haiz... i also duno wats wrong wid me. andy accidentally stepped on my tail widout realising he did it... i dun blame him, yet i can be irritated easily when he make silly jokes sometimes. aiya! duno la.. den just as my mood was swinging, i find myself being anti guys again. tink its becoz im comparing guys wid HIM again... i noe i shldn't do tt, but sometimes it just comes naturally to compare other guys to him. to me, he's a very gd fren, a sensitive guy, whom no one could ever replace HIM in my heart. this HIM, is some1 whom i known for many yrs, we had quite a few similarites. when tokin to jin, we both agreed tt he's de BEST of guys we've come across. HE is some1 whom i've come to know, but yet, i've missed to catch him. he IS a gd catch, and a very gd one. but unfortunately, he isin't The One for me. so sadly... i duno wat 2 say. i do cherish our friendship, though sometimes i kept tinking of the past. how things will change if we're realli together? frenz told me tt i've missed de opportunity to catch him, he was just within my grasp. so near...yet so far.... perhaps we're just not fated to be together, but just to remain as frenz. but being just frens, i'm really blessed and feel very lucky and fortunate in having to find him among de many ppl i've came to know. HE just simply stood out in the crowd, simply, by just being HIM.

HE is the one (so far) tt i felt differences btw us werent important. i fell hard, when he doesnt reciprocate how i felt for him yrs ago. but nvm, it was many yrs ago....it doesnt change for how i felt for him. a fren may he be, but he is one who has found a place in my heart. i thank god for letting us meet.
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