actually i didnt wana write this online, just to avoid any discussions... but i just have to somehow get it off my mind...

daddy and mummy quarrelled on fridae, and again on saturdae. i was sitting nxt to daddy just nxt to the coffee table, searching for my notes, just when their argument got more heated and in a fury, he threw the newspaper he was reading half way on to me. of coz it was supposed to be directed at me, but coz i was just 'accidentally' sitting nxt to him... i was so shocked. never had i seen daddy so angry before, and mummy so hurt... aiyoz.. think daddy must have been very stressed and fedup, and the anger just boiled up, and needed to be vented off. i kept quiet throughout their argument, for i thought it maybe a better idea for them to vent out what they have been silently keeping quiet abt. until when i thought the argument was getting way too off hand that i shouted 'enough! keep quiet...!!' but after saying tt, i felt so stupid and thought either 1 of them would slap me and ask me not to interfere. ha.. but luckily, none of them said anything, and was silent for a while, before they started again.. actually i didnt thought that it was very serious until mummy hinted me that she may not want to return for the nite, but luckily... daddy was working on a nite shift, so they could avoid each other...

i thought it may be partly my fault too, coz i wanted to go to aunt's hse to do my revision, but daddy needed to get to work, and mummy just went to visit her sick fren and my elder bro was in KL, so leaving gramma with aaron. gramma made so much noise, so daddy got fedup, he called mummy to get back asap, and she, having sensed his bad attitude, also got angry, i was irritated coz i can't study in peace and gramma was angry coz daddy sopke loudly to her. haiya... sometimes hor, these old ppl have a certain way of thinking.. a weird way of thinking... not sure if we all will turn up to be like this when we're old in 40 yrs time. coz sometimes she's hard of hearing, so we have to speak up when talking to her. den when we're too loud, or in a hurry, she'll feel hurt and thinks tt we're screaming at her.. faintzz...hmmm.

i just don't understand why my parents and gramma are treating my younger bro like a baby!! can't they just let him take care and fend for himself? afterall, he is already sec 1 this yr!! and sometimes gramma will complain abt aaron doing something she just can't stand it. but of coz aaron, on the other hand, is so rude...this 2 ppl just can't click.. thus creating trouble for all of us in the family. haiyoz!!

nobody seems to be able to understand what gramma is thinking... but all of us think she is very fortunate as compared to her other counterparts and friends. coz we are a happy family (including grampa), and she is rather healthy and doesn't have much problems unlike other old ppl. we're all very thankful for tt too... but it is that very old history which still haunts her. sometimes i let her talk abt her past (only when i have the time and patience), while my aunts and parents will try to find some excuse to squirm their way out of it. hahha...too bad grampa isin't here now, coz he's always her number 1 faithful loyal listener. not coz he really enjoys listening to her, but he just sits there and doesn't complain a word when gramma is yakking non-stop. lolz...i really admire him for his resilience. haizz... hey! im talking abt history too!... hehhehe...

hmm...daddy and mummy are still not talking to each other...i also duno what to do. faintz... just trying to help them patch back. hey! i'm a peacemaker!

neway, talking abt my past papers, it has been dissappointing! haiz... i really practised so much for my AF, and damn.. i'm not even sure if i can pass it, let alone trying to aim for 60 marks. ha! as for econs, err...thr was mistakes here & thr, and 1 big error for shifting the IS curve towards the wrong direction, so the whole diagram + the AD & AS curve is wrong! faintzz... thr goes my 70 marks... so sad...

ok times up! have to go back to my mkting notes...hope this paper would be ok. or else... i'll be so so so dissappointed. =(