. den he said if he's not wrong my hse is a 2 story one. den meaning he's outside my hse!! hmmm.... den i went hm, he was pacing up and down... den i aske dhim wat he was doin thr, den he say wana pass me present. aiyoz... i was feeling happy of coz. but den come to tink of it. it did seemed tt our relationship is weird. he's treatin me far too nice... i felt uncomfortable. still not used to it. he shook my hand and wished me ahppy birthdae, before quickly leaving. he left me wondering wats tis all abt. y whld a normal yet gd fren give a present outside de hse? he waited approximately 30mins for me to be back. haizz... im confused.

wat a tiring day... but nevertheless im happy! =)

hahha, in just another 1 and a half hrs time, its gona be my birthday, my 20th bdae to be exact. oh... how fast time flies. i'm hitting the big '2' alreadi... hmm...

todae is realli 1 big tiring day! went for AF in the morning, den after tt hui, kaili and me went orchard. kaili gave me a soft toy cow.. how cute! hehhe... den hui told me she's sharing presents wid the rest of them, haha, so we 3 roamed orchard for the whole of the noon, trying to find sth i like. haha.. but in de end hui told me my present still seem to be under budget. well, nvm la... save the $$ and buy me a big present nxt yr. how bt tt?? hahhaa... so in de end i ended up wid a bag frm topshop which i like and also a sleeveless top from nike. its quite nice, considering tt nike now has a new range of soprts wear so colourful. it used to be a single colour.... lolz.

lalala... den after tt, june came and den we went out separate ways. so tired! i walked to crown prince hotel to meet up wid daddy, gramma and auntie, and had our dinner thr. so full!! we ordered many dishes coz its ala-cart buffet. haha.. den we had this new thingy dessert which i have nv tried b4. its actualli red bean soup wid durian!! at 1st it tasted weird. wat i meant was i'm here eating a red bean soup, but it ended up tasting like durian! hahha... but not bad la. still edible... lolz. den me and auntie ordered extra white fungus wid red dates. not bad... coz its cold, so tasted so cooling. can quench my thirst... hehhe....

so happy happi happy!!! =)

*i love my parents, brothers, 2grammas, family and my beloved frenz!!*
*HuGs*

hmm... yesterdae we ordered pizza and kfc delivery for our dinner. yummy! gramma paid for it.. haha, aunt said she'll celebrate for me in advance tis thursdae, coz she wun be free on fridae. nvm la... betta den nth. hahaha... lalala... so happy lei.

topae had mkting in de noon, tot it was quite interesting. weird thing is tt when i was hungry last wk, patricia kept showing me food video. and todae, when im dying of thirst, she kept showing me coca cola videos! hahaha... lalala. after tt i went for cbis consultation. hehe.. he also went. though we didnt tok at all, but de presence was felt. hehhe... im a tingtong....

hahhaa... just now kaili msg me askin if im goin for thurs morning or afternoon AF, coz she say she bought me a bdae present. wana pass to me. so if im goin for de noon class den she can onli give it to me nxt wk. so of coz i'll attend de morning class rite? muahaha... so happii!!!

oh well well... haven been writing anything on my blog, coz im too lazy to do so. hahha... well in a gd mood recently, coz aaron and mom are away to nepal for holiday and my elder bro just left to catch de plane to india tonite. i'll be missing them, coz no1 to quarrel wid me... hahha.

daddy and bro bought me an mp3 yesterday! its a light metallic blue creative muvo slim player.. tot it didnt look nice at 1st. but after a while, i've gotten quite used to it. lolz... but sometimes i still dun realli understand y thr iditna 'stop' button. hahha...

yesterdae woke up at 530am to send mummy and aaron to the airport. stupid lor... wanting to eat breakfast at macdonald's.. but den.. i just couldn't find it!! lolz... den in de end i bought a pkt of choc milk and drank it. den after tt me and alvin took a bus hm. reached hm at 830am, and fell asleep, coz buay than alreadi. was sleeping and dreaming away when i suddenly heard my 2nd aunt's voice.. haha, no wonder. coz she came and wana take gramma out for lunch. alvin had too many last min stuff to do, so couldn't join us. so in de end me, 2nd aunt, my gramma and de maid went to tampines mall's 'fei chiu xiao chu' which is part of the crystal jade's restaurant. i didnt noe how2 order, coz de maid was wid us, ordered some tim sum, which i tot carrot cake was simply just made of carrots, but i was wrong.. they had pork inside. den again, i ordered fried yam, and i realli tot it was just made of purely yam! but den again. thr was pork inside. haha.. so de maid ate a plate of fried beef noodles, which tasted quite gd. den after tt we went metro to shop shop. i bought a yellow top which says 'banana trader' and a light khaki green 3 quarters. haha.. and my 2nd aunt paid for it.. w0o0o....!! happy happy. tink the happiest was my maid. keep grinning frm ear to ear like an idiot. hahahha... coz my 2nd aunt bought her a 'the incredibles' top from bossini, she choose de pink top herself. haha... den i also bought daddy 2 polo collar shirts, sort of a belated bdae gift. and also so tt he could wear them to work. hehhe... after tt when my 2nd aunt was away buying some food to ta bao hm, i went to buy ice cream for my maid. she was so happy... hmm... easily satisfied. true la, coz seldom she can get out of de hse also. lalalala... was a happy day!

hmm... nowadays like keep going out wid de new found grp of frenz. hahha... quite a nice grp, be it ladies or de guys. they're quite fun to be around with. hahha.

oh btw, i also cut my hair. tink it makes me look 10 yrs older!!! eekks!!! im gona cut my hair, so tt wid it being shorter i'll look younger. hahaha.... but waste $$ again... sianz.. =(

yeaaa... yippee~!!!! my bdae is coming... but den hor, my brothers and mom wun be ard to celebrate for me, though they have given me my advance bdae presents. hmm... de hse it very quiet now. only de sound of de computer generator, the fan and de sound of me typing on the keyboard... but anyway, nvm. coz youngest aunt said we'll all go out and have steamboat on my bdae.. hurray!!! and also... i'll be going for a short holiday at penang wid kaili, sandy and her frenz. lalallaa... looking forward to it man! hehhe... i'm too, grinning frm ear to ear like an idiot. haha..