haizz... tink i haven been in a very gd temper these few days. haizz

on wed, a guy who sat infront of us turned ard and stared hard at sharon and joyce and said 'can u pls pay attention and listen to de lecture?!' woahh... so darn fierce sia!!though he didnt stare at me, somehow i still think he included me wid them, coz we're always together for cbis class. but de prob is we weren't tokin so loud, just once a while askin each other wat de lec wrote or said. and im must say, i'm NOT de 1 who always tok lor... den after class i went down to help them sign attendence when i came back, sharon told me de guy said 2 them 'no offense, but it has been weeks that u all have been tokin' wah lao.. damn fucking shitty arsehole!! pls lor....!! eveb if we did, he could rephrase it in a nicer way rite? y must he tell us in de middle of de lecture, and worse still, he was loud!!! kns kns... damnit fucker!!

haizz... i just quarrelled wid gramma. i mean, i was unhappy wid aaron actually. i mean since he had alreadi recovered frm his fever, den he can eat rice rite? y did gramma tell him he may not like de dishes cooked, so asked him wat he wana eat? i mean y all of de trouble when he has alreadi recovered?! den now she pushed all de blame onto me, sayin ask me 2 buy a pkt of mee also so diff, nxt time if she's de1 who wana eat de mee ........
i mean come on lor, even daddy ask aaron to eat de rice, so y must she tell him out of concern tt he may not like de dishes cooked for lunch!?!? aaron hasn't even seen wat de maid cooked. gramma always complain abt de maid and aaron. i always felt tt she doesn't act de same way as wat she has said! no logic at all!!! she always complain aaron being so rude and naughty, and yet when i or my parents were scolding or wacking him, she'll say we're so noisy, always make so much noise! no link lor... we scold him, she say we're noisy, we hit him, she'll ask us not to hit his head, not to hit his body, just hit hands or butt... wah lao!! den y don't she b de1 hitting or scolding aaron instead?? wat i meant was tt since she was de1 complaining everything, so we act according to her wishes, and when we did, she'll say something else. meaning = niu tou bu dui mah zui!!! understand?? and i explained to her y i was so pissed, but she kept insisting it was my fault, fine den... she's de1 who said everything, she's de1 who complain. everything comes frm her lor....i wanted to explain y ppl are doin this... its actualli coz she's de eldest in de family now, since grampa is gone... tts y OUT OF RESPECT, we don't argue back... but wat i tink is tt she's taking it for granted and always thinkin tt she's rite!!! i dun deny tt sometimes im in de wrong.. but den she also has to shoulder some of de blame also rite??! esp when aaron is realli so incorrigible... if we dun teach him a lesson, he say we're in favour of him. when we teach him a lesson, she say we're noisy and she'll interfer. i mean... don't u tink tt its so difficult trying to please her?? haizz... i realli duno at2 do. even daddy also sometimes is sandwiched inbetween. coz afterall she's his mom, how can be so rude and yell back? but den, thr's always a limit to one's patience lor...

haizzzz.... haizz....i wonder wat grampa thinks....