its been exactly a yr...how times flies. i couldn't sleep, so decided to come in and blog.

i've been thinking alot abt grampa todae... today's his 1st anniversary.

woke up at 6am this morning, den went to attend granduncle's funeral. yap indeed, he doesn't look like him after the 'make-up', my aunt even tot he looked a little like grampa. ha... hmm.....i wonder y must they always hav a band at such places, not tt i find them noisy but wouldn't it be better if we were to play songs from a cd or sth like tt? i was fighting back tears this morning, not tt i was crying for granduncle, but the whole thing reminded me of grampa, wat happened exactly a yr ago. it still haunted me. not tt i had nitemares abt tt, but it still lingers very clearly in my memory. i still can't accept the fact tt grampa has left... i mean, its alreadi been a yr, but it feels like everything just happened yesterday! my heart aches for him...i miss talking to him. i really mean it!

i still remember him calling me from his workplace, asking if i want chinese cakes. i remember him bringing back red nail polish from his workplace, him bringing me to the roti-prata shop... us eating at the macdonald's.

i possibly can i write out how i feel? don't tink tts possible... no words can comprehend how im feeling. somehow i keep regret things i did in the past... like raising my voice at him, little stupid petty things i did. but i tink thr's no room for regret now...we always regret after doing stupid things don't we? till now i still wonder y.....

tml we're going crystal jade at taka for lunch...i'm talking abt food now coz i'm hungry now...used up lotsa energy todae... can't blame me.

haizz...