yawnz.... i woke up at 3pm today, coz i was so tired from yesterday's partying. yesterday went to yue ping's 21st bdae, she was my jc classmate. den met up wid my other jc classmates like john, sweeyee, william, yunzhi and hongda... after we left, john drove us to de mrt to drop off yun zhi and hong da, so de rest of us went to Feng Shan hawker centre to makan. i ate a few chicken wings.. thr are still a few left, but noone wana eat tt... lolz. the rest of them ate bah chou mee. den after which, we rove around, and went to Geylang. coolz! Mr John took us to see those china, philipinos who were soliciating thr. we were droving ard when we saw this lady in tight hot pink tank top and hot pants! but apparently, they told me she was a MAN! hahaha... she was so hot! lolz... den we drove further down to see so many pimps and guys at Geylang, and i was told tt even uni gals go down to sell themselves and they were 'kept' in these small houses called Fish Tanks. and thru these glasses they were picked from. ww0o0o0o..!! 1st time seeing all these. thr were just so many of them!

hahha, den we stopped and ate tou hua... and i was talking abt this lady having tattooed a 'patience' in chi on the back of her neck, little did i noe later her husband and kid were staring back at me. oops! =X hahha, me and my big mouth... luckily, nth happened. hahha...

after eating, john drove us back 1 by 1, and i was sort of surprised at his gentleman-ness, coz he went to the extent of sending sweeyee up to her flat. hahha, yeah.. John, u really surprised me! but tt was very nice of u. hhehe.and of coz, i was de last to get hm, hahha...so in the end i fell alseep only at 4plus, already close to 5am in the morning!!!

oh, i really enjoyed myself yesterday, if only we could meet up more often... not bad having a chauffeur to drive us ard. oops! hehehe...anyway, tonite is another tiring nite, todae jason is celebrating his bdae.. oh god! i'm just so tired now... lolz. actually sundae is jasmine's bdae, but den i can't make it la, 3 days consecutively in a row! i really can't take it...

yawnz... i'm still waiting for annie from de agency to call me, hopefully she can find me a nice job... and wid a higher pay. hopefully.... =)

oh yeahhh!!!!!!!!! my exams are over liao! so darn happy u noe??

hehhe, met up wid yee, ling and jr yesterdae, its been so long since i met them, den also saw cliff, farhan and a few tpss guys at orchard. i was thr to shop... haha, but still not enuff, coz we met up too late. bought a pair of nice shoes and a top... hehe.. yee accompanied me till 11pm plus, b4 we decided its time to go hm, if not wun b able to cvatch the last train.

tonite going to Paramount Hotel for dinner, perhaps i shld go to parkway earlier to shop around, but no1 is free to accompany me i guess. aaron needs to go for his tuition and mom is buys wid her own stuff...

im really very relieved tt my nitemare is over, for the time being, den a few mths later when de results is announced, den it'll be another round of nitemare. im praying hard tt i'll b able to clea all my subjs and go onto yr3 wid only 4 subj nxt yr to take. pray hard, pray hard.....

hmm, cbis tt day was not very gd, coz i couldn't rem wat i've read, and the worst part was tt i didnt memorise, so i had difficulty recollecting...stupid. so i came out wid my own pts... and for the short qns, some terms i haven even seen b4 came out, like Active Server pgs or duno wat Computer Interactive Manufacturing.. wah piangz!! this paper certainly isin't 'user-friendly' at all...hopefully, they'll reward me for tinking hard...and not penalising for the examples i used. coz i wasn't sure if the examples sounded stupid and lame.. hahaha, but i just tried.

okies, all are over.. so time to rest and slack for a while, b4 i go find myself a temp job to earn some $$ and can spend on holidaying. cool!

2words to discribe how i feel now... = HAPPY, RELIEVED
=)

hahahaa.... early in de morning and i'm already laughing like mad... lolz, tiish sent me another email add, asking some private qns like 'have u masturbated b4?' or 'wats de most intimate thing u've done b4?'
muahahaa... coz having done 2 of such qns b4, now i turn de tables and fool them. lolz... i was half crying and half laughing, tinking wat i shld write... damn funny man! these ppl really hav nth to do, and ppl like me will try hard to entertain them. hahah... oh btw, de website is called 'crush007.com', so if ur de type who are not so fun, and are easily offended, i suggest u just ignore these mails. other den tt, its quite fun... like answering qns like 'u've masturbated more den 7 times per wk!' hahha... but tts too many times, so i put 'less than 7 times' hhahahaha... but other den tt, stuff like wats my name, my email and birthday are true la...

go ahead and try it! esp when u wana noe de most intimate details of ur crush?? lolz... ohh... den u'll noe if ppl had sex b4... hahaha

tokin abt sex, i tink gals shld actually save themselves up for their marriage. dun u tink so? i mean, if they do it wid ppl they lurv, chances are, they'll do it many times. coz we may have several bfs in a lifetime rite? until den u find tt special some1 to marry u... true rite? so its betta to save it for tt 1 and only 1 = ur HUSBAND, and not BFs! hmm... tts sth to tink abt...

neway, my exams are coming to an end!!!!!! yipppeee..... i just cant wait... 1 more paper to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah yeahhh!!!! last paper = cbis, this coming thursday! after tt i'll be free!! hohohohohoho... hhaha

yest went to jin's graduation show, was tokin to her parents and auntie lulu... i belong to their grp, coz i just dun understand wat their work is all abt.. hehhe...its far beyond my imagination and understanding... too chimm already. hahaha... so i just walked around, look at interesting things they wrote. very creative i must say...

okies, mjst go and study my cbis liao... havenb touch it since mock lei.. scared scared...!!

okies... everything is back to normal for the time being.... peaceful and... hmmm... busy?

i'm still left wid HRM and CBIS. sianz.... hrm is due nxt friday.. i'm slackin away, like nobody's business.. somebody pls help!!! i'm waking up as and when i feel like it, and only touchin my notes for tt few hrs... jialat manz...

neway, im goin over to aunt's hse, just to get back the momentum...oh yesss... 2 papers more and i'll be freeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! yiipee!!!

and after exams will be busy attending fren'z bdae parties, working, saving $ for a getaway... and sun-tanning... hahahahhaha!!! and also exercising to burn off those fats... hmm.. wat else? sing until my voice break... and the cups crack.. and catch movies like its free-of-charge. hmm... and sleeping until thr's no tomorrow! muaahhahahaa... and of coz! SHOPPING!! but hmm...1st got to loose some weight and save $ la... i can shop when i go overseas... hehhe, its more worth it yea?

I SIMPLY CAN'T WAIT!!! de tot of doing all these things get me so excited.. hahahaha

okies, time for a shower and time to shoo of to aunt's hse to catch de 7pm show's last episode! ohh...

tata! =)

actually i didnt wana write this online, just to avoid any discussions... but i just have to somehow get it off my mind...

daddy and mummy quarrelled on fridae, and again on saturdae. i was sitting nxt to daddy just nxt to the coffee table, searching for my notes, just when their argument got more heated and in a fury, he threw the newspaper he was reading half way on to me. of coz it was supposed to be directed at me, but coz i was just 'accidentally' sitting nxt to him... i was so shocked. never had i seen daddy so angry before, and mummy so hurt... aiyoz.. think daddy must have been very stressed and fedup, and the anger just boiled up, and needed to be vented off. i kept quiet throughout their argument, for i thought it maybe a better idea for them to vent out what they have been silently keeping quiet abt. until when i thought the argument was getting way too off hand that i shouted 'enough! keep quiet...!!' but after saying tt, i felt so stupid and thought either 1 of them would slap me and ask me not to interfere. ha.. but luckily, none of them said anything, and was silent for a while, before they started again.. actually i didnt thought that it was very serious until mummy hinted me that she may not want to return for the nite, but luckily... daddy was working on a nite shift, so they could avoid each other...

i thought it may be partly my fault too, coz i wanted to go to aunt's hse to do my revision, but daddy needed to get to work, and mummy just went to visit her sick fren and my elder bro was in KL, so leaving gramma with aaron. gramma made so much noise, so daddy got fedup, he called mummy to get back asap, and she, having sensed his bad attitude, also got angry, i was irritated coz i can't study in peace and gramma was angry coz daddy sopke loudly to her. haiya... sometimes hor, these old ppl have a certain way of thinking.. a weird way of thinking... not sure if we all will turn up to be like this when we're old in 40 yrs time. coz sometimes she's hard of hearing, so we have to speak up when talking to her. den when we're too loud, or in a hurry, she'll feel hurt and thinks tt we're screaming at her.. faintzz...hmmm.

i just don't understand why my parents and gramma are treating my younger bro like a baby!! can't they just let him take care and fend for himself? afterall, he is already sec 1 this yr!! and sometimes gramma will complain abt aaron doing something she just can't stand it. but of coz aaron, on the other hand, is so rude...this 2 ppl just can't click.. thus creating trouble for all of us in the family. haiyoz!!

nobody seems to be able to understand what gramma is thinking... but all of us think she is very fortunate as compared to her other counterparts and friends. coz we are a happy family (including grampa), and she is rather healthy and doesn't have much problems unlike other old ppl. we're all very thankful for tt too... but it is that very old history which still haunts her. sometimes i let her talk abt her past (only when i have the time and patience), while my aunts and parents will try to find some excuse to squirm their way out of it. hahha...too bad grampa isin't here now, coz he's always her number 1 faithful loyal listener. not coz he really enjoys listening to her, but he just sits there and doesn't complain a word when gramma is yakking non-stop. lolz...i really admire him for his resilience. haizz... hey! im talking abt history too!... hehhehe...

hmm...daddy and mummy are still not talking to each other...i also duno what to do. faintz... just trying to help them patch back. hey! i'm a peacemaker!

neway, talking abt my past papers, it has been dissappointing! haiz... i really practised so much for my AF, and damn.. i'm not even sure if i can pass it, let alone trying to aim for 60 marks. ha! as for econs, err...thr was mistakes here & thr, and 1 big error for shifting the IS curve towards the wrong direction, so the whole diagram + the AD & AS curve is wrong! faintzz... thr goes my 70 marks... so sad...

ok times up! have to go back to my mkting notes...hope this paper would be ok. or else... i'll be so so so dissappointed. =(

oh... err.. i just realised i haven been blogging for quite sometime already.. hehhe

well, 2 days more to go. den it'll be doom's day. muahahhaha...

weighed myself recently, put on 3kg?!! this is insane man.. i have friends who are so qorried abt exams tt they loose the flab off, while im doing the opposite.. PILLING UP!! lolz... wat to do...? i eat more when im stress...

picked mom up from the airport yest.. actually i didnt wana go, but aunt said its mothers' day, so perhaps i shld show my face. and when my elder bro who's the freest of us all, went missing to meet up with his army gang.. sheesh.. so in the end me, aaron and daddy went to pick mom up. hehehe... den i made used of the extra time to buy Swensen's ice cream which daddy paid for it! hurray!! lolz... FOOD!! nowadays i can't seem to get this word outta my head. and u'll keep hearin me saying 'this is yummy, tt is yummy...!' hahaha

neway, my exams will last till 2nd june. i'm already going crazy... luckily aaron's also having exams now, so thus, i won't be so jealous to the max, coz my elder bro finished his exams, and is slacking now! soon he'll be off to korea for his studyin trip. hee! perhaps i whld have saved enough $ during my holi job to travel thr wid my aunt to pay him a visit... holidays... haizz.. and aunt and i were discussing abt going for a cruise, tts the only place we can bring gramma out to enjoy (besides going to the restaurant for a feast...)

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS HORRIBLE EXAM TO BE OVER ASAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its been exactly a yr...how times flies. i couldn't sleep, so decided to come in and blog.

i've been thinking alot abt grampa todae... today's his 1st anniversary.

woke up at 6am this morning, den went to attend granduncle's funeral. yap indeed, he doesn't look like him after the 'make-up', my aunt even tot he looked a little like grampa. ha... hmm.....i wonder y must they always hav a band at such places, not tt i find them noisy but wouldn't it be better if we were to play songs from a cd or sth like tt? i was fighting back tears this morning, not tt i was crying for granduncle, but the whole thing reminded me of grampa, wat happened exactly a yr ago. it still haunted me. not tt i had nitemares abt tt, but it still lingers very clearly in my memory. i still can't accept the fact tt grampa has left... i mean, its alreadi been a yr, but it feels like everything just happened yesterday! my heart aches for him...i miss talking to him. i really mean it!

i still remember him calling me from his workplace, asking if i want chinese cakes. i remember him bringing back red nail polish from his workplace, him bringing me to the roti-prata shop... us eating at the macdonald's.

i possibly can i write out how i feel? don't tink tts possible... no words can comprehend how im feeling. somehow i keep regret things i did in the past... like raising my voice at him, little stupid petty things i did. but i tink thr's no room for regret now...we always regret after doing stupid things don't we? till now i still wonder y.....

tml we're going crystal jade at taka for lunch...i'm talking abt food now coz i'm hungry now...used up lotsa energy todae... can't blame me.

haizz...

LIFE IS LIKE A GUST OF WIND AND A TORRENT OF RAIN...

it is just so true...

my mock was a flop, granduncle just passed away, and he's gona be cremated tml, which coincidentally..... is grampa's death anniversary.

well,... i'm sure thr are others who have been thru such difficult times...

had cup noodles for lunch todae, coz while i was practising my AF sums, i heard this song i like very much. it's a very sad song, and reminds me of grampa. unable to control (and also coz thr was no1 else except me at my aunt's hse) i broke down... den eyes red, and felt awkward, i stayed at hm.

haizz...

LIFE IS FULL OF UPS AND DOWNS, WE GET TO ENJOY, BUT WE WERE ALSO FORCED TO GO THRU THE DIFFCULT TIMES. BUT WE'RE STILL TRYING TO FIND PEACE WITH OURSELVES.... EVEN TILL THE DAY WE DIE...

y am i being so philosophical? (dennis asked me this)
coz...i can't help it. i'm in one of those moods again......

so much so for this stupid computer, i typed so much in here yesterday and non of it was saved. stupid...

haizz... think life is short... another of my relative passed away. come to think of it, its kinda coincidental, coz apart from my grampa, he's de 3rd relative to pass away, sometime similar to the other of my relatives. hmmm... heard he had a tumour in his brain, and TB. i got to know from my mom tt TB is usually spread through saliva... so chances of his family getting infected is also high... hmm....

haizz... very frustrated and anxious abt exams, i'm only left with 1 mth, or rather 1 mth - 1 day. coz my 1st paper will be on 12th may. arrgghh...!! got back my cbis and af mock scripts yesterday. well... it was a flop! failed both of them.i needed 4 more marks to pass my cbis, and my af was terrible! haizz... i was so disappointed, coz joyce passed her cbis. i'm not being competitive, but then she studied it last min lor... while i started preparing for it a little earlier than her. bloody hell... perhaps being a little IT savy whld had helped alot in this subject. she scored 46, which was 12marks above the passing mark. (note: the passing mark is 34) sianzz.....i'm so jealous, envious and disappointed...

oh btw, did i mention i passed my mkting? but its also disappointing, coz i did 4 essays, scored the same marks as sandy who did 3 essays. HA! so roughly can tell who did more studying rite? actually i went out of point for the last qns.. or rather, i didnt know how to do tt qns, so i anyhow write. hhhaa...anyway, mkting couldn't have been any disappointing than af! i've never been so...so.so........ well, nevermind. its just terrible! hahha, i showed my bro my script., and his reaction was like 'wat?! i wonder if u do any studying'.. he told me to look at his paper on the sofa, which was labelled 'A-' at the top. duhzz... its only an assignment, a tutorial lor, i also did very well for my assignments. bloody hell...

not enuff time, but so much things to do.... howhowhow?!!!!!

i wana bang my head against the wall.
seems tt i'm gona fail all my subjects for prelims ( excluding mkting)

yuck... i suck at studying...
=(

I'M GOING CRAZY....!!

no, i'm not singing britney spear's song... i'm really going crazy! on the verge of pulling my hair out from my head. oh no...!!! arghhhhhhhh.......

exams are just 1 mth away... i haven started studying. i mean i did started studying, but... oh... wat am i tokin abt?! sheesh.. i've written notes on my cards, the usual way i whld do when revising for a subject. but i find tt my memory hasn't been very gd lately, or perhaps it has been like this all the time. or isit coz i revision was a flop? i mean, i used to plan wat i shld study for the day, cramming a few subjects into a day. but now... haizz... so after reading this subject, i'd go onto another subject and forgotten wat i've read previously. tian ahhhh!!!!

wat to do, wat shld i do, wat to doo????!!!

last thurs i had this stupid stomach ache for the whole day. tink i was worrying for my exam, den too gan chiong. i dunoo... i dunoo!! i'm freaking out! on 1 hand, very worried abt passing all my subjects, yet on the other hand, don't feel like studying! sort of trying to run away from reality... arrggghh! aunt said 'but this isin't de 1st time ur having exams, so y are u feeling this way?' yes, i noe it does sound stupid, but i can't help but feel anxious. the anxiety is building up in me every min, and every day as every second pass by. i can't help but tink days passes very quickly. i don't like to count down to how many days are left for me to revise!! but... i'm really left with only 1 mth! my 1st paper is on 12th may- economics! 13th may- AF, 17th may - mkting, 27th may- hrm, 2nd june - cbis.

sobzz... i haven felt this way. or rather i did,... last yr! seriously i dont wish for the history to repeat itself, i really desperately wana do well. i...i.......i....
ARRGGHHH!!

grampa's death anniversary is this friday... and same as last yr, i have class on tis very fateful day. haizz... time really flies. a blink of the eye and 1 yr has passed...

today bought gramma 'tao suan' and 'bubu cha cha' for daddy, and ice jelly for me! den gramma paid me $2 after eating. of coz i refused to take de $, but she insists i take it, coz she said i'm still not working permanently now. haizz... of coz i really wana give them a portion of my earnings nxt time. but wat i was afraid of is tt when i finally can come out to the society and work, i wonder if she still can wait tt long. i noe i'll be graduating nxt yr... but 1 yr may seem short, yet it seem long too! i can wait, but the qns is.........can she wait? perhaps i'm being pessimistic, but den, again, things can just happen so suddenly, and sometimes we're just caught off hand. so... well......

i wana do well, i wana exam to b over, i wana go on holiday, i wana sleep till i wake up days later without being awoken by the stupid alarm, i wana exercise, i wana watch movies, i wana play, i wana go to the beach, i wana watch tv as if i'm glued to it, i wana gather with frenz and chat till mid nite, i wana hav sleepovers, i wana read storybooks, i wana THIS, i wana THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANA DO LOTSA THINGS!!

but this have to wait after my exam...
=(

muahahahaaa... was luffing non-stop when i saw my jc ct's friendster!!! oh my godness me!!! hahahhaa... didnt noe teachers were into tis kinda thingy also. and guess wat? de pic he put on the main was his fav singer... lolz. ok la, i guess teachers are also humans who also hav idols... hehehe. but i can't help but feeling he wasn't tt into such 'teenager' stuff...

hahaa... my 1st reavtion was like 'wat the hell is he doing here...?!!' and also, he was linked to several of my classmates! euuw... hope he doesn't ask me. dun tink he'll b interested though, coz obviously i weren't 1 of his fav or best students. hahahaha... neither do i wana b. heh! coz he was 1 of a hell lamer.. his jokes weren't funny, and i tot he had 1 of the weirdest attitude! giving weird remarks and having tt stupid sly smile of his... yucks!! and he is always wearing tight pants which i always tot will split if he were to walk faster. hahaha... wana show off he did manage to loose off so much weight. chey!! and he looks awefully stern and aloof when he's aint smiling, which in the 1st place whld b better den when he did smile.... am i very critical of him? perhaps so...coz i still rem he'll give me very stupid obvious ans when i was asking him maths qns, and while answering me, he'll give a 'this is such an easy qns and i tink ur plain stupid' look. and he did sound like tt!! or perhaps i was just too sensitive, or perhaps he did had high hopes on me. hahaha... too bad manz! i only scored a C fore maths-c... hehhe. but i was somewhat surprised and had more confidence when he told my parents i was more of an A student, when i actually scored an F for prelims. lolz... all of them was shocked... aiya, its all over and in the past. so no point harping on it too...

lallaalla... hmmm... wonderful memories i had back in SRJC. esp when we were in band, practising till late at nite for the band competition and also concerts and performance etc. I JUST SIMPLY LURV IT!! ;)

ahh chooooo!! sneeze sneeze... oops! accidentally sneezed when i was abt to blog for todae. hahha, my aunt said i havta eat more vitamins as it seems to her i've always been falling sick, esp during exam time.

hahha... haven been blogging in coz my aunt's computer need a password to log-on, therefore i can't use the computer, neway it can't log-on to the internet due to some problems. have been staying with her now and den, coz its much quiet to study thr. but is quite lonely when it comes to meal time, coz i've got to go down to the mkt / coffee shop to get my lunch. hahhaa, den tt'll b the exucse i have to be lazy and while eating my lunch, i'll watch vcds! lolz... slack man!!!

didnt study much todae... woke up late coz the stupid bloody samsung hp didnt ring!!! must have becoz i put it in silent mode, coz i tot it'll still ring like nokia hps. arghh... den woke up at 1130am wid a headache... and it carried on till now... sheesh! read a little hrm here and thr.. but watched tv most of the day, coz many programmes are on the last episode. hahaha.. besides, tml is a sat! meaning i can still study in de noon coz aaron will b out for tuition mah. lalalalaa... and no sch till tues. oh noo...!

sianzz...

cough cough... hasn't been in gd health recently. had fever for the past 4/5 days. believe it or not, it was the worst experience i had.

MON: had body aches, but still bearable, but keep dozing off to sleep, i only thought i've became lazy coz long hrs of sleep + nap were not enuff for me... went over to aunt's hse in the nite, watched 'Species' with her. took panadol before sleeping.

TUES: woke up with tremedous terrible body aches, feeling a little dizzy. in the nite started having fever...feeling cold and hot another moment. TERRIBLE!! the panadol didn't work for me.. haizz

WED: finally went to see the doc. this is the 2nd day i was having fever... body feeling its gona break into parts... headache and dizzy... no strength to walk abt.

THUR: still having fever... sleep almost the whole day. these few days surviving on bread. but aunt bought me sliced fish noodles. tried to eat as much as i could, coz lacked nutrition over the past few days.

FRI: fever still didnt subside, start to panick... went to see the doc again. he gave me new medicine, and extra strong dosage of antibiotic pills. at 1st he suggested it maybe dengue fever, but my arms and legs didnt have rashes. den he suggested i maybe having lung infection!! scared the hell out of me... quickly msg jin and told her, but stupid hp no batt, so couldn't see her reply until i had the strength to charge it. went hm after seeing the doc. mom had the aircon man to come and instore a new aircon! hurray!! but the stupid aircon man made a mess in my rm, leaving dirt over my study table and the dressing table. no choice, had to clean it myself. threw away many stuff, was half coughing and half feeing like vomitting when i cleaned my rm. nv felt any worser....gramma cooked some porridge for me, but i didnt have the appetite, so forced myself to eat few spoonfuls of it. and ate my medicine. slept for almost the whole day also...

SAT: tts todae... feeling so much betta! haizz... tot i've wasted so much time sleeping over the past few days. though i did touched my AF, but den coz i was sick, the concentration wasn't thr. and my head was spinning most of the time.. =( haizz... time to pull up my socks!! still coughing.. and have many medicine to complete, coz i still have flu and cough and swollen tonsils.. sianzz...

tts abt it.. tis is the summary of wat happened for the past few days...sobZz
neway, weighed myself just now, i've lost ard 2kg over the past few days. don't tink its the water i've lost, coz i've been 'drowning' myself wid lotsa water. but haven been eatin very little, coz i don't have the appetite, just feeling bitterness in my mouth. tts y i end up brushing my teeth and tongue every now and den. haizz

ha, forgot to mention we went kbox on thurs... hmm... we spent more time commenting on the mtvs... hahha, hey! guang liang's 'tong hua' was so touching that i cried while singing it... lolz. it was so emotional...

hmm... den went out wid jin and dot on fri. hehhe, jin and i caught 'howl's moving castle in the early afternoon. ohhh.... it was so romantic! abt this gal named Sophie, who has this horrible spell cast upon her. she became an old gramma that very second. so in order to have her spell broken, she went in serach of Howl, who was a wizard she 1st met when she went to this island whr everyone has magic. and a series of things happen as Sophie help Howl to break his spell of being bounded to a powerful witch the King has engaged, and also meanwhile trying to break her own spell too. lolz... they fell in love... sss0o0o romantic. it's abt self-sacrificial and the power of love. ww0o0o!!!

and in the late afternoon, together wid dot, we caught 'Boogeyman'. aiyoz... wat a lame show... i mean the sound effects were ok, but the plot was terrible.. oh.. suck like hell! abt this guy who had nitemares abt the boogeyman who took his dad away since he was 8. aiyoz.. and frm den on, he was afraid of closets. the funny part abt this western culture is tt their closets looked like another tiny room in the bedroom. so weird...! so this guy who is always trying to run away from reality was forced to confront this 'Boogeyman' when his mother died, so he had to go back to his old haunted house. blahh blahh blah... and the story goes on until he finally 'killed' the Boogeyman, which i though looked like a cartoon version of the 'swarm thing'. hahhaha...

hmm.. den we went to 'Din Tai Fung' for dinner. we each ordered a bowl of handmade noodles, and we also ordered 6 xiao long bao and 1 big bowl of soup. man... we were so full!! luckily jin didn't order another 6 xiao long bao, or else we're gona eat till we puke. she still wanted to order red bean bao for dessert... crazy... lolz. i'd rather have red bean soup. lolz... lalalala

ha.. mock is finally over, but the real exam is just round the corner.. *oh no...!*

well, just came hm from dinner at Sakura at Toa Payoh, went thr to celebrate my elder bro's bdae. haha.. he's 23 liaoz.. so old. he brough his gf thr too... hehhe. okies, todae i took a gd look at her. her size is abt mine, hmm.. though she's a little shorter. lolz... but she has pretty big eyes.. not bad la. hope she wasn't scared off by me. haha, coz i was alreadi famished when i reach the restaurant, so after putting my bag on the chair and greet her, i went off to take some food. muahaha... i was too hungry to wait any longer. the 30mins bus ride to Toa Payoh left me hungry and tired... yawnzz

lalalla... de other day was tokin to jin abt wat luck we will have if we stumble upon our crush's blog, and alas!! i did! at the very same nite which we broach this topic... hahahha!! i got to noe his blog thru a fren... coz it was 1 of his links thr. so i took a gd look at it... and thr i got a nice surprise... hahahha... *shld noe wat i'm tokin abt.. =)

hmmm... will be goin over to stay at my aunt's place after this wkend. coz needa find peace and space to study.... love her place! hahaha...

tml we're gona visit grampa at the cemetry... wonder if he misses us too! i realli do... haizz. its been almost a yr (just add another mth or so) well, it hasn't been easy trying not to tink too much abt grampa. i tink i spent ard half a yr drying at nite since his death. the first few mths wasn't easy... but now, i'm feeling so much betta.

yawnz... im lazy to blog, having mock exams now. i'm feeling lazy as time goes by. i'll be having my last paper, cbis, next tues. even now, i can't stand staying home to study.

went out yesterday after my AF paper. Justin asked Xiao Ying to let him drive her car, and she did, not realising tt he is only used to driving auto-geared cars. And the last time he had driven was 2 yrs back! thr were 5 gals and shaf in the car.. can u imagine how we were feeling? I was laughing away, while shaf, hui and xy were talking relentlessly to him. Poor Justin can't concentrate, but then, our lives are in his hands, it's not funny k. I was a little terrified, esp when he said he even thought of over taking a taxi, when he was in a state of not driving properly. We were 'crawling' thr...

they went to watch 'Hitch' while me and hui went shopping around. I had dinner at BK, coz they ate when they were in sch earlier on. After their movie, we went cafe cartel. June said 'i feel as though we're going on a SDU date.' hahah... so funny! know y she said tt? its becoz there were 8 of us, 4 guys and 4 gals. And just nice, we were sitting face to face. lolz... XY with Simon, June with shaf, Me with Justin and hui with FG. hahaha... wat a funny sight. It was kinda awkward for me, coz i just had dinner, so i sat thr, not knowing wat to do, so ended up playing with hui's hp. But it was fun going out with them, coz they're a noisy bunch...but somehow, i tink i still feel a little awkward as i'm still not tt close with them. I feel tt i can't talk the way i usually whld talk with my close frenz. The feeling is diff. Jin said its becoz of him, tts y i feel awkward. Perhaps so i guess... haha

yawnzz... today i spent the whole day doing nth. Listening to Aaron's Britney Spears - Prerogative cd. Many of the songs were from her previous cd, most were ok, but i didnt like a few. But i still ended up writing some notes on the paper. I just didn't feel like studying!! Not today.. perhaps tomorrow... hahah. I'm still procrastinating??? haizz... final exams is just 2 months away... Its already March now! Unbelievable.... i'm dying.. I'm dead. I hate exams! How chld any invented this way of torturing us? It's soo... it's like a chore to me. I dislike having exams...It just doesn't make any sense to me, coz afterall, wat i'm learning now aint sth tt will come in handy when i work. I won't be asked to draw Economics curves, neither whld i be asked about Marx's or Weber's theory! Only some, like Accounting or Hrm may come in handy when i work in such specific areas in the future.

haizz.... someone pls save me...

yawnz...morning! woke up at 10+am just now, finished eating my milo balls and reading the newspaper. hmmm... i've been thinking alot since yesterday... i just can't figure out y. i mean, wat really happened to him? does ppl gain weight once they are attached or wat? so the need to feel and look beautiful isin't impt anymore?? i got a shock of my life when i saw him yesterday...even jin say she saw me jump. frankly speaking, i was, indeed shocked to see him like that. afterall, he was once my... (ahem!).... prince charming. coz he was so considerate, understanding, and caring... i still tink he's like that, but den... judging frm the physical appearance, i can't comprehend what is going on.

yaa yaa, teachers also teach us not to judge a book by its cover and not to judge a person from their outer appearance, and i've learnt an impt lesson from yesterday's birthdae bbq party. frenz who were huge and looked like teddy bears who accompany to sleep, now looked like hunks from baywatch... and those who were once pretty and handsome, now looked like they were surrendering hands down, defeated by the temptation of good food. haizz.... hmm, i wonder if im the latter.. hahahha!! some things are worth thinking abt. i was telling 1 of my guy frenz to bring me into camp with him so tt i can also slim down abit. lolz

i've been in a daze like mode since yesterday when i woke up... i'm still in my own world now. i seemed to be thinking of something, yet i have no idea what is that 'something' i am thinking. weird... yes, i'm a weirdo. emily the strange... ha!

oh no! just as i was day dreaming abt going back sch, i finally found out that i really need to get back to sch. shucks!! noe y? coz i accidentally left my econs notes under the desk yesterday after my AF lecture. damnit! hahaha... was tinking if i shld go down to sch personally to retrieve it when i tot of askin andy to keep it for me 1st. den i regretted coz he will onli be in sch on wed and thurs. meaning i'll have to go to sch on those days... and to get it back frm him personally. pai seh ah... hehehe. haven realli talked to him in real life before, except 'hi' and 'hey!' or 'bye!' hahaha... it whld b real awkward man!

uohh! i tink he realli looks cute! (pls save me the agony of being questioned who is the 'he' i'm tokin abt...thanx)
realli, i swear tt he really looks different when i 1st saw him this wk. hmmm... didn't see him for a few wks alreadi, seeing him again makes my heart skip a beat, esp having to had lunch together...i was trying not to stare, but not sure if my eyes betrayed me. hehhe... i still remember when i 1st met him, i was still wondering who he is. but alias! he is sort of "engaged".. so well... erm.. forget it la, i shldn't pinned such hopes for it it was meant to be a dream only. lolz.. (i tink i'm going crazy from all the studying, pardon me...) he realli looks gd, like he'll look even better after time to time. actually i have to admit tt i feel a little awkward having to sit together, coz we weren't very close, thus i was forced to look somewhr else e.g my hp, the ceiling, other ppl in the canteen etc. i kept his msg in my hp, looking at this simple msg can make me smile...haizz...

was tokin to derrick (my self-proclaimed gay partner), he said tt his time was up..he's preparing to be a gay or monk. made me laugh like hell...guys like him won't have the courage to ask gals out for the fear of rejection. well, i tink tt guys shld b thick skinned enuff, otherwise the gal will end up in someone's elses embrace. true rite...?! on the other hand, we have gals who are waiting desperately for the thick headed guys to open their GIM aka 'gold infested mouth' to ask them out for a date. sighh... i wonder what has this world become to..

tml we havta attend jorine's 21st bdae.. oh so i dislike having attend such gatherings when it is so near towards my exams!!! arghh... den i can't enjoy myself alreadi... can onli just pop in 'hi, eat.. bye!' hahahha... and meiyun's bdae nxt sat... die la... i hav 2 papers on tt day itself, not sure if i have the time and energy to go.

shucks!! =(

ahem ahem! haiz... having a bad throat and cough this new yr. guess i must have eaten too much of those heaty goodies. hahha...

well, this new yr have been a boring one. actually doesnt make a difference, just like any other normal day. most of my relatives didnt come coz they tot we're not celebrating. not true lei! we still welcome ppl, but den we didnt make tis new yr a much of a 'hoo ha' thingy. not really suppose to go hse visiting, but still i went, coz my mom's frenz didnt mind, so ask my mom to bring me along. so boh bian la, she drag me along. of coz i whld hav stayed at hm, even though thr's nth much to do at hm too. sianz...

tis is the 1st new yr widout grampa... feeling a little weird during reunion dinner, coz he is not thr. den we havta go to my ah ma's hse during de 1st day, so gramma is at hm alone wid de maid. usualli she'll be sitting nxt to de door wid my grampa, half alssep, half waiting for other relatives to come by. but tis yr is different... she's alone. haizz... i'm feeling a little sad. den my aunt brought her vcr to my hm coz we found a tape tt we took when going china for holiday. grampa is also in tt tape. so when i came hm, daddy ask me to put the tape, he wana watch, coz gramma is asleep. i put de the inside, but den it got stucked!! i panick like hell, so told daddy to take it out himself. he asked my bro to bring it to the shop to fix it. tis is the onli thingy we have since my bro's lappy break down, den all of grampa's pics also vanished within tt very minute. so pray hard tt tis tape whld b ok...

after new yr is mock exams... jialat la! haven even finish revising. i'm determine to make amendments for last yr. no way whld i staudy last min again... for i pray tt nth will happen tis yr. i'm also feeling guilty for failing my econs last yr. grampa always emphasize de need to study hard and make a mark for myself. this is my driving force, HE IS MY DRIVING FORCE... i'll do my best. i promise...

hey ho.. de mosquitoe! hahaha... siao char boh, duno wat de hell im tokin abt. sianz la!!chinese new yr is just next wk and after tt is my mock exams. haizz... so many things to revise, so many things to memorise, so mani things to do. arghh!!

im as lazy as a pig, infact, i tink i already looked like one... muaahahahaa!! self actualisation is the best policy.. hehehe. aiya! i also duno wat de hell im tokin abt. lolz... tink im going crazy.

hmnph! im going to eat my apple now, followed by doing things im suppose to be doing. haizz.... *giggles*