Stayed in sch till 9pm for Msm class on Tuesday and J gave me a lift home as she was going back to her office to get some things done. Called home to asked if anybody wanted prata from the nearby shop.. and Ar tld me 4th granduncle just passed away. What sad news... haiz. Ever since grampa passed away in yr 2004, his 2 brothers also left with him consecutively in yr 2005 and now yr 2006.

Life is just so fragile... I have never thought of how I shld go abt living my life until grampa's death... his death sort of shook me up from my dreams. Until now when my wai po also left me last yr, then I only realised that how much isit I cherished those who lived with me.. My gramma is 90/91 yrs old this yr... Thus, I'm always convincing myself she's gona lived for many yrs since she is still quite fit now. But den, the death of 4th granduncle has proven me quite wrong. 4th granduncle had been known for his gd health... he's always been travelling almost every yr back to his home town Guang Zhou to celebrate Chinese New Yr. Only recently he has been admitted hospital several times for his heart problems. But from what I heard during the funeral, my 4th granduncle was still joking happily with his grandson on that very fateful morning. And it was during the late evening that he suddenly felt unwell... the ambulance came only 30mins later, and he passed away on the way to the hospital.. they couldn't revive him.

Looking at him... it reminded us of my late grampa. 4th granduncle really somehow or another, looked like grampa. Yes, there is no doubt they were brothers... but 4th granduncle somewhat didnt look like himself... but like grampa! Maybe we're just letting our imaginations run wild... but the resemblance was uncanny.

U know, sometimes this kinda stuff is just so unexplanable... I just don't know how to go abt explaning it.

Before I could leave my hse yesterday to head to sch, daddy told me my mom's god brother passed away too. I really hate to receive such news... especially when its near my exam time, be it just the prilims or the final exam. I really hate it... This is the father of my cousin who just got married recently. She was the one who had her marriage held at Fullerton... See... how brittle is life. Heard from mom that he passed away from heart problems too. And the sad part was his heart problems hasn't been a problem for many yrs already, and it just acted up like that all of a sudden.

I was told my cousin was hoping mad, jumping and crying... scolding those who were trying to convince her that her father has passed away. I think its really hard on her family. My this uncle has only 1 daughter... and she only just got married. And the worse of all... she's only in her late twenties... How bad can u imagine its for her?

I'm always thinking how whld react if I were to be in ppl's shoes... I don't have any sister... and usually for this kinda stuff, guys don't always show how sad they are on the outside. they'll only feel very sad on the inside.

I don't want to live my life full of regrets... sometimes there are just somethings I can't let go.. Nevermind that I can put it aside for moments that I am happy... But whenever I'm sad or simply just stressed, these memories just resurfaced very quickly...

I think I ain't the only person who feel this way... but yet sometimes I feel that I am the only perosn who feel this way. How weird...