LIFE IS LIKE A GUST OF WIND AND A TORRENT OF RAIN...

it is just so true...

my mock was a flop, granduncle just passed away, and he's gona be cremated tml, which coincidentally..... is grampa's death anniversary.

well,... i'm sure thr are others who have been thru such difficult times...

had cup noodles for lunch todae, coz while i was practising my AF sums, i heard this song i like very much. it's a very sad song, and reminds me of grampa. unable to control (and also coz thr was no1 else except me at my aunt's hse) i broke down... den eyes red, and felt awkward, i stayed at hm.

haizz...

LIFE IS FULL OF UPS AND DOWNS, WE GET TO ENJOY, BUT WE WERE ALSO FORCED TO GO THRU THE DIFFCULT TIMES. BUT WE'RE STILL TRYING TO FIND PEACE WITH OURSELVES.... EVEN TILL THE DAY WE DIE...

y am i being so philosophical? (dennis asked me this)
coz...i can't help it. i'm in one of those moods again......

so much so for this stupid computer, i typed so much in here yesterday and non of it was saved. stupid...

haizz... think life is short... another of my relative passed away. come to think of it, its kinda coincidental, coz apart from my grampa, he's de 3rd relative to pass away, sometime similar to the other of my relatives. hmmm... heard he had a tumour in his brain, and TB. i got to know from my mom tt TB is usually spread through saliva... so chances of his family getting infected is also high... hmm....

haizz... very frustrated and anxious abt exams, i'm only left with 1 mth, or rather 1 mth - 1 day. coz my 1st paper will be on 12th may. arrgghh...!! got back my cbis and af mock scripts yesterday. well... it was a flop! failed both of them.i needed 4 more marks to pass my cbis, and my af was terrible! haizz... i was so disappointed, coz joyce passed her cbis. i'm not being competitive, but then she studied it last min lor... while i started preparing for it a little earlier than her. bloody hell... perhaps being a little IT savy whld had helped alot in this subject. she scored 46, which was 12marks above the passing mark. (note: the passing mark is 34) sianzz.....i'm so jealous, envious and disappointed...

oh btw, did i mention i passed my mkting? but its also disappointing, coz i did 4 essays, scored the same marks as sandy who did 3 essays. HA! so roughly can tell who did more studying rite? actually i went out of point for the last qns.. or rather, i didnt know how to do tt qns, so i anyhow write. hhhaa...anyway, mkting couldn't have been any disappointing than af! i've never been so...so.so........ well, nevermind. its just terrible! hahha, i showed my bro my script., and his reaction was like 'wat?! i wonder if u do any studying'.. he told me to look at his paper on the sofa, which was labelled 'A-' at the top. duhzz... its only an assignment, a tutorial lor, i also did very well for my assignments. bloody hell...

not enuff time, but so much things to do.... howhowhow?!!!!!

i wana bang my head against the wall.
seems tt i'm gona fail all my subjects for prelims ( excluding mkting)

yuck... i suck at studying...
=(

I'M GOING CRAZY....!!

no, i'm not singing britney spear's song... i'm really going crazy! on the verge of pulling my hair out from my head. oh no...!!! arghhhhhhhh.......

exams are just 1 mth away... i haven started studying. i mean i did started studying, but... oh... wat am i tokin abt?! sheesh.. i've written notes on my cards, the usual way i whld do when revising for a subject. but i find tt my memory hasn't been very gd lately, or perhaps it has been like this all the time. or isit coz i revision was a flop? i mean, i used to plan wat i shld study for the day, cramming a few subjects into a day. but now... haizz... so after reading this subject, i'd go onto another subject and forgotten wat i've read previously. tian ahhhh!!!!

wat to do, wat shld i do, wat to doo????!!!

last thurs i had this stupid stomach ache for the whole day. tink i was worrying for my exam, den too gan chiong. i dunoo... i dunoo!! i'm freaking out! on 1 hand, very worried abt passing all my subjects, yet on the other hand, don't feel like studying! sort of trying to run away from reality... arrggghh! aunt said 'but this isin't de 1st time ur having exams, so y are u feeling this way?' yes, i noe it does sound stupid, but i can't help but feel anxious. the anxiety is building up in me every min, and every day as every second pass by. i can't help but tink days passes very quickly. i don't like to count down to how many days are left for me to revise!! but... i'm really left with only 1 mth! my 1st paper is on 12th may- economics! 13th may- AF, 17th may - mkting, 27th may- hrm, 2nd june - cbis.

sobzz... i haven felt this way. or rather i did,... last yr! seriously i dont wish for the history to repeat itself, i really desperately wana do well. i...i.......i....
ARRGGHHH!!

grampa's death anniversary is this friday... and same as last yr, i have class on tis very fateful day. haizz... time really flies. a blink of the eye and 1 yr has passed...

today bought gramma 'tao suan' and 'bubu cha cha' for daddy, and ice jelly for me! den gramma paid me $2 after eating. of coz i refused to take de $, but she insists i take it, coz she said i'm still not working permanently now. haizz... of coz i really wana give them a portion of my earnings nxt time. but wat i was afraid of is tt when i finally can come out to the society and work, i wonder if she still can wait tt long. i noe i'll be graduating nxt yr... but 1 yr may seem short, yet it seem long too! i can wait, but the qns is.........can she wait? perhaps i'm being pessimistic, but den, again, things can just happen so suddenly, and sometimes we're just caught off hand. so... well......

i wana do well, i wana exam to b over, i wana go on holiday, i wana sleep till i wake up days later without being awoken by the stupid alarm, i wana exercise, i wana watch movies, i wana play, i wana go to the beach, i wana watch tv as if i'm glued to it, i wana gather with frenz and chat till mid nite, i wana hav sleepovers, i wana read storybooks, i wana THIS, i wana THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANA DO LOTSA THINGS!!

but this have to wait after my exam...
=(

muahahahaaa... was luffing non-stop when i saw my jc ct's friendster!!! oh my godness me!!! hahahhaa... didnt noe teachers were into tis kinda thingy also. and guess wat? de pic he put on the main was his fav singer... lolz. ok la, i guess teachers are also humans who also hav idols... hehehe. but i can't help but feeling he wasn't tt into such 'teenager' stuff...

hahaa... my 1st reavtion was like 'wat the hell is he doing here...?!!' and also, he was linked to several of my classmates! euuw... hope he doesn't ask me. dun tink he'll b interested though, coz obviously i weren't 1 of his fav or best students. hahahaha... neither do i wana b. heh! coz he was 1 of a hell lamer.. his jokes weren't funny, and i tot he had 1 of the weirdest attitude! giving weird remarks and having tt stupid sly smile of his... yucks!! and he is always wearing tight pants which i always tot will split if he were to walk faster. hahaha... wana show off he did manage to loose off so much weight. chey!! and he looks awefully stern and aloof when he's aint smiling, which in the 1st place whld b better den when he did smile.... am i very critical of him? perhaps so...coz i still rem he'll give me very stupid obvious ans when i was asking him maths qns, and while answering me, he'll give a 'this is such an easy qns and i tink ur plain stupid' look. and he did sound like tt!! or perhaps i was just too sensitive, or perhaps he did had high hopes on me. hahaha... too bad manz! i only scored a C fore maths-c... hehhe. but i was somewhat surprised and had more confidence when he told my parents i was more of an A student, when i actually scored an F for prelims. lolz... all of them was shocked... aiya, its all over and in the past. so no point harping on it too...

lallaalla... hmmm... wonderful memories i had back in SRJC. esp when we were in band, practising till late at nite for the band competition and also concerts and performance etc. I JUST SIMPLY LURV IT!! ;)

ahh chooooo!! sneeze sneeze... oops! accidentally sneezed when i was abt to blog for todae. hahha, my aunt said i havta eat more vitamins as it seems to her i've always been falling sick, esp during exam time.

hahha... haven been blogging in coz my aunt's computer need a password to log-on, therefore i can't use the computer, neway it can't log-on to the internet due to some problems. have been staying with her now and den, coz its much quiet to study thr. but is quite lonely when it comes to meal time, coz i've got to go down to the mkt / coffee shop to get my lunch. hahhaa, den tt'll b the exucse i have to be lazy and while eating my lunch, i'll watch vcds! lolz... slack man!!!

didnt study much todae... woke up late coz the stupid bloody samsung hp didnt ring!!! must have becoz i put it in silent mode, coz i tot it'll still ring like nokia hps. arghh... den woke up at 1130am wid a headache... and it carried on till now... sheesh! read a little hrm here and thr.. but watched tv most of the day, coz many programmes are on the last episode. hahaha.. besides, tml is a sat! meaning i can still study in de noon coz aaron will b out for tuition mah. lalalalaa... and no sch till tues. oh noo...!

sianzz...

cough cough... hasn't been in gd health recently. had fever for the past 4/5 days. believe it or not, it was the worst experience i had.

MON: had body aches, but still bearable, but keep dozing off to sleep, i only thought i've became lazy coz long hrs of sleep + nap were not enuff for me... went over to aunt's hse in the nite, watched 'Species' with her. took panadol before sleeping.

TUES: woke up with tremedous terrible body aches, feeling a little dizzy. in the nite started having fever...feeling cold and hot another moment. TERRIBLE!! the panadol didn't work for me.. haizz

WED: finally went to see the doc. this is the 2nd day i was having fever... body feeling its gona break into parts... headache and dizzy... no strength to walk abt.

THUR: still having fever... sleep almost the whole day. these few days surviving on bread. but aunt bought me sliced fish noodles. tried to eat as much as i could, coz lacked nutrition over the past few days.

FRI: fever still didnt subside, start to panick... went to see the doc again. he gave me new medicine, and extra strong dosage of antibiotic pills. at 1st he suggested it maybe dengue fever, but my arms and legs didnt have rashes. den he suggested i maybe having lung infection!! scared the hell out of me... quickly msg jin and told her, but stupid hp no batt, so couldn't see her reply until i had the strength to charge it. went hm after seeing the doc. mom had the aircon man to come and instore a new aircon! hurray!! but the stupid aircon man made a mess in my rm, leaving dirt over my study table and the dressing table. no choice, had to clean it myself. threw away many stuff, was half coughing and half feeing like vomitting when i cleaned my rm. nv felt any worser....gramma cooked some porridge for me, but i didnt have the appetite, so forced myself to eat few spoonfuls of it. and ate my medicine. slept for almost the whole day also...

SAT: tts todae... feeling so much betta! haizz... tot i've wasted so much time sleeping over the past few days. though i did touched my AF, but den coz i was sick, the concentration wasn't thr. and my head was spinning most of the time.. =( haizz... time to pull up my socks!! still coughing.. and have many medicine to complete, coz i still have flu and cough and swollen tonsils.. sianzz...

tts abt it.. tis is the summary of wat happened for the past few days...sobZz
neway, weighed myself just now, i've lost ard 2kg over the past few days. don't tink its the water i've lost, coz i've been 'drowning' myself wid lotsa water. but haven been eatin very little, coz i don't have the appetite, just feeling bitterness in my mouth. tts y i end up brushing my teeth and tongue every now and den. haizz

ha, forgot to mention we went kbox on thurs... hmm... we spent more time commenting on the mtvs... hahha, hey! guang liang's 'tong hua' was so touching that i cried while singing it... lolz. it was so emotional...

hmm... den went out wid jin and dot on fri. hehhe, jin and i caught 'howl's moving castle in the early afternoon. ohhh.... it was so romantic! abt this gal named Sophie, who has this horrible spell cast upon her. she became an old gramma that very second. so in order to have her spell broken, she went in serach of Howl, who was a wizard she 1st met when she went to this island whr everyone has magic. and a series of things happen as Sophie help Howl to break his spell of being bounded to a powerful witch the King has engaged, and also meanwhile trying to break her own spell too. lolz... they fell in love... sss0o0o romantic. it's abt self-sacrificial and the power of love. ww0o0o!!!

and in the late afternoon, together wid dot, we caught 'Boogeyman'. aiyoz... wat a lame show... i mean the sound effects were ok, but the plot was terrible.. oh.. suck like hell! abt this guy who had nitemares abt the boogeyman who took his dad away since he was 8. aiyoz.. and frm den on, he was afraid of closets. the funny part abt this western culture is tt their closets looked like another tiny room in the bedroom. so weird...! so this guy who is always trying to run away from reality was forced to confront this 'Boogeyman' when his mother died, so he had to go back to his old haunted house. blahh blahh blah... and the story goes on until he finally 'killed' the Boogeyman, which i though looked like a cartoon version of the 'swarm thing'. hahhaha...

hmm.. den we went to 'Din Tai Fung' for dinner. we each ordered a bowl of handmade noodles, and we also ordered 6 xiao long bao and 1 big bowl of soup. man... we were so full!! luckily jin didn't order another 6 xiao long bao, or else we're gona eat till we puke. she still wanted to order red bean bao for dessert... crazy... lolz. i'd rather have red bean soup. lolz... lalalala

ha.. mock is finally over, but the real exam is just round the corner.. *oh no...!*

well, just came hm from dinner at Sakura at Toa Payoh, went thr to celebrate my elder bro's bdae. haha.. he's 23 liaoz.. so old. he brough his gf thr too... hehhe. okies, todae i took a gd look at her. her size is abt mine, hmm.. though she's a little shorter. lolz... but she has pretty big eyes.. not bad la. hope she wasn't scared off by me. haha, coz i was alreadi famished when i reach the restaurant, so after putting my bag on the chair and greet her, i went off to take some food. muahaha... i was too hungry to wait any longer. the 30mins bus ride to Toa Payoh left me hungry and tired... yawnzz

lalalla... de other day was tokin to jin abt wat luck we will have if we stumble upon our crush's blog, and alas!! i did! at the very same nite which we broach this topic... hahahha!! i got to noe his blog thru a fren... coz it was 1 of his links thr. so i took a gd look at it... and thr i got a nice surprise... hahahha... *shld noe wat i'm tokin abt.. =)

hmmm... will be goin over to stay at my aunt's place after this wkend. coz needa find peace and space to study.... love her place! hahaha...

tml we're gona visit grampa at the cemetry... wonder if he misses us too! i realli do... haizz. its been almost a yr (just add another mth or so) well, it hasn't been easy trying not to tink too much abt grampa. i tink i spent ard half a yr drying at nite since his death. the first few mths wasn't easy... but now, i'm feeling so much betta.

yawnz... im lazy to blog, having mock exams now. i'm feeling lazy as time goes by. i'll be having my last paper, cbis, next tues. even now, i can't stand staying home to study.

went out yesterday after my AF paper. Justin asked Xiao Ying to let him drive her car, and she did, not realising tt he is only used to driving auto-geared cars. And the last time he had driven was 2 yrs back! thr were 5 gals and shaf in the car.. can u imagine how we were feeling? I was laughing away, while shaf, hui and xy were talking relentlessly to him. Poor Justin can't concentrate, but then, our lives are in his hands, it's not funny k. I was a little terrified, esp when he said he even thought of over taking a taxi, when he was in a state of not driving properly. We were 'crawling' thr...

they went to watch 'Hitch' while me and hui went shopping around. I had dinner at BK, coz they ate when they were in sch earlier on. After their movie, we went cafe cartel. June said 'i feel as though we're going on a SDU date.' hahah... so funny! know y she said tt? its becoz there were 8 of us, 4 guys and 4 gals. And just nice, we were sitting face to face. lolz... XY with Simon, June with shaf, Me with Justin and hui with FG. hahaha... wat a funny sight. It was kinda awkward for me, coz i just had dinner, so i sat thr, not knowing wat to do, so ended up playing with hui's hp. But it was fun going out with them, coz they're a noisy bunch...but somehow, i tink i still feel a little awkward as i'm still not tt close with them. I feel tt i can't talk the way i usually whld talk with my close frenz. The feeling is diff. Jin said its becoz of him, tts y i feel awkward. Perhaps so i guess... haha

yawnzz... today i spent the whole day doing nth. Listening to Aaron's Britney Spears - Prerogative cd. Many of the songs were from her previous cd, most were ok, but i didnt like a few. But i still ended up writing some notes on the paper. I just didn't feel like studying!! Not today.. perhaps tomorrow... hahah. I'm still procrastinating??? haizz... final exams is just 2 months away... Its already March now! Unbelievable.... i'm dying.. I'm dead. I hate exams! How chld any invented this way of torturing us? It's soo... it's like a chore to me. I dislike having exams...It just doesn't make any sense to me, coz afterall, wat i'm learning now aint sth tt will come in handy when i work. I won't be asked to draw Economics curves, neither whld i be asked about Marx's or Weber's theory! Only some, like Accounting or Hrm may come in handy when i work in such specific areas in the future.

haizz.... someone pls save me...

yawnz...morning! woke up at 10+am just now, finished eating my milo balls and reading the newspaper. hmmm... i've been thinking alot since yesterday... i just can't figure out y. i mean, wat really happened to him? does ppl gain weight once they are attached or wat? so the need to feel and look beautiful isin't impt anymore?? i got a shock of my life when i saw him yesterday...even jin say she saw me jump. frankly speaking, i was, indeed shocked to see him like that. afterall, he was once my... (ahem!).... prince charming. coz he was so considerate, understanding, and caring... i still tink he's like that, but den... judging frm the physical appearance, i can't comprehend what is going on.

yaa yaa, teachers also teach us not to judge a book by its cover and not to judge a person from their outer appearance, and i've learnt an impt lesson from yesterday's birthdae bbq party. frenz who were huge and looked like teddy bears who accompany to sleep, now looked like hunks from baywatch... and those who were once pretty and handsome, now looked like they were surrendering hands down, defeated by the temptation of good food. haizz.... hmm, i wonder if im the latter.. hahahha!! some things are worth thinking abt. i was telling 1 of my guy frenz to bring me into camp with him so tt i can also slim down abit. lolz

i've been in a daze like mode since yesterday when i woke up... i'm still in my own world now. i seemed to be thinking of something, yet i have no idea what is that 'something' i am thinking. weird... yes, i'm a weirdo. emily the strange... ha!

oh no! just as i was day dreaming abt going back sch, i finally found out that i really need to get back to sch. shucks!! noe y? coz i accidentally left my econs notes under the desk yesterday after my AF lecture. damnit! hahaha... was tinking if i shld go down to sch personally to retrieve it when i tot of askin andy to keep it for me 1st. den i regretted coz he will onli be in sch on wed and thurs. meaning i'll have to go to sch on those days... and to get it back frm him personally. pai seh ah... hehehe. haven realli talked to him in real life before, except 'hi' and 'hey!' or 'bye!' hahaha... it whld b real awkward man!

uohh! i tink he realli looks cute! (pls save me the agony of being questioned who is the 'he' i'm tokin abt...thanx)
realli, i swear tt he really looks different when i 1st saw him this wk. hmmm... didn't see him for a few wks alreadi, seeing him again makes my heart skip a beat, esp having to had lunch together...i was trying not to stare, but not sure if my eyes betrayed me. hehhe... i still remember when i 1st met him, i was still wondering who he is. but alias! he is sort of "engaged".. so well... erm.. forget it la, i shldn't pinned such hopes for it it was meant to be a dream only. lolz.. (i tink i'm going crazy from all the studying, pardon me...) he realli looks gd, like he'll look even better after time to time. actually i have to admit tt i feel a little awkward having to sit together, coz we weren't very close, thus i was forced to look somewhr else e.g my hp, the ceiling, other ppl in the canteen etc. i kept his msg in my hp, looking at this simple msg can make me smile...haizz...

was tokin to derrick (my self-proclaimed gay partner), he said tt his time was up..he's preparing to be a gay or monk. made me laugh like hell...guys like him won't have the courage to ask gals out for the fear of rejection. well, i tink tt guys shld b thick skinned enuff, otherwise the gal will end up in someone's elses embrace. true rite...?! on the other hand, we have gals who are waiting desperately for the thick headed guys to open their GIM aka 'gold infested mouth' to ask them out for a date. sighh... i wonder what has this world become to..

tml we havta attend jorine's 21st bdae.. oh so i dislike having attend such gatherings when it is so near towards my exams!!! arghh... den i can't enjoy myself alreadi... can onli just pop in 'hi, eat.. bye!' hahahha... and meiyun's bdae nxt sat... die la... i hav 2 papers on tt day itself, not sure if i have the time and energy to go.

shucks!! =(

ahem ahem! haiz... having a bad throat and cough this new yr. guess i must have eaten too much of those heaty goodies. hahha...

well, this new yr have been a boring one. actually doesnt make a difference, just like any other normal day. most of my relatives didnt come coz they tot we're not celebrating. not true lei! we still welcome ppl, but den we didnt make tis new yr a much of a 'hoo ha' thingy. not really suppose to go hse visiting, but still i went, coz my mom's frenz didnt mind, so ask my mom to bring me along. so boh bian la, she drag me along. of coz i whld hav stayed at hm, even though thr's nth much to do at hm too. sianz...

tis is the 1st new yr widout grampa... feeling a little weird during reunion dinner, coz he is not thr. den we havta go to my ah ma's hse during de 1st day, so gramma is at hm alone wid de maid. usualli she'll be sitting nxt to de door wid my grampa, half alssep, half waiting for other relatives to come by. but tis yr is different... she's alone. haizz... i'm feeling a little sad. den my aunt brought her vcr to my hm coz we found a tape tt we took when going china for holiday. grampa is also in tt tape. so when i came hm, daddy ask me to put the tape, he wana watch, coz gramma is asleep. i put de the inside, but den it got stucked!! i panick like hell, so told daddy to take it out himself. he asked my bro to bring it to the shop to fix it. tis is the onli thingy we have since my bro's lappy break down, den all of grampa's pics also vanished within tt very minute. so pray hard tt tis tape whld b ok...

after new yr is mock exams... jialat la! haven even finish revising. i'm determine to make amendments for last yr. no way whld i staudy last min again... for i pray tt nth will happen tis yr. i'm also feeling guilty for failing my econs last yr. grampa always emphasize de need to study hard and make a mark for myself. this is my driving force, HE IS MY DRIVING FORCE... i'll do my best. i promise...

hey ho.. de mosquitoe! hahaha... siao char boh, duno wat de hell im tokin abt. sianz la!!chinese new yr is just next wk and after tt is my mock exams. haizz... so many things to revise, so many things to memorise, so mani things to do. arghh!!

im as lazy as a pig, infact, i tink i already looked like one... muaahahahaa!! self actualisation is the best policy.. hehehe. aiya! i also duno wat de hell im tokin abt. lolz... tink im going crazy.

hmnph! im going to eat my apple now, followed by doing things im suppose to be doing. haizz.... *giggles*

oh btw... perhaps sandy and kaili have been sick of hearing me saying this "AM I GETTING FATTER??!" hahha... but de truth is... i do seem to be heavier, or at least i tot my weight shld stay, despite de fact tt my weight always fluctuate. but den again, does tt mean being heavier = getting fatter= looks fatter? oh nooo0o0o!! seriously, i haven been eating alot, like how i use to in de past, but den.... im heavier?! wat kinda theory is this?!!! arghhh....

i'm just eating normal, sometimes i even skipped my lunch (not purposely, but sometimes either i dun feel like eating, or thr isint time to eat!) haizz... or isit coz im stressed, so my hormones are imbalance? hahahhaaa.... u noe i went to kfc on mondae, duhhzz... i can't even finish my 2 piece meal!! i finished my whipped potato and half a pkt of small fries and was into my 1st chicken. half way thru biting and chewing... im so bloated and full!! euuww... sounds disgusting yeh? lolz... real funni... my stomach is so weird. when i was in sec sch, i could finish a mac up sized meal, but now... half way into de burger i'm so darn bloated alreadi... perhaps i was realli growing at tt period. hahhaha....! HOMONES IMBALANCE...! hehhe...

oops...! i didnt noe it has been this long since i last blogged. hahhaa...well, just being busy coz had a few tests this wk, and also, mock exams is just round de corner. it'll be just ard 2 to 3 wks after Chinese new yr. snorez... so tired! aahhh.... still hav lotsa things not done yet!

I'm so confused wid my AF... duno wat to do, no matter how long i read or stare at de book, i still encounter probs whenever i do my assignments! sick manz!!! haizz...as for cbis, duno how de hell to apply wat was taught to de ans... haha, i was sort of using general knowledge when asnwering for my test on wed. de test on tues was worse, i forgot how2 label my diagram, so since i saw ppl copying from de notes, i pulled out and started to see how 2 label de diagram. who noes?!! de lecturer appeared out of no where, and was beside me. haha! was a shock! she said "aiya, dun worrie, just put ur notes on the table, at least ur forcing urself to write, its ok." wah piangz... i didnt realli copy la... but wrote in my own language. haha... as for mon's hrm test, oh oh...! i didnt attend. hahhaa... couldn't finish reading all de materials la! so mani... 5 topics covered and de damn bloody hell lecturer told us a test 1 wk ago. how2 prepare when i hav 2 other tests in de same wk? siao!!

lalalala.... todae is thurs.. can rest liao... pheeww... catch a breather. den this wkend wun be free either, coz havta help bake the cashew nuts and fry the cracker. oh me godness... still havta go NTUC to help buy those drinks and sweets! arghh... tough time! i still hav so much things haven study yet! cool cool... tis is onli mock... no sweat!! no sweat!! lolz...

relaxxx la!!! dun pressurize me. after quarreling wid mummy de other day, she actually stopped her naggings!! ww0o0o0o!! peace man! perhaps she really tot how stress and presurrized i was. it's true! tink of last yr, i didnt give a damn when it was mock. but now.. im freaking out!!! no time no time... (minus time set aside for entertainment e.g tv, movies, shopping, CNY, chit-chatting, do nth) hahaha... perhaps she noe i'm trying... hmm.... i dun wan anything to happen this yr. not when im tryin to study for my exams. choyy!!! touch wood...

hey girls! just ta-han this for say... another 5 mths, den we'll be able to enjoy k? Hong Kong? Taiwan? or Diving? hehehe... ^-^

oh ya! i forgot to tell u all... i went to mediacorp on monday lei!!!

hahahahaa... coz i happened to stay in sch to study, den saw ruiyi, she asked me, saying she has extra tickets to watch them record 'top fun' this chi variety show, wid mark lee and chen jianbin as the hosts. they're so funni, yet lame at de same time! muahahaa

den fish leong was also thr! free singing of 2 songs for us! hurrayyy!! den i also saw michelle xie yunyi! aiyoz.... so slim! w0o0o0o... and huang biren is damn tall lor... even when wearing sports shoes, she's still taller den michelle. hanor...

I'M SO TIRED!! for 3 executive days i've been in sch till 6pm. wah piangz...tis wk had been quite busy, attending lectures and consultation classes. tian ahhh...!

hmm... he msg me suddenli to clarify things wid me. i'm glad he did. coz previously our relationship had been quite messy and confusing. well... im feeling relieved. coz i noe thr's just sth wrong if he did realli felt de way he shldn't be feeling. hhahaa... but den, he's quite a nice guy la. so... still available for gals out thr..

i duno, hui said its quite sad. perhaps she's comparing me with dorris. well, maybe thr's always an exception to such relationships la. i noe he's nice, but we're just not meant to be, so nvm lor. hahha... not tt i've gave anything in this 'relationship'. so im not upset la.. yawnz...

lallalala... tml goin relc to pay sch fees. mummy was so shocked to noe my exam fees is 2 thousand plus. hahaha... okies! i'm determined to pass all my subjects. pls dun blame me la, failing econs last yr was an accident. i promised not to repeat de mistake. *failing doesn't make my life any easier also lor* duhzz...

happy 13th brithday aaron!
though i dislike this stupid boy having irritating me on many occasions, i still love him as a little bro!

hope he'll grow up to become a handsome and also, well behave guy.

noe wat? i was still checking on his homework, den he was yelling saying he'll noe wat to do, ask me stop bothering him. den i realised tt true enuff, he's alreadi in sec sch, i shld stop acting as though he's still in pri sch. ok! no strings attached! i'm not gona b kpo auntie and nag... ha!

=) happy 21st birthdae to hui!

wat a lazy afternoon... yawnz. i just woke up frm my afternoon nap. ha! fell asleep (or rather i just told myself to sleep) when reading my cbis notes. sianz. another test coming soon on 26th. arghh!! tis is 1 of the subjects i dislike, noe y? coz i just can't relate it. everything is in computing terms and its not tt easy as though they're gona ask u "wats a mouse?". duhzz....

snorez... i'll havta work doubly hard this yr. coz last yr, grampa's death came unexpectedly just a few wks before my exams. last minute cramming + his death wasn't easy for me to cope. so this yr, i'll just havta start revising earli, just in case u noe, well... just in case. (i'm keeping my fingers cross...)

tink i'll start making notes for cbis 1st (coz its de subject i tink is de toughest) den followed by AF (another tough subject for a simple brain like mine), den i can slowly revise my mkting and hrm. not tt i tink these 2 subjects are easy, but they're easier to relate to our daily lives in terms of its content, its more realistic, rather den tt dead cbis. arghh...

mock exams is coming in say...6 wks time. coz its startin at de end of feb... den in btw we have final revisions wid local lecturers and workshops. den the real terror begins ard end of may to starting of july. =(

(i absolutely hate exams...!)

ohh... yawnz.

fell sick on wednesday. my bodyached as though someone split it into 2... even had difficulty turning over when i was sleeping. haizz... went to see a doc, and the medicine made me groggy and dizzy. so fell into deep sleep for almost the whole day. so wat a perfect excuse to skip my cbis class again.. *oops...pls ignore tis * hahha!

hmm... todae is friday, wat have i done? err... read abit of mkting, was determined to do part of my assignment, but switched on the radio and thr i go, singing along. no work done... oops...! read abit of hrm but none went into my brain. tot tt wat i read frm de article kareem gave was absolutely rubbish! muahaha... okok, shall continue working on my assignment later.

tml is hui's bdae party in advance. lets wish her happy 21st birthdae!!! woww... tt sounds old doesn't it? hahah... mine whld b 11 mths later. lalalala...aaron's bdae is also de same as hui. he says he wan to have a bbq. wats de matter? he's onli 13th tis yr, and he wans to invite his frenz over. wats de big deal? cheyy!! i didnt buy him anything though.

he was tellin me in de face, "u betta buy me a billabong or OP pencil box..."
i replied "i have no $$ la... broke alreadi!"
he said "how can u have no $$ when u can buy ur frenz a bdae present?!"
and i argued "tts de reason i'm broke! after buyin her present i'm left wid less than $60 for de whole of january!"

faintz... he just doesnt understand. onli 13 wat?! wats de big deal... maybe i can psycho my mom to buy him tt instead. anyway, he got a new sony erricsson hp. tts more than anything else... dont u agree?? ha...

hmmm....i'm not thinkin of him anymore. coz yest i turned on the radio, and this gal wrote in and her story is similar to mine. so i guess we're just very gd frenz. which is also a gd news ya?? hmm....

i'm HUNGRY laa!!!!!!!!! but i have no appetite... -_-
after being sick, i've been eatin very little. as little as like 3 bread in a day... *faintz...* wat a perfect excuse to b on diet. ha... u see how long can tis go... u can predict. no longer than 1 wk! muahahaha...

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