oh btw... perhaps sandy and kaili have been sick of hearing me saying this "AM I GETTING FATTER??!" hahha... but de truth is... i do seem to be heavier, or at least i tot my weight shld stay, despite de fact tt my weight always fluctuate. but den again, does tt mean being heavier = getting fatter= looks fatter? oh nooo0o0o!! seriously, i haven been eating alot, like how i use to in de past, but den.... im heavier?! wat kinda theory is this?!!! arghhh....

i'm just eating normal, sometimes i even skipped my lunch (not purposely, but sometimes either i dun feel like eating, or thr isint time to eat!) haizz... or isit coz im stressed, so my hormones are imbalance? hahahhaaa.... u noe i went to kfc on mondae, duhhzz... i can't even finish my 2 piece meal!! i finished my whipped potato and half a pkt of small fries and was into my 1st chicken. half way thru biting and chewing... im so bloated and full!! euuww... sounds disgusting yeh? lolz... real funni... my stomach is so weird. when i was in sec sch, i could finish a mac up sized meal, but now... half way into de burger i'm so darn bloated alreadi... perhaps i was realli growing at tt period. hahhaha....! HOMONES IMBALANCE...! hehhe...

oops...! i didnt noe it has been this long since i last blogged. hahhaa...well, just being busy coz had a few tests this wk, and also, mock exams is just round de corner. it'll be just ard 2 to 3 wks after Chinese new yr. snorez... so tired! aahhh.... still hav lotsa things not done yet!

I'm so confused wid my AF... duno wat to do, no matter how long i read or stare at de book, i still encounter probs whenever i do my assignments! sick manz!!! haizz...as for cbis, duno how de hell to apply wat was taught to de ans... haha, i was sort of using general knowledge when asnwering for my test on wed. de test on tues was worse, i forgot how2 label my diagram, so since i saw ppl copying from de notes, i pulled out and started to see how 2 label de diagram. who noes?!! de lecturer appeared out of no where, and was beside me. haha! was a shock! she said "aiya, dun worrie, just put ur notes on the table, at least ur forcing urself to write, its ok." wah piangz... i didnt realli copy la... but wrote in my own language. haha... as for mon's hrm test, oh oh...! i didnt attend. hahhaa... couldn't finish reading all de materials la! so mani... 5 topics covered and de damn bloody hell lecturer told us a test 1 wk ago. how2 prepare when i hav 2 other tests in de same wk? siao!!

lalalala.... todae is thurs.. can rest liao... pheeww... catch a breather. den this wkend wun be free either, coz havta help bake the cashew nuts and fry the cracker. oh me godness... still havta go NTUC to help buy those drinks and sweets! arghh... tough time! i still hav so much things haven study yet! cool cool... tis is onli mock... no sweat!! no sweat!! lolz...

relaxxx la!!! dun pressurize me. after quarreling wid mummy de other day, she actually stopped her naggings!! ww0o0o0o!! peace man! perhaps she really tot how stress and presurrized i was. it's true! tink of last yr, i didnt give a damn when it was mock. but now.. im freaking out!!! no time no time... (minus time set aside for entertainment e.g tv, movies, shopping, CNY, chit-chatting, do nth) hahaha... perhaps she noe i'm trying... hmm.... i dun wan anything to happen this yr. not when im tryin to study for my exams. choyy!!! touch wood...

hey girls! just ta-han this for say... another 5 mths, den we'll be able to enjoy k? Hong Kong? Taiwan? or Diving? hehehe... ^-^

oh ya! i forgot to tell u all... i went to mediacorp on monday lei!!!

hahahahaa... coz i happened to stay in sch to study, den saw ruiyi, she asked me, saying she has extra tickets to watch them record 'top fun' this chi variety show, wid mark lee and chen jianbin as the hosts. they're so funni, yet lame at de same time! muahahaa

den fish leong was also thr! free singing of 2 songs for us! hurrayyy!! den i also saw michelle xie yunyi! aiyoz.... so slim! w0o0o0o... and huang biren is damn tall lor... even when wearing sports shoes, she's still taller den michelle. hanor...

I'M SO TIRED!! for 3 executive days i've been in sch till 6pm. wah piangz...tis wk had been quite busy, attending lectures and consultation classes. tian ahhh...!

hmm... he msg me suddenli to clarify things wid me. i'm glad he did. coz previously our relationship had been quite messy and confusing. well... im feeling relieved. coz i noe thr's just sth wrong if he did realli felt de way he shldn't be feeling. hhahaa... but den, he's quite a nice guy la. so... still available for gals out thr..

i duno, hui said its quite sad. perhaps she's comparing me with dorris. well, maybe thr's always an exception to such relationships la. i noe he's nice, but we're just not meant to be, so nvm lor. hahha... not tt i've gave anything in this 'relationship'. so im not upset la.. yawnz...

lallalala... tml goin relc to pay sch fees. mummy was so shocked to noe my exam fees is 2 thousand plus. hahaha... okies! i'm determined to pass all my subjects. pls dun blame me la, failing econs last yr was an accident. i promised not to repeat de mistake. *failing doesn't make my life any easier also lor* duhzz...

happy 13th brithday aaron!
though i dislike this stupid boy having irritating me on many occasions, i still love him as a little bro!

hope he'll grow up to become a handsome and also, well behave guy.

noe wat? i was still checking on his homework, den he was yelling saying he'll noe wat to do, ask me stop bothering him. den i realised tt true enuff, he's alreadi in sec sch, i shld stop acting as though he's still in pri sch. ok! no strings attached! i'm not gona b kpo auntie and nag... ha!

=) happy 21st birthdae to hui!

wat a lazy afternoon... yawnz. i just woke up frm my afternoon nap. ha! fell asleep (or rather i just told myself to sleep) when reading my cbis notes. sianz. another test coming soon on 26th. arghh!! tis is 1 of the subjects i dislike, noe y? coz i just can't relate it. everything is in computing terms and its not tt easy as though they're gona ask u "wats a mouse?". duhzz....

snorez... i'll havta work doubly hard this yr. coz last yr, grampa's death came unexpectedly just a few wks before my exams. last minute cramming + his death wasn't easy for me to cope. so this yr, i'll just havta start revising earli, just in case u noe, well... just in case. (i'm keeping my fingers cross...)

tink i'll start making notes for cbis 1st (coz its de subject i tink is de toughest) den followed by AF (another tough subject for a simple brain like mine), den i can slowly revise my mkting and hrm. not tt i tink these 2 subjects are easy, but they're easier to relate to our daily lives in terms of its content, its more realistic, rather den tt dead cbis. arghh...

mock exams is coming in say...6 wks time. coz its startin at de end of feb... den in btw we have final revisions wid local lecturers and workshops. den the real terror begins ard end of may to starting of july. =(

(i absolutely hate exams...!)

ohh... yawnz.

fell sick on wednesday. my bodyached as though someone split it into 2... even had difficulty turning over when i was sleeping. haizz... went to see a doc, and the medicine made me groggy and dizzy. so fell into deep sleep for almost the whole day. so wat a perfect excuse to skip my cbis class again.. *oops...pls ignore tis * hahha!

hmm... todae is friday, wat have i done? err... read abit of mkting, was determined to do part of my assignment, but switched on the radio and thr i go, singing along. no work done... oops...! read abit of hrm but none went into my brain. tot tt wat i read frm de article kareem gave was absolutely rubbish! muahaha... okok, shall continue working on my assignment later.

tml is hui's bdae party in advance. lets wish her happy 21st birthdae!!! woww... tt sounds old doesn't it? hahah... mine whld b 11 mths later. lalalala...aaron's bdae is also de same as hui. he says he wan to have a bbq. wats de matter? he's onli 13th tis yr, and he wans to invite his frenz over. wats de big deal? cheyy!! i didnt buy him anything though.

he was tellin me in de face, "u betta buy me a billabong or OP pencil box..."
i replied "i have no $$ la... broke alreadi!"
he said "how can u have no $$ when u can buy ur frenz a bdae present?!"
and i argued "tts de reason i'm broke! after buyin her present i'm left wid less than $60 for de whole of january!"

faintz... he just doesnt understand. onli 13 wat?! wats de big deal... maybe i can psycho my mom to buy him tt instead. anyway, he got a new sony erricsson hp. tts more than anything else... dont u agree?? ha...

hmmm....i'm not thinkin of him anymore. coz yest i turned on the radio, and this gal wrote in and her story is similar to mine. so i guess we're just very gd frenz. which is also a gd news ya?? hmm....

i'm HUNGRY laa!!!!!!!!! but i have no appetite... -_-
after being sick, i've been eatin very little. as little as like 3 bread in a day... *faintz...* wat a perfect excuse to b on diet. ha... u see how long can tis go... u can predict. no longer than 1 wk! muahahaha...

ta...

my heart goes out to those who have died in the earthquake and sincereity to those families who have lost their loved ones. lets pray for them... hope they'll find a place in heaven. may them be blessed.

haizz... just a stupid earthquake is enuff to jolt the whole Asia, leaving hundered thousands dead and many missing. Reading the newspaper, its so heartwrenching to see pictures of children who were bloated with stomachs as they were drowned. others who dead have many others accompanying them, either siblings, parents, or close relative members. haizz

thank god! my elder bro was safe and sound. he went to india for volunteery work, he called back to report his safety.
he was just a few hrs at the scene to watch sunrise. luckily.... pheww...and also, i was wid my frenz 1 wk ago at batu ferringhi beach. thank god i wasn't at penang a wk later, if not... who noes wat will happen?? hmm....

haizz... i was just tinkin, if i'm workin, i'll definitely quit my job and take on the role as a volunteer. i'll go to indonesia, or sri lanka to help those needy. they realli need our help. pls... all the gods, regardless or race and language, let us all pray for a simple hope, for a better tomorrow.

hahha... merry christmas everyone!!

seriousli i had a gd luff over wat jin and dot wrote for my christmas testimonial. wat a joke.. im totalli speechless. muahahaha

dot gave me a love dice, and jin gave me a box of roche prestige choc.. yummy!!
while exchanging presents, i got a cute doggy pencil holder frm kaili.
santa also said he'll gimme a teddy bear tt looked like de forever frenz' bear (who's santa?? i shall not divulge as he doesn't wana be named)

lalallala...later we're goin for steamboat at Tian Tian steamboat near bugis area. gramma, dad, mom, aunt, me and aaron. w0o h0o0!!

okies, gtg now and shower. i'm goin to visit my ah ma, so long nv see her alreadi. hope she's well. see yas everybody!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! =P

is christmas tt merry?? hmm.. i don't noe. thr's sth going on in my mind but i cant explain it.

saw snr in sch todae. my heart stop pounding and my blood turned cold and freeze. hahha. dun get me wrong, not tt i was surprised to see him, but i was shocked. a rude shock u can imagine. we were tokin outside megabites when i accidentalli turn my head and found him standing 1M away, staring at me. *faintzz* freaky man!! i felt as though my heart found its way to my mouth for a moment. i didnt noe wat to do, but to blurt out a 'err...hi!' lolz. it was terrible. and also at de busstop, he was thr! sandy was asking me if he changed his specs, well, i guess so. but its non-of-my-biz. hahahhaa... scary lei.... he gives me creeps and jitters down my back.

neway, todae is christmas eve's eve. we all went swensens for ice cream and logcake. i tot i onli promised to treat them de logcake, yet i can't explain wat happen to de $$i got back. hhaha, but nvm la. was fun indeed!guys were tokin like young sch boys and de gals were yakking away like siao char bohs. muahahaa... onli me and ruiyi concentrated on the 'earthquake'. lolz....

after tt we went ktv at cuppage, while justin and shaf went to play pool. actualli wana join them, coz i noe aaron wasn't inteerested in singing, and i had no plans to sing either. but den i was told he can't go in, coz underage. so we joined de rest instead. i onli sang a few songs. though didnt realli had de chance to sing, but on the other hand, i also have no mood to sing. abit sianz la.hahha...

i can't understand myself. how come when ppl are noisy i'll be quiet. den when ppl are like dead fishes, i'll be like a mad woman wid so much energy tt i duno whr i can let it out. hahhaha... i duno wats wrong wid myself. i'm confused, its complicated. do i realli like him? or isit tt he's too nice so i'm moved and trying to reciprocate? haizz....i duno........ i duno....

*sighz* i'm really very confused and lost... i really wana clarify all the doubts tt has been in my mind. but yet im afraid tt after c;arifying those doubts, it may jeopardise our friendship. but yet i'm very troubled if i don't. somebody pls help!!! he's being too nice, i can't stand it. not tt i don't appreciate ppl being nice to me, but at least i noe their intentions. but tis time round, i don't!! seems to me he's treating me as a very gd fren, but yet in de eyes of other ppl, he's being more den just a fren. tian ahhh...... im going bonkas. dun like such feelings and making me guess. its not a game. neither isit as easy as ABC. arghh... i duno if i shld just tell him straight, coz i'm afraid he isn;t feeling the same way as i do. den wait i malu. heellpppp..............!!!

hello!! hahha.... came back frm penang not long ago. well, dun ask me how was the trip, coz it wasn't really tt enjoyable. haizz.... many things cock up along the way. i'm tired of explaining again. well, hopefully the stupid agency will give as a satisfied explanation of wats going on and apology if necessary, damn fucked up leh!!

anyway, christmas is coming!! tis saturday is christmas!! somehow im not feeling as enthusiastic as before. perhaps becoz grampa is no longer ard. the feeling is different, coz as long i can still remember, he was hospitalised during last yr's christmas. i also dun feel anything for the coming chinese new yr. nth matters anymore...haiz

yest went down to 'enjoy tour agency' to complain abt the trip! PLS PPL! DUN EVER JOIN "ENJOY TOUR AGENCY" coz they suck... or perhaps i tink so. tis is the very 1st time such things happen when i travel to m'sia lor. hahaha.... li juan's face was quite scary when she dun smile... haha, but tt was de effect we need, so as to scare the agency's manager. muahaha...
after tt we all head down to IMM's Long Beach Restaurant to have our dinner and also to celebrate Lynette's bdae. i also duno y i joined them. onli when i see de bill, i regret. hahaha... i mean $21 for such a sumptous dinner is worth it. but den hor, i ana save $$ lei. so after my dinner, came hm online and complain to june, andy and cliff abt me wanting to find a part time job. but they dun hav lobang wor... no $$ = no satisfaction i get frm spending. lolz.

yeah.... they asked me to join them tis sunday go sentosa! so happy! coz i didnt get de satisfaction frm penang's beach... coz we went thr in de nite. (ya la! in de nite, see wat?!!) well, hopefully tis sentosa trip will be a fun one. hahahahha....

haha... i'm so happy and tired at de same time. *yawnz..*

todae met up wid jin and we shopped at far east, she bough me a purple top. lolz... anyway, walked till very tired. den dot joined us for dinner at NYDC, de new open air one outside heeren. den after tt we shopped somemore. de food at NYDC was ok... but de cake i had was fabulous! YUMMY! *slup slupz...* hehhe...

had a happy birthdae, but soemhow couldn't help but feel older. *ouch!!* hhaha. many ppl msg me tis morning and even the afternoon, birthday wishes came flooding in. i'm happy my frenz remembered my bdae! thanx everyone! i realli appreciated it!

my bdae ended nicely.. but somehow, 'nicely' became not so nice. i duno how to describe. WM called me askin me whr i was, i told him i was on de mrt, on de way hm. den he said if he's not wrong my hse is a 2 story one. den meaning he's outside my hse!! hmmm.... den i went hm, he was pacing up and down... den i aske dhim wat he was doin thr, den he say wana pass me present. aiyoz... i was feeling happy of coz. but den come to tink of it. it did seemed tt our relationship is weird. he's treatin me far too nice... i felt uncomfortable. still not used to it. he shook my hand and wished me ahppy birthdae, before quickly leaving. he left me wondering wats tis all abt. y whld a normal yet gd fren give a present outside de hse? he waited approximately 30mins for me to be back. haizz... im confused.

wat a tiring day... but nevertheless im happy! =)

hahha, in just another 1 and a half hrs time, its gona be my birthday, my 20th bdae to be exact. oh... how fast time flies. i'm hitting the big '2' alreadi... hmm...

todae is realli 1 big tiring day! went for AF in the morning, den after tt hui, kaili and me went orchard. kaili gave me a soft toy cow.. how cute! hehhe... den hui told me she's sharing presents wid the rest of them, haha, so we 3 roamed orchard for the whole of the noon, trying to find sth i like. haha.. but in de end hui told me my present still seem to be under budget. well, nvm la... save the $$ and buy me a big present nxt yr. how bt tt?? hahhaa... so in de end i ended up wid a bag frm topshop which i like and also a sleeveless top from nike. its quite nice, considering tt nike now has a new range of soprts wear so colourful. it used to be a single colour.... lolz.

lalala... den after tt, june came and den we went out separate ways. so tired! i walked to crown prince hotel to meet up wid daddy, gramma and auntie, and had our dinner thr. so full!! we ordered many dishes coz its ala-cart buffet. haha.. den we had this new thingy dessert which i have nv tried b4. its actualli red bean soup wid durian!! at 1st it tasted weird. wat i meant was i'm here eating a red bean soup, but it ended up tasting like durian! hahha... but not bad la. still edible... lolz. den me and auntie ordered extra white fungus wid red dates. not bad... coz its cold, so tasted so cooling. can quench my thirst... hehhe....

so happy happi happy!!! =)

*i love my parents, brothers, 2grammas, family and my beloved frenz!!*
*HuGs*

hmm... yesterdae we ordered pizza and kfc delivery for our dinner. yummy! gramma paid for it.. haha, aunt said she'll celebrate for me in advance tis thursdae, coz she wun be free on fridae. nvm la... betta den nth. hahaha... lalala... so happy lei.

topae had mkting in de noon, tot it was quite interesting. weird thing is tt when i was hungry last wk, patricia kept showing me food video. and todae, when im dying of thirst, she kept showing me coca cola videos! hahaha... lalala. after tt i went for cbis consultation. hehe.. he also went. though we didnt tok at all, but de presence was felt. hehhe... im a tingtong....

hahhaa... just now kaili msg me askin if im goin for thurs morning or afternoon AF, coz she say she bought me a bdae present. wana pass to me. so if im goin for de noon class den she can onli give it to me nxt wk. so of coz i'll attend de morning class rite? muahaha... so happii!!!

oh well well... haven been writing anything on my blog, coz im too lazy to do so. hahha... well in a gd mood recently, coz aaron and mom are away to nepal for holiday and my elder bro just left to catch de plane to india tonite. i'll be missing them, coz no1 to quarrel wid me... hahha.

daddy and bro bought me an mp3 yesterday! its a light metallic blue creative muvo slim player.. tot it didnt look nice at 1st. but after a while, i've gotten quite used to it. lolz... but sometimes i still dun realli understand y thr iditna 'stop' button. hahha...

yesterdae woke up at 530am to send mummy and aaron to the airport. stupid lor... wanting to eat breakfast at macdonald's.. but den.. i just couldn't find it!! lolz... den in de end i bought a pkt of choc milk and drank it. den after tt me and alvin took a bus hm. reached hm at 830am, and fell asleep, coz buay than alreadi. was sleeping and dreaming away when i suddenly heard my 2nd aunt's voice.. haha, no wonder. coz she came and wana take gramma out for lunch. alvin had too many last min stuff to do, so couldn't join us. so in de end me, 2nd aunt, my gramma and de maid went to tampines mall's 'fei chiu xiao chu' which is part of the crystal jade's restaurant. i didnt noe how2 order, coz de maid was wid us, ordered some tim sum, which i tot carrot cake was simply just made of carrots, but i was wrong.. they had pork inside. den again, i ordered fried yam, and i realli tot it was just made of purely yam! but den again. thr was pork inside. haha.. so de maid ate a plate of fried beef noodles, which tasted quite gd. den after tt we went metro to shop shop. i bought a yellow top which says 'banana trader' and a light khaki green 3 quarters. haha.. and my 2nd aunt paid for it.. w0o0o....!! happy happy. tink the happiest was my maid. keep grinning frm ear to ear like an idiot. hahahha... coz my 2nd aunt bought her a 'the incredibles' top from bossini, she choose de pink top herself. haha... den i also bought daddy 2 polo collar shirts, sort of a belated bdae gift. and also so tt he could wear them to work. hehhe... after tt when my 2nd aunt was away buying some food to ta bao hm, i went to buy ice cream for my maid. she was so happy... hmm... easily satisfied. true la, coz seldom she can get out of de hse also. lalalala... was a happy day!

hmm... nowadays like keep going out wid de new found grp of frenz. hahha... quite a nice grp, be it ladies or de guys. they're quite fun to be around with. hahha.

oh btw, i also cut my hair. tink it makes me look 10 yrs older!!! eekks!!! im gona cut my hair, so tt wid it being shorter i'll look younger. hahaha.... but waste $$ again... sianz.. =(

yeaaa... yippee~!!!! my bdae is coming... but den hor, my brothers and mom wun be ard to celebrate for me, though they have given me my advance bdae presents. hmm... de hse it very quiet now. only de sound of de computer generator, the fan and de sound of me typing on the keyboard... but anyway, nvm. coz youngest aunt said we'll all go out and have steamboat on my bdae.. hurray!!! and also... i'll be going for a short holiday at penang wid kaili, sandy and her frenz. lalallaa... looking forward to it man! hehhe... i'm too, grinning frm ear to ear like an idiot. haha..

wat a day.... haha! 1 hr and 26 mins ago was still dot's bdae, and now its jin's. hahha... we had a gd time together this evening.

1st jin and i met up to watch Shutter. oh manz... its quite scary, had a fun time screamin away... muahaha... it's a nice show. hhehe

nxt we met up wid dot and proceeded to Petals whr we had our dinner. de service was quite gd and de ambience is nice! but thescenery wasn't tt nice, was it was at de side of the building, so looking ouyt of de window u can see de road and cars. hahah!! we ate, and ate and ate!!! i had a bun wid butter, den followed by mushroom soup... hmm.. yummy! de waiter suggested a cocktail called 'Grasshopper'. indeed it was green in colour, but after a few mouthfuls, it taste damn yucky!! but de lychee cum orange cocktail i ordered was nice!!

and den we had steak, which was de main course. and half way thru de steak i was so bloated alreadi... but didnt wan them to waste de $$, so i finish everything. de steak came wid a side portion of salad, which was quite nice, coz i didnt feel tt i was eating grass... lolz. den we had dessert which we can choose a variety of cakes or ice cream. i asked for a candle, den so funni, de waiter keep popping out beside jin, and coz she chldn't see him frm behind, she was shocked whenever tt waiter pop out frm no whr. hahaha... den they arranged to sing a birthday song for dot... which i tot they were quite listless, and jinb & i were busyin clickin on de camera. hahaha

i had a brownie, jin had rasin and rhum cake and dot had ice cream, but she was given a raspberry cake which was on-de-hse. but in de end, half of it ended up in jin's stomach. muahaha!! so full! lalalla... wonder if i'll get a diarrheoa tonite frm all tt eating!! haha... so mani diff juices flowing in my stomach now. tea, cocktail, mushroom soup, water... oh!!!

fun, fun, we had fun tonite!!! =)
*but den hor, jin & dot is 20 now... aaeuww... another yr older*

TA DAA!!!!!!!!! looks who's back?? ----> emily the lazy girl. hahha... dun be like tt la, i do admit i've been lazy, slackin ard. too lazy to update my blog.

well, last tues mkting class bump rite into jh, de last person on earth i'll like to see appearing infront of me. lolz... it was really accidental, and a damn irritating encounter! kaili and sandy had a great luff over it. stop luffin!!! aint funni ya noe...? spare me.... =(

hahaha.... den had a great long wkend. mostly stayin at hm and sleep. so shiok, but kana many complains. haha.. every1 dun understand how come i can sleep so much. esp gramma, i told her 12 hrs per day is the MINIMUM i need. hahha.. wat rubbish! went swimming wid aaron during the public holidae. haha, stupid boy keep wanting to time me using the stopwatch. so poor me... swimming and struggling to keep up. muahaha!!

went to az's hse on sundae, hair raya. me, aaron, william, satiish and yun zhi had our lunch thr. de food was not bad, but i didnt eat much, coz eating chilli stuff will make me pespire. so u can imagine me tryin to eat while.... hahha! but was nice la! den had ice cream after tt too... speaking of ice cream... yummm... feel like having 1 now too!! =)

nowadays keep raining hor? wat to do?? hmm... lazy emily also dun like to bring an umbrella ard, even though her mummy bought a light weight small umbrella for her convenience sake. hahaha...

i've been tryin very hard to control my expenses! but thr are just so many things i wana buy! like an mp3 player (btw creative gona hav sale btw de 19th to 21st---> take note girls!!), new pair of jeans, cut my hair... buy a watch. so many things!! wah piangz eh...whr to find $$$?? who wana sponser me??? hahahaha... must wait for my bdae, den $$ and presents will start to roll in. oops..!! did i just say tt out loud?? pls forgive me... *devilish grinz*

haizz... tink i haven been in a very gd temper these few days. haizz

on wed, a guy who sat infront of us turned ard and stared hard at sharon and joyce and said 'can u pls pay attention and listen to de lecture?!' woahh... so darn fierce sia!!though he didnt stare at me, somehow i still think he included me wid them, coz we're always together for cbis class. but de prob is we weren't tokin so loud, just once a while askin each other wat de lec wrote or said. and im must say, i'm NOT de 1 who always tok lor... den after class i went down to help them sign attendence when i came back, sharon told me de guy said 2 them 'no offense, but it has been weeks that u all have been tokin' wah lao.. damn fucking shitty arsehole!! pls lor....!! eveb if we did, he could rephrase it in a nicer way rite? y must he tell us in de middle of de lecture, and worse still, he was loud!!! kns kns... damnit fucker!!

haizz... i just quarrelled wid gramma. i mean, i was unhappy wid aaron actually. i mean since he had alreadi recovered frm his fever, den he can eat rice rite? y did gramma tell him he may not like de dishes cooked, so asked him wat he wana eat? i mean y all of de trouble when he has alreadi recovered?! den now she pushed all de blame onto me, sayin ask me 2 buy a pkt of mee also so diff, nxt time if she's de1 who wana eat de mee ........
i mean come on lor, even daddy ask aaron to eat de rice, so y must she tell him out of concern tt he may not like de dishes cooked for lunch!?!? aaron hasn't even seen wat de maid cooked. gramma always complain abt de maid and aaron. i always felt tt she doesn't act de same way as wat she has said! no logic at all!!! she always complain aaron being so rude and naughty, and yet when i or my parents were scolding or wacking him, she'll say we're so noisy, always make so much noise! no link lor... we scold him, she say we're noisy, we hit him, she'll ask us not to hit his head, not to hit his body, just hit hands or butt... wah lao!! den y don't she b de1 hitting or scolding aaron instead?? wat i meant was tt since she was de1 complaining everything, so we act according to her wishes, and when we did, she'll say something else. meaning = niu tou bu dui mah zui!!! understand?? and i explained to her y i was so pissed, but she kept insisting it was my fault, fine den... she's de1 who said everything, she's de1 who complain. everything comes frm her lor....i wanted to explain y ppl are doin this... its actualli coz she's de eldest in de family now, since grampa is gone... tts y OUT OF RESPECT, we don't argue back... but wat i tink is tt she's taking it for granted and always thinkin tt she's rite!!! i dun deny tt sometimes im in de wrong.. but den she also has to shoulder some of de blame also rite??! esp when aaron is realli so incorrigible... if we dun teach him a lesson, he say we're in favour of him. when we teach him a lesson, she say we're noisy and she'll interfer. i mean... don't u tink tt its so difficult trying to please her?? haizz... i realli duno at2 do. even daddy also sometimes is sandwiched inbetween. coz afterall she's his mom, how can be so rude and yell back? but den, thr's always a limit to one's patience lor...

haizzzz.... haizz....i wonder wat grampa thinks....

YIIII HAA!!!

lolz... guess wat i bought todae? ouuhh.... i myself too, was surprised! haha.. i bought a bikini la... its blue wid pokadots, and red outline. lolz... quite nice actualli.... hahaha!! was at 1st so embarrassed. den until hui kept pursuading me. den i guessed thr was no harm trying. lolz... im s0o0o happy!!! yeahh...

neway, i saw jh on tues during mkting class. he saw me right in de eye, but den he seemed to not recognise me. weird lei.... or maybe he's pretending not to noe i was in de same class as him, as i was pretending too! hahaha....w0o hoo..!

lalallaa....tink hor, must cut down abit on my eating habits... and also exercise more hor? if not like so fat wearing tt... hhmm.... tummy so buldging also. hahahahhaa!!