I'M GOING CRAZY....!!

no, i'm not singing britney spear's song... i'm really going crazy! on the verge of pulling my hair out from my head. oh no...!!! arghhhhhhhh.......

exams are just 1 mth away... i haven started studying. i mean i did started studying, but... oh... wat am i tokin abt?! sheesh.. i've written notes on my cards, the usual way i whld do when revising for a subject. but i find tt my memory hasn't been very gd lately, or perhaps it has been like this all the time. or isit coz i revision was a flop? i mean, i used to plan wat i shld study for the day, cramming a few subjects into a day. but now... haizz... so after reading this subject, i'd go onto another subject and forgotten wat i've read previously. tian ahhhh!!!!

wat to do, wat shld i do, wat to doo????!!!

last thurs i had this stupid stomach ache for the whole day. tink i was worrying for my exam, den too gan chiong. i dunoo... i dunoo!! i'm freaking out! on 1 hand, very worried abt passing all my subjects, yet on the other hand, don't feel like studying! sort of trying to run away from reality... arrggghh! aunt said 'but this isin't de 1st time ur having exams, so y are u feeling this way?' yes, i noe it does sound stupid, but i can't help but feel anxious. the anxiety is building up in me every min, and every day as every second pass by. i can't help but tink days passes very quickly. i don't like to count down to how many days are left for me to revise!! but... i'm really left with only 1 mth! my 1st paper is on 12th may- economics! 13th may- AF, 17th may - mkting, 27th may- hrm, 2nd june - cbis.

sobzz... i haven felt this way. or rather i did,... last yr! seriously i dont wish for the history to repeat itself, i really desperately wana do well. i...i.......i....
ARRGGHHH!!

grampa's death anniversary is this friday... and same as last yr, i have class on tis very fateful day. haizz... time really flies. a blink of the eye and 1 yr has passed...

today bought gramma 'tao suan' and 'bubu cha cha' for daddy, and ice jelly for me! den gramma paid me $2 after eating. of coz i refused to take de $, but she insists i take it, coz she said i'm still not working permanently now. haizz... of coz i really wana give them a portion of my earnings nxt time. but wat i was afraid of is tt when i finally can come out to the society and work, i wonder if she still can wait tt long. i noe i'll be graduating nxt yr... but 1 yr may seem short, yet it seem long too! i can wait, but the qns is.........can she wait? perhaps i'm being pessimistic, but den, again, things can just happen so suddenly, and sometimes we're just caught off hand. so... well......

i wana do well, i wana exam to b over, i wana go on holiday, i wana sleep till i wake up days later without being awoken by the stupid alarm, i wana exercise, i wana watch movies, i wana play, i wana go to the beach, i wana watch tv as if i'm glued to it, i wana gather with frenz and chat till mid nite, i wana hav sleepovers, i wana read storybooks, i wana THIS, i wana THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANA DO LOTSA THINGS!!

but this have to wait after my exam...
=(

muahahahaaa... was luffing non-stop when i saw my jc ct's friendster!!! oh my godness me!!! hahahhaa... didnt noe teachers were into tis kinda thingy also. and guess wat? de pic he put on the main was his fav singer... lolz. ok la, i guess teachers are also humans who also hav idols... hehehe. but i can't help but feeling he wasn't tt into such 'teenager' stuff...

hahaa... my 1st reavtion was like 'wat the hell is he doing here...?!!' and also, he was linked to several of my classmates! euuw... hope he doesn't ask me. dun tink he'll b interested though, coz obviously i weren't 1 of his fav or best students. hahahaha... neither do i wana b. heh! coz he was 1 of a hell lamer.. his jokes weren't funny, and i tot he had 1 of the weirdest attitude! giving weird remarks and having tt stupid sly smile of his... yucks!! and he is always wearing tight pants which i always tot will split if he were to walk faster. hahaha... wana show off he did manage to loose off so much weight. chey!! and he looks awefully stern and aloof when he's aint smiling, which in the 1st place whld b better den when he did smile.... am i very critical of him? perhaps so...coz i still rem he'll give me very stupid obvious ans when i was asking him maths qns, and while answering me, he'll give a 'this is such an easy qns and i tink ur plain stupid' look. and he did sound like tt!! or perhaps i was just too sensitive, or perhaps he did had high hopes on me. hahaha... too bad manz! i only scored a C fore maths-c... hehhe. but i was somewhat surprised and had more confidence when he told my parents i was more of an A student, when i actually scored an F for prelims. lolz... all of them was shocked... aiya, its all over and in the past. so no point harping on it too...

lallaalla... hmmm... wonderful memories i had back in SRJC. esp when we were in band, practising till late at nite for the band competition and also concerts and performance etc. I JUST SIMPLY LURV IT!! ;)

ahh chooooo!! sneeze sneeze... oops! accidentally sneezed when i was abt to blog for todae. hahha, my aunt said i havta eat more vitamins as it seems to her i've always been falling sick, esp during exam time.

hahha... haven been blogging in coz my aunt's computer need a password to log-on, therefore i can't use the computer, neway it can't log-on to the internet due to some problems. have been staying with her now and den, coz its much quiet to study thr. but is quite lonely when it comes to meal time, coz i've got to go down to the mkt / coffee shop to get my lunch. hahhaa, den tt'll b the exucse i have to be lazy and while eating my lunch, i'll watch vcds! lolz... slack man!!!

didnt study much todae... woke up late coz the stupid bloody samsung hp didnt ring!!! must have becoz i put it in silent mode, coz i tot it'll still ring like nokia hps. arghh... den woke up at 1130am wid a headache... and it carried on till now... sheesh! read a little hrm here and thr.. but watched tv most of the day, coz many programmes are on the last episode. hahaha.. besides, tml is a sat! meaning i can still study in de noon coz aaron will b out for tuition mah. lalalalaa... and no sch till tues. oh noo...!

sianzz...

cough cough... hasn't been in gd health recently. had fever for the past 4/5 days. believe it or not, it was the worst experience i had.

MON: had body aches, but still bearable, but keep dozing off to sleep, i only thought i've became lazy coz long hrs of sleep + nap were not enuff for me... went over to aunt's hse in the nite, watched 'Species' with her. took panadol before sleeping.

TUES: woke up with tremedous terrible body aches, feeling a little dizzy. in the nite started having fever...feeling cold and hot another moment. TERRIBLE!! the panadol didn't work for me.. haizz

WED: finally went to see the doc. this is the 2nd day i was having fever... body feeling its gona break into parts... headache and dizzy... no strength to walk abt.

THUR: still having fever... sleep almost the whole day. these few days surviving on bread. but aunt bought me sliced fish noodles. tried to eat as much as i could, coz lacked nutrition over the past few days.

FRI: fever still didnt subside, start to panick... went to see the doc again. he gave me new medicine, and extra strong dosage of antibiotic pills. at 1st he suggested it maybe dengue fever, but my arms and legs didnt have rashes. den he suggested i maybe having lung infection!! scared the hell out of me... quickly msg jin and told her, but stupid hp no batt, so couldn't see her reply until i had the strength to charge it. went hm after seeing the doc. mom had the aircon man to come and instore a new aircon! hurray!! but the stupid aircon man made a mess in my rm, leaving dirt over my study table and the dressing table. no choice, had to clean it myself. threw away many stuff, was half coughing and half feeing like vomitting when i cleaned my rm. nv felt any worser....gramma cooked some porridge for me, but i didnt have the appetite, so forced myself to eat few spoonfuls of it. and ate my medicine. slept for almost the whole day also...

SAT: tts todae... feeling so much betta! haizz... tot i've wasted so much time sleeping over the past few days. though i did touched my AF, but den coz i was sick, the concentration wasn't thr. and my head was spinning most of the time.. =( haizz... time to pull up my socks!! still coughing.. and have many medicine to complete, coz i still have flu and cough and swollen tonsils.. sianzz...

tts abt it.. tis is the summary of wat happened for the past few days...sobZz
neway, weighed myself just now, i've lost ard 2kg over the past few days. don't tink its the water i've lost, coz i've been 'drowning' myself wid lotsa water. but haven been eatin very little, coz i don't have the appetite, just feeling bitterness in my mouth. tts y i end up brushing my teeth and tongue every now and den. haizz

ha, forgot to mention we went kbox on thurs... hmm... we spent more time commenting on the mtvs... hahha, hey! guang liang's 'tong hua' was so touching that i cried while singing it... lolz. it was so emotional...

hmm... den went out wid jin and dot on fri. hehhe, jin and i caught 'howl's moving castle in the early afternoon. ohhh.... it was so romantic! abt this gal named Sophie, who has this horrible spell cast upon her. she became an old gramma that very second. so in order to have her spell broken, she went in serach of Howl, who was a wizard she 1st met when she went to this island whr everyone has magic. and a series of things happen as Sophie help Howl to break his spell of being bounded to a powerful witch the King has engaged, and also meanwhile trying to break her own spell too. lolz... they fell in love... sss0o0o romantic. it's abt self-sacrificial and the power of love. ww0o0o!!!

and in the late afternoon, together wid dot, we caught 'Boogeyman'. aiyoz... wat a lame show... i mean the sound effects were ok, but the plot was terrible.. oh.. suck like hell! abt this guy who had nitemares abt the boogeyman who took his dad away since he was 8. aiyoz.. and frm den on, he was afraid of closets. the funny part abt this western culture is tt their closets looked like another tiny room in the bedroom. so weird...! so this guy who is always trying to run away from reality was forced to confront this 'Boogeyman' when his mother died, so he had to go back to his old haunted house. blahh blahh blah... and the story goes on until he finally 'killed' the Boogeyman, which i though looked like a cartoon version of the 'swarm thing'. hahhaha...

hmm.. den we went to 'Din Tai Fung' for dinner. we each ordered a bowl of handmade noodles, and we also ordered 6 xiao long bao and 1 big bowl of soup. man... we were so full!! luckily jin didn't order another 6 xiao long bao, or else we're gona eat till we puke. she still wanted to order red bean bao for dessert... crazy... lolz. i'd rather have red bean soup. lolz... lalalala

ha.. mock is finally over, but the real exam is just round the corner.. *oh no...!*

well, just came hm from dinner at Sakura at Toa Payoh, went thr to celebrate my elder bro's bdae. haha.. he's 23 liaoz.. so old. he brough his gf thr too... hehhe. okies, todae i took a gd look at her. her size is abt mine, hmm.. though she's a little shorter. lolz... but she has pretty big eyes.. not bad la. hope she wasn't scared off by me. haha, coz i was alreadi famished when i reach the restaurant, so after putting my bag on the chair and greet her, i went off to take some food. muahaha... i was too hungry to wait any longer. the 30mins bus ride to Toa Payoh left me hungry and tired... yawnzz

lalalla... de other day was tokin to jin abt wat luck we will have if we stumble upon our crush's blog, and alas!! i did! at the very same nite which we broach this topic... hahahha!! i got to noe his blog thru a fren... coz it was 1 of his links thr. so i took a gd look at it... and thr i got a nice surprise... hahahha... *shld noe wat i'm tokin abt.. =)

hmmm... will be goin over to stay at my aunt's place after this wkend. coz needa find peace and space to study.... love her place! hahaha...

tml we're gona visit grampa at the cemetry... wonder if he misses us too! i realli do... haizz. its been almost a yr (just add another mth or so) well, it hasn't been easy trying not to tink too much abt grampa. i tink i spent ard half a yr drying at nite since his death. the first few mths wasn't easy... but now, i'm feeling so much betta.

yawnz... im lazy to blog, having mock exams now. i'm feeling lazy as time goes by. i'll be having my last paper, cbis, next tues. even now, i can't stand staying home to study.

went out yesterday after my AF paper. Justin asked Xiao Ying to let him drive her car, and she did, not realising tt he is only used to driving auto-geared cars. And the last time he had driven was 2 yrs back! thr were 5 gals and shaf in the car.. can u imagine how we were feeling? I was laughing away, while shaf, hui and xy were talking relentlessly to him. Poor Justin can't concentrate, but then, our lives are in his hands, it's not funny k. I was a little terrified, esp when he said he even thought of over taking a taxi, when he was in a state of not driving properly. We were 'crawling' thr...

they went to watch 'Hitch' while me and hui went shopping around. I had dinner at BK, coz they ate when they were in sch earlier on. After their movie, we went cafe cartel. June said 'i feel as though we're going on a SDU date.' hahah... so funny! know y she said tt? its becoz there were 8 of us, 4 guys and 4 gals. And just nice, we were sitting face to face. lolz... XY with Simon, June with shaf, Me with Justin and hui with FG. hahaha... wat a funny sight. It was kinda awkward for me, coz i just had dinner, so i sat thr, not knowing wat to do, so ended up playing with hui's hp. But it was fun going out with them, coz they're a noisy bunch...but somehow, i tink i still feel a little awkward as i'm still not tt close with them. I feel tt i can't talk the way i usually whld talk with my close frenz. The feeling is diff. Jin said its becoz of him, tts y i feel awkward. Perhaps so i guess... haha

yawnzz... today i spent the whole day doing nth. Listening to Aaron's Britney Spears - Prerogative cd. Many of the songs were from her previous cd, most were ok, but i didnt like a few. But i still ended up writing some notes on the paper. I just didn't feel like studying!! Not today.. perhaps tomorrow... hahah. I'm still procrastinating??? haizz... final exams is just 2 months away... Its already March now! Unbelievable.... i'm dying.. I'm dead. I hate exams! How chld any invented this way of torturing us? It's soo... it's like a chore to me. I dislike having exams...It just doesn't make any sense to me, coz afterall, wat i'm learning now aint sth tt will come in handy when i work. I won't be asked to draw Economics curves, neither whld i be asked about Marx's or Weber's theory! Only some, like Accounting or Hrm may come in handy when i work in such specific areas in the future.

haizz.... someone pls save me...

yawnz...morning! woke up at 10+am just now, finished eating my milo balls and reading the newspaper. hmmm... i've been thinking alot since yesterday... i just can't figure out y. i mean, wat really happened to him? does ppl gain weight once they are attached or wat? so the need to feel and look beautiful isin't impt anymore?? i got a shock of my life when i saw him yesterday...even jin say she saw me jump. frankly speaking, i was, indeed shocked to see him like that. afterall, he was once my... (ahem!).... prince charming. coz he was so considerate, understanding, and caring... i still tink he's like that, but den... judging frm the physical appearance, i can't comprehend what is going on.

yaa yaa, teachers also teach us not to judge a book by its cover and not to judge a person from their outer appearance, and i've learnt an impt lesson from yesterday's birthdae bbq party. frenz who were huge and looked like teddy bears who accompany to sleep, now looked like hunks from baywatch... and those who were once pretty and handsome, now looked like they were surrendering hands down, defeated by the temptation of good food. haizz.... hmm, i wonder if im the latter.. hahahha!! some things are worth thinking abt. i was telling 1 of my guy frenz to bring me into camp with him so tt i can also slim down abit. lolz

i've been in a daze like mode since yesterday when i woke up... i'm still in my own world now. i seemed to be thinking of something, yet i have no idea what is that 'something' i am thinking. weird... yes, i'm a weirdo. emily the strange... ha!

oh no! just as i was day dreaming abt going back sch, i finally found out that i really need to get back to sch. shucks!! noe y? coz i accidentally left my econs notes under the desk yesterday after my AF lecture. damnit! hahaha... was tinking if i shld go down to sch personally to retrieve it when i tot of askin andy to keep it for me 1st. den i regretted coz he will onli be in sch on wed and thurs. meaning i'll have to go to sch on those days... and to get it back frm him personally. pai seh ah... hehehe. haven realli talked to him in real life before, except 'hi' and 'hey!' or 'bye!' hahaha... it whld b real awkward man!

uohh! i tink he realli looks cute! (pls save me the agony of being questioned who is the 'he' i'm tokin abt...thanx)
realli, i swear tt he really looks different when i 1st saw him this wk. hmmm... didn't see him for a few wks alreadi, seeing him again makes my heart skip a beat, esp having to had lunch together...i was trying not to stare, but not sure if my eyes betrayed me. hehhe... i still remember when i 1st met him, i was still wondering who he is. but alias! he is sort of "engaged".. so well... erm.. forget it la, i shldn't pinned such hopes for it it was meant to be a dream only. lolz.. (i tink i'm going crazy from all the studying, pardon me...) he realli looks gd, like he'll look even better after time to time. actually i have to admit tt i feel a little awkward having to sit together, coz we weren't very close, thus i was forced to look somewhr else e.g my hp, the ceiling, other ppl in the canteen etc. i kept his msg in my hp, looking at this simple msg can make me smile...haizz...

was tokin to derrick (my self-proclaimed gay partner), he said tt his time was up..he's preparing to be a gay or monk. made me laugh like hell...guys like him won't have the courage to ask gals out for the fear of rejection. well, i tink tt guys shld b thick skinned enuff, otherwise the gal will end up in someone's elses embrace. true rite...?! on the other hand, we have gals who are waiting desperately for the thick headed guys to open their GIM aka 'gold infested mouth' to ask them out for a date. sighh... i wonder what has this world become to..

tml we havta attend jorine's 21st bdae.. oh so i dislike having attend such gatherings when it is so near towards my exams!!! arghh... den i can't enjoy myself alreadi... can onli just pop in 'hi, eat.. bye!' hahahha... and meiyun's bdae nxt sat... die la... i hav 2 papers on tt day itself, not sure if i have the time and energy to go.

shucks!! =(

ahem ahem! haiz... having a bad throat and cough this new yr. guess i must have eaten too much of those heaty goodies. hahha...

well, this new yr have been a boring one. actually doesnt make a difference, just like any other normal day. most of my relatives didnt come coz they tot we're not celebrating. not true lei! we still welcome ppl, but den we didnt make tis new yr a much of a 'hoo ha' thingy. not really suppose to go hse visiting, but still i went, coz my mom's frenz didnt mind, so ask my mom to bring me along. so boh bian la, she drag me along. of coz i whld hav stayed at hm, even though thr's nth much to do at hm too. sianz...

tis is the 1st new yr widout grampa... feeling a little weird during reunion dinner, coz he is not thr. den we havta go to my ah ma's hse during de 1st day, so gramma is at hm alone wid de maid. usualli she'll be sitting nxt to de door wid my grampa, half alssep, half waiting for other relatives to come by. but tis yr is different... she's alone. haizz... i'm feeling a little sad. den my aunt brought her vcr to my hm coz we found a tape tt we took when going china for holiday. grampa is also in tt tape. so when i came hm, daddy ask me to put the tape, he wana watch, coz gramma is asleep. i put de the inside, but den it got stucked!! i panick like hell, so told daddy to take it out himself. he asked my bro to bring it to the shop to fix it. tis is the onli thingy we have since my bro's lappy break down, den all of grampa's pics also vanished within tt very minute. so pray hard tt tis tape whld b ok...

after new yr is mock exams... jialat la! haven even finish revising. i'm determine to make amendments for last yr. no way whld i staudy last min again... for i pray tt nth will happen tis yr. i'm also feeling guilty for failing my econs last yr. grampa always emphasize de need to study hard and make a mark for myself. this is my driving force, HE IS MY DRIVING FORCE... i'll do my best. i promise...

hey ho.. de mosquitoe! hahaha... siao char boh, duno wat de hell im tokin abt. sianz la!!chinese new yr is just next wk and after tt is my mock exams. haizz... so many things to revise, so many things to memorise, so mani things to do. arghh!!

im as lazy as a pig, infact, i tink i already looked like one... muaahahahaa!! self actualisation is the best policy.. hehehe. aiya! i also duno wat de hell im tokin abt. lolz... tink im going crazy.

hmnph! im going to eat my apple now, followed by doing things im suppose to be doing. haizz.... *giggles*

oh btw... perhaps sandy and kaili have been sick of hearing me saying this "AM I GETTING FATTER??!" hahha... but de truth is... i do seem to be heavier, or at least i tot my weight shld stay, despite de fact tt my weight always fluctuate. but den again, does tt mean being heavier = getting fatter= looks fatter? oh nooo0o0o!! seriously, i haven been eating alot, like how i use to in de past, but den.... im heavier?! wat kinda theory is this?!!! arghhh....

i'm just eating normal, sometimes i even skipped my lunch (not purposely, but sometimes either i dun feel like eating, or thr isint time to eat!) haizz... or isit coz im stressed, so my hormones are imbalance? hahahhaaa.... u noe i went to kfc on mondae, duhhzz... i can't even finish my 2 piece meal!! i finished my whipped potato and half a pkt of small fries and was into my 1st chicken. half way thru biting and chewing... im so bloated and full!! euuww... sounds disgusting yeh? lolz... real funni... my stomach is so weird. when i was in sec sch, i could finish a mac up sized meal, but now... half way into de burger i'm so darn bloated alreadi... perhaps i was realli growing at tt period. hahhaha....! HOMONES IMBALANCE...! hehhe...

oops...! i didnt noe it has been this long since i last blogged. hahhaa...well, just being busy coz had a few tests this wk, and also, mock exams is just round de corner. it'll be just ard 2 to 3 wks after Chinese new yr. snorez... so tired! aahhh.... still hav lotsa things not done yet!

I'm so confused wid my AF... duno wat to do, no matter how long i read or stare at de book, i still encounter probs whenever i do my assignments! sick manz!!! haizz...as for cbis, duno how de hell to apply wat was taught to de ans... haha, i was sort of using general knowledge when asnwering for my test on wed. de test on tues was worse, i forgot how2 label my diagram, so since i saw ppl copying from de notes, i pulled out and started to see how 2 label de diagram. who noes?!! de lecturer appeared out of no where, and was beside me. haha! was a shock! she said "aiya, dun worrie, just put ur notes on the table, at least ur forcing urself to write, its ok." wah piangz... i didnt realli copy la... but wrote in my own language. haha... as for mon's hrm test, oh oh...! i didnt attend. hahhaa... couldn't finish reading all de materials la! so mani... 5 topics covered and de damn bloody hell lecturer told us a test 1 wk ago. how2 prepare when i hav 2 other tests in de same wk? siao!!

lalalala.... todae is thurs.. can rest liao... pheeww... catch a breather. den this wkend wun be free either, coz havta help bake the cashew nuts and fry the cracker. oh me godness... still havta go NTUC to help buy those drinks and sweets! arghh... tough time! i still hav so much things haven study yet! cool cool... tis is onli mock... no sweat!! no sweat!! lolz...

relaxxx la!!! dun pressurize me. after quarreling wid mummy de other day, she actually stopped her naggings!! ww0o0o0o!! peace man! perhaps she really tot how stress and presurrized i was. it's true! tink of last yr, i didnt give a damn when it was mock. but now.. im freaking out!!! no time no time... (minus time set aside for entertainment e.g tv, movies, shopping, CNY, chit-chatting, do nth) hahaha... perhaps she noe i'm trying... hmm.... i dun wan anything to happen this yr. not when im tryin to study for my exams. choyy!!! touch wood...

hey girls! just ta-han this for say... another 5 mths, den we'll be able to enjoy k? Hong Kong? Taiwan? or Diving? hehehe... ^-^

oh ya! i forgot to tell u all... i went to mediacorp on monday lei!!!

hahahahaa... coz i happened to stay in sch to study, den saw ruiyi, she asked me, saying she has extra tickets to watch them record 'top fun' this chi variety show, wid mark lee and chen jianbin as the hosts. they're so funni, yet lame at de same time! muahahaa

den fish leong was also thr! free singing of 2 songs for us! hurrayyy!! den i also saw michelle xie yunyi! aiyoz.... so slim! w0o0o0o... and huang biren is damn tall lor... even when wearing sports shoes, she's still taller den michelle. hanor...

I'M SO TIRED!! for 3 executive days i've been in sch till 6pm. wah piangz...tis wk had been quite busy, attending lectures and consultation classes. tian ahhh...!

hmm... he msg me suddenli to clarify things wid me. i'm glad he did. coz previously our relationship had been quite messy and confusing. well... im feeling relieved. coz i noe thr's just sth wrong if he did realli felt de way he shldn't be feeling. hhahaa... but den, he's quite a nice guy la. so... still available for gals out thr..

i duno, hui said its quite sad. perhaps she's comparing me with dorris. well, maybe thr's always an exception to such relationships la. i noe he's nice, but we're just not meant to be, so nvm lor. hahha... not tt i've gave anything in this 'relationship'. so im not upset la.. yawnz...

lallalala... tml goin relc to pay sch fees. mummy was so shocked to noe my exam fees is 2 thousand plus. hahaha... okies! i'm determined to pass all my subjects. pls dun blame me la, failing econs last yr was an accident. i promised not to repeat de mistake. *failing doesn't make my life any easier also lor* duhzz...

happy 13th brithday aaron!
though i dislike this stupid boy having irritating me on many occasions, i still love him as a little bro!

hope he'll grow up to become a handsome and also, well behave guy.

noe wat? i was still checking on his homework, den he was yelling saying he'll noe wat to do, ask me stop bothering him. den i realised tt true enuff, he's alreadi in sec sch, i shld stop acting as though he's still in pri sch. ok! no strings attached! i'm not gona b kpo auntie and nag... ha!

=) happy 21st birthdae to hui!

wat a lazy afternoon... yawnz. i just woke up frm my afternoon nap. ha! fell asleep (or rather i just told myself to sleep) when reading my cbis notes. sianz. another test coming soon on 26th. arghh!! tis is 1 of the subjects i dislike, noe y? coz i just can't relate it. everything is in computing terms and its not tt easy as though they're gona ask u "wats a mouse?". duhzz....

snorez... i'll havta work doubly hard this yr. coz last yr, grampa's death came unexpectedly just a few wks before my exams. last minute cramming + his death wasn't easy for me to cope. so this yr, i'll just havta start revising earli, just in case u noe, well... just in case. (i'm keeping my fingers cross...)

tink i'll start making notes for cbis 1st (coz its de subject i tink is de toughest) den followed by AF (another tough subject for a simple brain like mine), den i can slowly revise my mkting and hrm. not tt i tink these 2 subjects are easy, but they're easier to relate to our daily lives in terms of its content, its more realistic, rather den tt dead cbis. arghh...

mock exams is coming in say...6 wks time. coz its startin at de end of feb... den in btw we have final revisions wid local lecturers and workshops. den the real terror begins ard end of may to starting of july. =(

(i absolutely hate exams...!)

ohh... yawnz.

fell sick on wednesday. my bodyached as though someone split it into 2... even had difficulty turning over when i was sleeping. haizz... went to see a doc, and the medicine made me groggy and dizzy. so fell into deep sleep for almost the whole day. so wat a perfect excuse to skip my cbis class again.. *oops...pls ignore tis * hahha!

hmm... todae is friday, wat have i done? err... read abit of mkting, was determined to do part of my assignment, but switched on the radio and thr i go, singing along. no work done... oops...! read abit of hrm but none went into my brain. tot tt wat i read frm de article kareem gave was absolutely rubbish! muahaha... okok, shall continue working on my assignment later.

tml is hui's bdae party in advance. lets wish her happy 21st birthdae!!! woww... tt sounds old doesn't it? hahah... mine whld b 11 mths later. lalalala...aaron's bdae is also de same as hui. he says he wan to have a bbq. wats de matter? he's onli 13th tis yr, and he wans to invite his frenz over. wats de big deal? cheyy!! i didnt buy him anything though.

he was tellin me in de face, "u betta buy me a billabong or OP pencil box..."
i replied "i have no $$ la... broke alreadi!"
he said "how can u have no $$ when u can buy ur frenz a bdae present?!"
and i argued "tts de reason i'm broke! after buyin her present i'm left wid less than $60 for de whole of january!"

faintz... he just doesnt understand. onli 13 wat?! wats de big deal... maybe i can psycho my mom to buy him tt instead. anyway, he got a new sony erricsson hp. tts more than anything else... dont u agree?? ha...

hmmm....i'm not thinkin of him anymore. coz yest i turned on the radio, and this gal wrote in and her story is similar to mine. so i guess we're just very gd frenz. which is also a gd news ya?? hmm....

i'm HUNGRY laa!!!!!!!!! but i have no appetite... -_-
after being sick, i've been eatin very little. as little as like 3 bread in a day... *faintz...* wat a perfect excuse to b on diet. ha... u see how long can tis go... u can predict. no longer than 1 wk! muahahaha...

ta...

my heart goes out to those who have died in the earthquake and sincereity to those families who have lost their loved ones. lets pray for them... hope they'll find a place in heaven. may them be blessed.

haizz... just a stupid earthquake is enuff to jolt the whole Asia, leaving hundered thousands dead and many missing. Reading the newspaper, its so heartwrenching to see pictures of children who were bloated with stomachs as they were drowned. others who dead have many others accompanying them, either siblings, parents, or close relative members. haizz

thank god! my elder bro was safe and sound. he went to india for volunteery work, he called back to report his safety.
he was just a few hrs at the scene to watch sunrise. luckily.... pheww...and also, i was wid my frenz 1 wk ago at batu ferringhi beach. thank god i wasn't at penang a wk later, if not... who noes wat will happen?? hmm....

haizz... i was just tinkin, if i'm workin, i'll definitely quit my job and take on the role as a volunteer. i'll go to indonesia, or sri lanka to help those needy. they realli need our help. pls... all the gods, regardless or race and language, let us all pray for a simple hope, for a better tomorrow.

hahha... merry christmas everyone!!

seriousli i had a gd luff over wat jin and dot wrote for my christmas testimonial. wat a joke.. im totalli speechless. muahahaha

dot gave me a love dice, and jin gave me a box of roche prestige choc.. yummy!!
while exchanging presents, i got a cute doggy pencil holder frm kaili.
santa also said he'll gimme a teddy bear tt looked like de forever frenz' bear (who's santa?? i shall not divulge as he doesn't wana be named)

lalallala...later we're goin for steamboat at Tian Tian steamboat near bugis area. gramma, dad, mom, aunt, me and aaron. w0o h0o0!!

okies, gtg now and shower. i'm goin to visit my ah ma, so long nv see her alreadi. hope she's well. see yas everybody!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! =P

is christmas tt merry?? hmm.. i don't noe. thr's sth going on in my mind but i cant explain it.

saw snr in sch todae. my heart stop pounding and my blood turned cold and freeze. hahha. dun get me wrong, not tt i was surprised to see him, but i was shocked. a rude shock u can imagine. we were tokin outside megabites when i accidentalli turn my head and found him standing 1M away, staring at me. *faintzz* freaky man!! i felt as though my heart found its way to my mouth for a moment. i didnt noe wat to do, but to blurt out a 'err...hi!' lolz. it was terrible. and also at de busstop, he was thr! sandy was asking me if he changed his specs, well, i guess so. but its non-of-my-biz. hahahhaa... scary lei.... he gives me creeps and jitters down my back.

neway, todae is christmas eve's eve. we all went swensens for ice cream and logcake. i tot i onli promised to treat them de logcake, yet i can't explain wat happen to de $$i got back. hhaha, but nvm la. was fun indeed!guys were tokin like young sch boys and de gals were yakking away like siao char bohs. muahahaa... onli me and ruiyi concentrated on the 'earthquake'. lolz....

after tt we went ktv at cuppage, while justin and shaf went to play pool. actualli wana join them, coz i noe aaron wasn't inteerested in singing, and i had no plans to sing either. but den i was told he can't go in, coz underage. so we joined de rest instead. i onli sang a few songs. though didnt realli had de chance to sing, but on the other hand, i also have no mood to sing. abit sianz la.hahha...

i can't understand myself. how come when ppl are noisy i'll be quiet. den when ppl are like dead fishes, i'll be like a mad woman wid so much energy tt i duno whr i can let it out. hahhaha... i duno wats wrong wid myself. i'm confused, its complicated. do i realli like him? or isit tt he's too nice so i'm moved and trying to reciprocate? haizz....i duno........ i duno....

*sighz* i'm really very confused and lost... i really wana clarify all the doubts tt has been in my mind. but yet im afraid tt after c;arifying those doubts, it may jeopardise our friendship. but yet i'm very troubled if i don't. somebody pls help!!! he's being too nice, i can't stand it. not tt i don't appreciate ppl being nice to me, but at least i noe their intentions. but tis time round, i don't!! seems to me he's treating me as a very gd fren, but yet in de eyes of other ppl, he's being more den just a fren. tian ahhh...... im going bonkas. dun like such feelings and making me guess. its not a game. neither isit as easy as ABC. arghh... i duno if i shld just tell him straight, coz i'm afraid he isn;t feeling the same way as i do. den wait i malu. heellpppp..............!!!

hello!! hahha.... came back frm penang not long ago. well, dun ask me how was the trip, coz it wasn't really tt enjoyable. haizz.... many things cock up along the way. i'm tired of explaining again. well, hopefully the stupid agency will give as a satisfied explanation of wats going on and apology if necessary, damn fucked up leh!!

anyway, christmas is coming!! tis saturday is christmas!! somehow im not feeling as enthusiastic as before. perhaps becoz grampa is no longer ard. the feeling is different, coz as long i can still remember, he was hospitalised during last yr's christmas. i also dun feel anything for the coming chinese new yr. nth matters anymore...haiz

yest went down to 'enjoy tour agency' to complain abt the trip! PLS PPL! DUN EVER JOIN "ENJOY TOUR AGENCY" coz they suck... or perhaps i tink so. tis is the very 1st time such things happen when i travel to m'sia lor. hahaha.... li juan's face was quite scary when she dun smile... haha, but tt was de effect we need, so as to scare the agency's manager. muahaha...
after tt we all head down to IMM's Long Beach Restaurant to have our dinner and also to celebrate Lynette's bdae. i also duno y i joined them. onli when i see de bill, i regret. hahaha... i mean $21 for such a sumptous dinner is worth it. but den hor, i ana save $$ lei. so after my dinner, came hm online and complain to june, andy and cliff abt me wanting to find a part time job. but they dun hav lobang wor... no $$ = no satisfaction i get frm spending. lolz.

yeah.... they asked me to join them tis sunday go sentosa! so happy! coz i didnt get de satisfaction frm penang's beach... coz we went thr in de nite. (ya la! in de nite, see wat?!!) well, hopefully tis sentosa trip will be a fun one. hahahahha....

haha... i'm so happy and tired at de same time. *yawnz..*

todae met up wid jin and we shopped at far east, she bough me a purple top. lolz... anyway, walked till very tired. den dot joined us for dinner at NYDC, de new open air one outside heeren. den after tt we shopped somemore. de food at NYDC was ok... but de cake i had was fabulous! YUMMY! *slup slupz...* hehhe...

had a happy birthdae, but soemhow couldn't help but feel older. *ouch!!* hhaha. many ppl msg me tis morning and even the afternoon, birthday wishes came flooding in. i'm happy my frenz remembered my bdae! thanx everyone! i realli appreciated it!

my bdae ended nicely.. but somehow, 'nicely' became not so nice. i duno how to describe. WM called me askin me whr i was, i told him i was on de mrt, on de way hm. den he said if he's not wrong my hse is a 2 story one. den meaning he's outside my hse!! hmmm.... den i went hm, he was pacing up and down... den i aske dhim wat he was doin thr, den he say wana pass me present. aiyoz... i was feeling happy of coz. but den come to tink of it. it did seemed tt our relationship is weird. he's treatin me far too nice... i felt uncomfortable. still not used to it. he shook my hand and wished me ahppy birthdae, before quickly leaving. he left me wondering wats tis all abt. y whld a normal yet gd fren give a present outside de hse? he waited approximately 30mins for me to be back. haizz... im confused.

wat a tiring day... but nevertheless im happy! =)

hahha, in just another 1 and a half hrs time, its gona be my birthday, my 20th bdae to be exact. oh... how fast time flies. i'm hitting the big '2' alreadi... hmm...

todae is realli 1 big tiring day! went for AF in the morning, den after tt hui, kaili and me went orchard. kaili gave me a soft toy cow.. how cute! hehhe... den hui told me she's sharing presents wid the rest of them, haha, so we 3 roamed orchard for the whole of the noon, trying to find sth i like. haha.. but in de end hui told me my present still seem to be under budget. well, nvm la... save the $$ and buy me a big present nxt yr. how bt tt?? hahhaa... so in de end i ended up wid a bag frm topshop which i like and also a sleeveless top from nike. its quite nice, considering tt nike now has a new range of soprts wear so colourful. it used to be a single colour.... lolz.

lalala... den after tt, june came and den we went out separate ways. so tired! i walked to crown prince hotel to meet up wid daddy, gramma and auntie, and had our dinner thr. so full!! we ordered many dishes coz its ala-cart buffet. haha.. den we had this new thingy dessert which i have nv tried b4. its actualli red bean soup wid durian!! at 1st it tasted weird. wat i meant was i'm here eating a red bean soup, but it ended up tasting like durian! hahha... but not bad la. still edible... lolz. den me and auntie ordered extra white fungus wid red dates. not bad... coz its cold, so tasted so cooling. can quench my thirst... hehhe....

so happy happi happy!!! =)

*i love my parents, brothers, 2grammas, family and my beloved frenz!!*
*HuGs*

hmm... yesterdae we ordered pizza and kfc delivery for our dinner. yummy! gramma paid for it.. haha, aunt said she'll celebrate for me in advance tis thursdae, coz she wun be free on fridae. nvm la... betta den nth. hahaha... lalala... so happy lei.

topae had mkting in de noon, tot it was quite interesting. weird thing is tt when i was hungry last wk, patricia kept showing me food video. and todae, when im dying of thirst, she kept showing me coca cola videos! hahaha... lalala. after tt i went for cbis consultation. hehe.. he also went. though we didnt tok at all, but de presence was felt. hehhe... im a tingtong....

hahhaa... just now kaili msg me askin if im goin for thurs morning or afternoon AF, coz she say she bought me a bdae present. wana pass to me. so if im goin for de noon class den she can onli give it to me nxt wk. so of coz i'll attend de morning class rite? muahaha... so happii!!!

oh well well... haven been writing anything on my blog, coz im too lazy to do so. hahha... well in a gd mood recently, coz aaron and mom are away to nepal for holiday and my elder bro just left to catch de plane to india tonite. i'll be missing them, coz no1 to quarrel wid me... hahha.

daddy and bro bought me an mp3 yesterday! its a light metallic blue creative muvo slim player.. tot it didnt look nice at 1st. but after a while, i've gotten quite used to it. lolz... but sometimes i still dun realli understand y thr iditna 'stop' button. hahha...

yesterdae woke up at 530am to send mummy and aaron to the airport. stupid lor... wanting to eat breakfast at macdonald's.. but den.. i just couldn't find it!! lolz... den in de end i bought a pkt of choc milk and drank it. den after tt me and alvin took a bus hm. reached hm at 830am, and fell asleep, coz buay than alreadi. was sleeping and dreaming away when i suddenly heard my 2nd aunt's voice.. haha, no wonder. coz she came and wana take gramma out for lunch. alvin had too many last min stuff to do, so couldn't join us. so in de end me, 2nd aunt, my gramma and de maid went to tampines mall's 'fei chiu xiao chu' which is part of the crystal jade's restaurant. i didnt noe how2 order, coz de maid was wid us, ordered some tim sum, which i tot carrot cake was simply just made of carrots, but i was wrong.. they had pork inside. den again, i ordered fried yam, and i realli tot it was just made of purely yam! but den again. thr was pork inside. haha.. so de maid ate a plate of fried beef noodles, which tasted quite gd. den after tt we went metro to shop shop. i bought a yellow top which says 'banana trader' and a light khaki green 3 quarters. haha.. and my 2nd aunt paid for it.. w0o0o....!! happy happy. tink the happiest was my maid. keep grinning frm ear to ear like an idiot. hahahha... coz my 2nd aunt bought her a 'the incredibles' top from bossini, she choose de pink top herself. haha... den i also bought daddy 2 polo collar shirts, sort of a belated bdae gift. and also so tt he could wear them to work. hehhe... after tt when my 2nd aunt was away buying some food to ta bao hm, i went to buy ice cream for my maid. she was so happy... hmm... easily satisfied. true la, coz seldom she can get out of de hse also. lalalala... was a happy day!

hmm... nowadays like keep going out wid de new found grp of frenz. hahha... quite a nice grp, be it ladies or de guys. they're quite fun to be around with. hahha.

oh btw, i also cut my hair. tink it makes me look 10 yrs older!!! eekks!!! im gona cut my hair, so tt wid it being shorter i'll look younger. hahaha.... but waste $$ again... sianz.. =(

yeaaa... yippee~!!!! my bdae is coming... but den hor, my brothers and mom wun be ard to celebrate for me, though they have given me my advance bdae presents. hmm... de hse it very quiet now. only de sound of de computer generator, the fan and de sound of me typing on the keyboard... but anyway, nvm. coz youngest aunt said we'll all go out and have steamboat on my bdae.. hurray!!! and also... i'll be going for a short holiday at penang wid kaili, sandy and her frenz. lalallaa... looking forward to it man! hehhe... i'm too, grinning frm ear to ear like an idiot. haha..

wat a day.... haha! 1 hr and 26 mins ago was still dot's bdae, and now its jin's. hahha... we had a gd time together this evening.

1st jin and i met up to watch Shutter. oh manz... its quite scary, had a fun time screamin away... muahaha... it's a nice show. hhehe

nxt we met up wid dot and proceeded to Petals whr we had our dinner. de service was quite gd and de ambience is nice! but thescenery wasn't tt nice, was it was at de side of the building, so looking ouyt of de window u can see de road and cars. hahah!! we ate, and ate and ate!!! i had a bun wid butter, den followed by mushroom soup... hmm.. yummy! de waiter suggested a cocktail called 'Grasshopper'. indeed it was green in colour, but after a few mouthfuls, it taste damn yucky!! but de lychee cum orange cocktail i ordered was nice!!

and den we had steak, which was de main course. and half way thru de steak i was so bloated alreadi... but didnt wan them to waste de $$, so i finish everything. de steak came wid a side portion of salad, which was quite nice, coz i didnt feel tt i was eating grass... lolz. den we had dessert which we can choose a variety of cakes or ice cream. i asked for a candle, den so funni, de waiter keep popping out beside jin, and coz she chldn't see him frm behind, she was shocked whenever tt waiter pop out frm no whr. hahaha... den they arranged to sing a birthday song for dot... which i tot they were quite listless, and jinb & i were busyin clickin on de camera. hahaha

i had a brownie, jin had rasin and rhum cake and dot had ice cream, but she was given a raspberry cake which was on-de-hse. but in de end, half of it ended up in jin's stomach. muahaha!! so full! lalalla... wonder if i'll get a diarrheoa tonite frm all tt eating!! haha... so mani diff juices flowing in my stomach now. tea, cocktail, mushroom soup, water... oh!!!

fun, fun, we had fun tonite!!! =)
*but den hor, jin & dot is 20 now... aaeuww... another yr older*

TA DAA!!!!!!!!! looks who's back?? ----> emily the lazy girl. hahha... dun be like tt la, i do admit i've been lazy, slackin ard. too lazy to update my blog.

well, last tues mkting class bump rite into jh, de last person on earth i'll like to see appearing infront of me. lolz... it was really accidental, and a damn irritating encounter! kaili and sandy had a great luff over it. stop luffin!!! aint funni ya noe...? spare me.... =(

hahaha.... den had a great long wkend. mostly stayin at hm and sleep. so shiok, but kana many complains. haha.. every1 dun understand how come i can sleep so much. esp gramma, i told her 12 hrs per day is the MINIMUM i need. hahha.. wat rubbish! went swimming wid aaron during the public holidae. haha, stupid boy keep wanting to time me using the stopwatch. so poor me... swimming and struggling to keep up. muahaha!!

went to az's hse on sundae, hair raya. me, aaron, william, satiish and yun zhi had our lunch thr. de food was not bad, but i didnt eat much, coz eating chilli stuff will make me pespire. so u can imagine me tryin to eat while.... hahha! but was nice la! den had ice cream after tt too... speaking of ice cream... yummm... feel like having 1 now too!! =)

nowadays keep raining hor? wat to do?? hmm... lazy emily also dun like to bring an umbrella ard, even though her mummy bought a light weight small umbrella for her convenience sake. hahaha...

i've been tryin very hard to control my expenses! but thr are just so many things i wana buy! like an mp3 player (btw creative gona hav sale btw de 19th to 21st---> take note girls!!), new pair of jeans, cut my hair... buy a watch. so many things!! wah piangz eh...whr to find $$$?? who wana sponser me??? hahahaha... must wait for my bdae, den $$ and presents will start to roll in. oops..!! did i just say tt out loud?? pls forgive me... *devilish grinz*

haizz... tink i haven been in a very gd temper these few days. haizz

on wed, a guy who sat infront of us turned ard and stared hard at sharon and joyce and said 'can u pls pay attention and listen to de lecture?!' woahh... so darn fierce sia!!though he didnt stare at me, somehow i still think he included me wid them, coz we're always together for cbis class. but de prob is we weren't tokin so loud, just once a while askin each other wat de lec wrote or said. and im must say, i'm NOT de 1 who always tok lor... den after class i went down to help them sign attendence when i came back, sharon told me de guy said 2 them 'no offense, but it has been weeks that u all have been tokin' wah lao.. damn fucking shitty arsehole!! pls lor....!! eveb if we did, he could rephrase it in a nicer way rite? y must he tell us in de middle of de lecture, and worse still, he was loud!!! kns kns... damnit fucker!!

haizz... i just quarrelled wid gramma. i mean, i was unhappy wid aaron actually. i mean since he had alreadi recovered frm his fever, den he can eat rice rite? y did gramma tell him he may not like de dishes cooked, so asked him wat he wana eat? i mean y all of de trouble when he has alreadi recovered?! den now she pushed all de blame onto me, sayin ask me 2 buy a pkt of mee also so diff, nxt time if she's de1 who wana eat de mee ........
i mean come on lor, even daddy ask aaron to eat de rice, so y must she tell him out of concern tt he may not like de dishes cooked for lunch!?!? aaron hasn't even seen wat de maid cooked. gramma always complain abt de maid and aaron. i always felt tt she doesn't act de same way as wat she has said! no logic at all!!! she always complain aaron being so rude and naughty, and yet when i or my parents were scolding or wacking him, she'll say we're so noisy, always make so much noise! no link lor... we scold him, she say we're noisy, we hit him, she'll ask us not to hit his head, not to hit his body, just hit hands or butt... wah lao!! den y don't she b de1 hitting or scolding aaron instead?? wat i meant was tt since she was de1 complaining everything, so we act according to her wishes, and when we did, she'll say something else. meaning = niu tou bu dui mah zui!!! understand?? and i explained to her y i was so pissed, but she kept insisting it was my fault, fine den... she's de1 who said everything, she's de1 who complain. everything comes frm her lor....i wanted to explain y ppl are doin this... its actualli coz she's de eldest in de family now, since grampa is gone... tts y OUT OF RESPECT, we don't argue back... but wat i tink is tt she's taking it for granted and always thinkin tt she's rite!!! i dun deny tt sometimes im in de wrong.. but den she also has to shoulder some of de blame also rite??! esp when aaron is realli so incorrigible... if we dun teach him a lesson, he say we're in favour of him. when we teach him a lesson, she say we're noisy and she'll interfer. i mean... don't u tink tt its so difficult trying to please her?? haizz... i realli duno at2 do. even daddy also sometimes is sandwiched inbetween. coz afterall she's his mom, how can be so rude and yell back? but den, thr's always a limit to one's patience lor...

haizzzz.... haizz....i wonder wat grampa thinks....

YIIII HAA!!!

lolz... guess wat i bought todae? ouuhh.... i myself too, was surprised! haha.. i bought a bikini la... its blue wid pokadots, and red outline. lolz... quite nice actualli.... hahaha!! was at 1st so embarrassed. den until hui kept pursuading me. den i guessed thr was no harm trying. lolz... im s0o0o happy!!! yeahh...

neway, i saw jh on tues during mkting class. he saw me right in de eye, but den he seemed to not recognise me. weird lei.... or maybe he's pretending not to noe i was in de same class as him, as i was pretending too! hahaha....w0o hoo..!

lalallaa....tink hor, must cut down abit on my eating habits... and also exercise more hor? if not like so fat wearing tt... hhmm.... tummy so buldging also. hahahahhaa!!

well well... today's a day to celebrate for 3 ppl. it's william's, yiling's and gramma's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! william msg back sayin this is his happiest birthday..wonder wat tt means. but i didnt msg back.

neway, yest is quite a day for me. i was left in such a foul mood. coz i quarrelled wid andy. he la... so kns. i felt so offended over what he said, but he argued tt that wasn't wat he meant. he said i was beoing oversensitive. so fine, i post the same qns to sweeyee and jin, and told them wat he said. they were also offended. but anyway, he said its a misunderstanding. but i was tinkin this all happened coz of him wat. so shldn't he apologise?? sayin 'sorrie' won't hurt lor... but sometimes i tink guys are such thin-skinned creatures tt having to apologise is like wanting their lives. i was so fuming mad at him.. so he asked how isit den i'll not get upset. so i guess he'll havta b more tactful in de future. lolz... his shlder was hurting more this morning. and i felt quite guilty over wat i said yesterdae. i said served him rite for having a dislocated shlder. but he doesn't seem to have a temper. but still, he's de1 at fault... hmnph! but i tink sometimes i'm just too soft. i duno... he doesn't seem to realise when he is stepping on my tail. hahha...but my anger whld be quickly forgotten if de person apologise. but den....

lallala... im so darn full frm de bowl of porridge. later we're gona cut de cake, and in de nite, we're going to a cantonese restaurant near chinatown for dinner. =) nadya and talma are here alreadi... ciao!!

happi 20th birthday junyi!!

hmm... seems like andy really got his forecut a cut... he told me he came out of the lecture wid blood oozing at de wound. so bad.... he was asking if disfigure den nxt time how to find himself a bride? den must buy liaoz... den duno ask me wat. so weird. haha.. but he's a guy mah, so i guess tts not so bad. as for me, a pimple on my face will alreadi leave me screaming into the mirror. a scar on my face will make me cry i tink. lolz... hope he get well soon la. as for the dislocated shlder... abit jialat. duno if he still can write. if can't duno wat to do...luckily we're not having exams now. hmm...i was asking him how he fell, nxt time must show me. hahahhaa...coz de steps in our LT aren't so steep. so i really have no idea how he got a cut like this. poor thing....
andy da ge! must get well soon hor... ^-^ lolz... i wonder how he'll react if i go press his shlder now. hahhahaa... so mean!!!

lalallaa... i just came back frm playing tennis. de floor was so damn wet and i was rolling the floor when i discovered a dead dragon fly! eeekkks!! so disgusting! den coz de floor was wet, i scared wait later i fall again. dun wana tis 2 happen again. hhaha... if not i can go partner wid andy liaoz... one arm dislocated, another 1 wid a sprained ankle. lolz... but the weather is quite nice these few days (i'm tokin abt de temperature). rainy days are gd for sleepin in bed *don't u agree wid me?? =P ) yawnzz.... im getting lazier... o_O *since when emily is not lazy?!* muahahaha...

i was telling mummy abt andy, though i didn't divulge his name. coz i found it very amusing. den suddenly she shot me a qns, asking if i have any suitors. euuuww... gimme a break. i'm onli 20 tis yr. hav plenty of time & opportunities la. hehhehe...coz i DO have suitors. but sadly, non of them are my type. so.... wat for force myself to like someone just to get into a relationship? hahah... den i told her, hav la. i've got jin for myself. she's be my wife. den mummy was like 'cheyy!' and she started luffing. btw, jin, my mum tot ur attached leh, den i said who?? me isit? lolz... so funny. BGR = so troublesome. =(

aiyoz... andy just msg me sayin he fell infront of his class and he has cut his head and got a dislocated shoulder... sounds very bad, he say he can't write for months lei. how how? i wanted to call him and ask, but den duno isit he bluffing me, so i didnt. if its real, den very jialat lei... poor thing...

todae is friday, dun hav class, so slept till 2.30pm. so tired... this sat is junyi's bdae, den sundae is william's and my gramma's! hehhe.. so many ppl having bdaes... so on sundae we're goin to hav porridge for lunch, den at nite goin restuarant. yummmy!!

this wk... hmm... hav another assignment. mkting hav essay to do. den cbis mr chan told us we're gona hav a ssignment soon and also a test!! eeekss... jialat. i haven been able to make a head or tail frm his lecture and now he is goin to give us a test! shiet manz.... must buck up!!

yest me sandy and kaili went chinatown to search for agencies... but so many of them told us they're fully booked. aiyoz... so kaili ask her aunt, who's stayin at KL to help us look for cheap available hotels... den we can make our own arrangements vis coach to KL and genting. mummy said its been a long time since i've been to genting. last trip thr was when i was very young. den gd la... can enjoy again. hahha... but hopefully it wun be tt expensive.. coz i wana join them to taiwan nxt yr. but its so ex.. more ex den goin to HK lei~~!! haizz... den mummy told aaron she may bring him to egypt! *faintz..* egypt has been my 1st destination.. i'm just so fascinated by it! all those mummies and pyramids.. euuw... so awesome!! can't believe... i wana go thr!~!

so bored... sometimes i feel myself slackin away... but very sianz lei.. duno wana do wat. feel so lost! hmm... i wana fly... fly away to a far far island.... =(

haiya! im so lazy.... hahahha

im still doubtful over S's relationship wid her new found bf. i mean, its not tt i'm jealous.. i'm just envious. but den again, they hav onli knew each other for less than 3wks!!! yess!!... and they're considering themselves in a relationship. and K had even brought S to his home for lunch to meet his parents also. weird lei... i realli dun understand. or perhaps is tis wat u call de power of LOVE?? hmmm.... i was askin her wats de rush, she said she herself also not sure. hahha... hope everything turns out fine for both of them.

can sth like tis happen on me? hmm... not sure either. its weird... yet...it sounds abit like a fairytale doesn't it?? ha....

okies, i went to visit de doc on wed after sandy and kaili persuaded me. coz de wound was gettin bad. its painful and dry, i can even talk or eat properli, coz i had difficulties opening my mouth. so i decided to pay de doc a visit. and thankfully... de cream he prescribed was gd. and de wound healed in no time. it was so much betta den in de last few wks. my nitemare will soon be gone! and i can start to talk again... as usual. hahha.. and not shy away and keep quiet coz i hate it when ppl start to stare at my mouth when i speak!! HORRIBLLEEE!!!!!!!!!! arghh

haaha... yeah yeah.. yippee... tml i'm goin to watch MAMMA MIA wid mummy and aunt alice they all. quite excited.... hahha. and den... maybe goin to sentosa on sunday... yeaahhh!!

den again, we're just planning to go m'sia during de 5 days holi... whr to??! KL? malacca? penang? haiyoz... spend $$ again.. no $$ ah!!

Happy 20th birthday Liling!!! lolz....

well, i caught 2 movies in just 2 days, 1 per day. hahha.... yest i went tampines to watch Wimbledon.. cool man!! hahha... i was again motivated to continue playing teninis again. but anyway, aunt alice and i are on bet, coz she wana make sure i live up to my promise to play tennis this coming wkend.. haha... have stopped quite sometimes already. the show was quite exciting coz even in de back rows ppl were yelling for the ball to be hit over de net.. cool!

den todae after sch, i met aaron to watch jackie chan's new show... wooahh!! powerful manz! i tink this is de 1st jackie chan's show tt has shown him as a failure cop 1st, befor surviving de ordeal and be promoted. haha.. de plot was alrite, and acting was all fine. a few crappy and funny scenes and also sad scenes...

lalallaa.... my wound is still healing.. haizz... still visible!! snorezz...jialat sia... tink so long alreadi, its still here, hope tt it'll quickly heal. hahaha...

hahaha, its been sometime since i written anything here. so tired!! and quite sick... i'm well now, except for de ulcer on my gum *PAINFUL!!!* lolz.... tt serves me rite for eating too much chocolate. hahaha.... den ok, let me update u guys wats been happening all this wk.

well, mondae was as boring as ever, thr hrm lecture is really getting on my nerves... i can't relate to what he is teaching!! i keep frowning at him, and my addignment essay is due, haven finish yet. lolz... nxt mondae den i hand in la, heck care.. betta late den nv rite? muahaha. den went to city hall wid sandy to accompany her to de minolta shop. coz her cam hav prob, den i also went to pharmacy to get my scar cream... haizz... =(

ok, den i was a little fereish on mondae nite after taking a nap in de noon... den my throat was so dry and itchy tt i kept coughing... and also, half of de time my nose whld be blocked, either tt, it'll be watery.. *sniff sniff* so i gave de excuse im tired and sick, so i skipped sch on tuesdae.. muahaha... but i was really sick okie?...drank so much liquid at hm, coz gramma cook some sweet chi thingy to smoothen my throat, daddy also has de same prob as me, and he still dare to wallop nearli de whole pkt of deep fried crunchy stuff wid peanuts... tsk tsk tsk...

haha... den wed i had my cbis, this is much betta den hrm, but still, this subject is too dry...all computer stuff.. abit boring mah....also attended econs... haha... and i realised tt thr are more gals den guys.. hahhaa, den hui told amanda i like Mr E, den she told hui his character not very gd la.. *watever... i didnt say i wana marry him rite??*

den todae is thursday!!! hurray!!! yippeee!!!!!!!!!! coz its LONG WEEKEND!! lolz... sandy, kaili & i went BK this afternoon after class to hav our lunch and we did our AF tutorial thr.. not bad, i learnt quite alot of things coz hav sandy to teach me... but i tink she nearli went bonkas over wid my persistant arguing and qns to bombard her. muahaha.. den hui didnt come wid us, tt gal, hmph! afterall she was de 1 to suggest go and study. but anyway, BK at holland V was too noisy, coz nxt door was doing some renovation... arghh...

but nevertheless, im still in gd spirits todae!! hahaha... who can resist long weekends? can slack and enjoy abit, though havta keep up my 'hardworkingness' hahah...den must also read up more, coz i didnt atten mkting, so lagged behind so much!! study study study...

tml is aaron's last paper, wish him all de best la... hope he'll do well... den he can enjoy.. sooo0o0o0o gdd.... *ahh!! den he'll be such a pest at hm.. oh man...hahaha...*

oh.. yummy! i'm eating chocolate now... just now i ate Lays.. tink i'm gona have a sorethroat soon. lolz... (jin & dot always can't wait for me to have a sorethroat, coz they say i sound betta wid a lower pitch voice ----> meaning they find my voice now alittle irritable. muahahha!)

snorez... today is mooncake festival... at 1st tot i can go out wid aaron to play wid sparklers. BUT.. he has to study for his exams. haizzz..... so i'm at hm now slackin again. wat a waste! others seem busy and even hui, who's stayin de nearest to me, wasn't feeling well. haizz....

today had mkting lecture... i purposely asked sandy to sit on the left side of de lecture class, coz usualli jh will sit on de rite, wat de hell, he again appeared sitting just 1 row behind me! wat is he doing!!? he just wana torture me isit? i just pretend i didnt see him again. i realli buay tahan him! i tink he has seen me, of coz i seem to b sitting just 1 row of him everytime. can't he just let me off by sitting somewhr else?! nxt time i'll sit at de back of de class, see how he wana sit... kns kns kns!!!!! arrghhh....... (i'm ready to bite! BEWARE...!)

watched Extreme Gourmet on tv just now.. uewww..... they were eating goat's eye balls!!! yiicckkss!!!! damn disgusting..... yucks.... daddy said they shld cook it a little longer, but doesn't tt makes de ball even tougher? den they had maggot fried rice for dinner... but this doesnt sound as bad as the goat's eye balls... eewwww....! hahha.. i've tried fried scorpions when i was in china not bad lei, crunchy, no special taste at all...

lolz.... hui said she had a nitemare, dreamt or Mr E tt nite, after i was happily yakking abt him. she said she dreamt tt he keep insisting tt she's de one who likes him. lolz... she said i ran off, leaving her alone to deal wid him. muahaha... so funny~! can't believed she even dreamt of him... so far, dun tink i have...we went to parkway lib on mon after i had my hrm lecture..haiz... have to work on my 1st assignment liao... *sianz!* den we keep yakking, though we did study la. but coz we weren't having exams, so can still relax abit. hahha....

happy mooncake festival !! =)

hahha.. im so boh liao.. went to read other ppl's blog, den saw tis quiz thingy frm nu's blog. here it goes..... dun luff k?!! =P

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Flirting Skill Level - 89%
Kissing Skill Level - 1%
Cudding Skill Level - 99%
Sex Skill Level - 85%
Why They Love You	You have a way with words.
Why They Hate You	You are too sexy.
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well, 1 thing for sure, i didn't noe im so damn gd at cuddling, stop luffing will u?? and also, i tink sometimes unconsciously i'll flirt wid guys.. and for tt, i scored quite high for tis section too! haha.. last 1, im not bad at sex also... woahh... *watch out guys!!* muahaha... eh, but bad at kissing.. hmm... nvm la... wid fantastic sex, guys wun care how well i kiss rite? *breaks into fits of laughter*

shiet! it was a waste of my time being thr, de guy who was explaining to us tok non-stop.... and also, hc yak and yak non stop.. buay tahan! so noisy, and i was suffering from a headache from all tt toking... haiyo! luckily after tt we went Sushi Tei for dinner... phew.. but den, it was nitenare for jin and i! she toked so loudly and also, laughed so loud, jin and i were so embarrassed.... but de food weas gd, so i sort of put everything behind me. when we were thr, jin and i were quite suprised to see so many guys and few gals. i was looking ard, when jin asked me wat i was looking.. hahah *guys la.. wat else?* lallala... den met up wid these 2 guys - kenny and andrew, who were both previously from sr. kenny is from dance team la.. not bad looking. hahah... but abit skinny...

tink if i were to wana work part time, havat find some1 else.. sheesh.. my hopes were dashed. so must find another part time job to pay for my diving. ok la.... i tink i'm gona join dennis.. lolz. he said i shldn't stop just at basic. i noe tt! neither do i wish... but its quite ex lei... i'm broke... lolz

yest we ate thai food, todae ate jap food... wonder wats nxt. hahah... tml we're celebrating mooncake festival... so tml's dinner shld be nice! hahaha.... =)

was talking to shir and jin last nite, had a fun time! den coz we were down at esplanade, thr were so mani couples... and i didnt noe y it made me sigh... den jin was asking me if cupids were blind, im not sure lei.. though i noe love IS blind. hahha... i was telling her perhaps our cupids' wings are damaged from too much flying abt. or else, thr aint enuff cupids ard in heaven. haizz.... and when i passby those bridal or ring shops, i'll take a look at them. so pretty to be wearin a bridal dress! lolz... we were sayin nxt time we wana b bridesmaid. den can help to hold de bride's dress... but this depends on who is gettin married, and provided we ourselves dun get married b4 others do. (do u tink tis will happen??) =(

weird.... yesterdae i've received a msg from hui chin, she's telling me she wants to share a job opportunity with me. de weird thing is i'm not even close to her. when asked wats the job abt, she can't ecven reply me straight to the pt. so i asked her den y did u asked me of all ur frenz? and she replied sayin coz she tot of me (sounds a little lesbo) and also, she tot i've got the potential. *potential to do wat??* weird... so i'll be going to her office for this sort of interview wid jin accompanying me. hahha... coz she told me its a part time job and the hrs are very flexible! and she also mentioned tt thr are a few ex-srjcians working thr too, and she'll egt 1 of them to explain it to me. hahha... hope thr are guys in de office wor... lolz

tokin abt guys, haven seen Mr E this wk in sch... how disappointing *have i mention this b4??* hahha...ok... time to get ready and meet her at raffles mrt. hope this won't be a waste of my time. coz she promised its gona b all worth it *sounds too gd to be true...*.

i'll come hm and update wats this job all abt... see ya! ta.... =P

hahha, emily's been a kpo gal. i was just reading wj's blog.. i'm just curious k.... coz i was wondering wat really happened btw he and pj. tts y.. i took a peep. lolz...

well, the 2nd wk of sch certainly passed very quickly. been twice to gym this wk, and today's only friday. hahah.. and i've been to cine 3 times this wk alreadi. aiyoz... caught Les Chorites (how do u spell it??) on monday wid jin after our gym session. This movie was so nice! i tink it was worth the $6.50 i paid. its a story, based on the teeacher's pt of view when he was posted to this boy's sch, full of problems. but he did managed to earn the respect of these boys. and the music he taught them to sing was nice! hahha... *go catch it if u have not*

den on tuesdae, kaili and sandy saved me a seat by the aisle, but i didnt like to sit by de side, so i shifted in. Very much to my horror! jh was just a row behind me. alamak! BIG MISTAKE!! i nearly fainted.. shiet! sandy saw him smiling to himself... but i wasn't sure if he saw me, coz when i walked into de lecture, he just nice took of his specs... *hope he didnt see me*. its so troublesome and tiring to having to stay away from him. coz i'm just afriad tt he might sit nxt to me during lectures (and for the rest of the yr!!) my godness me....sandy had a gd time teasing me abt jh. wah lao eh.... pls dun ever mention this guy infront of me... he gives me creeps. not tt he is tt scary... but i can't help feeling tt way. well, jus take it im abnormal or rather I'M SPECIAL (as i've told andy) hahha....

jin and i are gona meet shirley out for dinner at esplanade tonite. we're going to duno thai express or simply thai... hahha. its been a while since we went thr. confirm thr many couples hor?? oh and btw, i haven see Mr E this whole week! hmm.... wonder wat hapened to him. too bad i dun have any classes tts de same as him. but 1 thing kept me happy this wk was tt hui told june tt i like him. den she said tt we looked compatible (looks, size and hobby wise). muahaha... she made me so0o0o happy! yippee!! i've told every1 tt of coz my taste will make me like some1 tt i find suitable to match me mah. i will not go for a bamboo sticko guy. andy keeps insisting i'm so deep in love wid him. maybe la... or watever. u can't believe if i tell u tis ---> actually i've noticed him from de very 1st day of class. lolz... at least i have some sort of motivation to go to sch, or else i'll fall asleep. but too bad thr aint guys like him in any of my classes. or perhaps i haven seen all of them. hahahha.... so funni! =)

haiz... i also duno wats wrong wid me. andy accidentally stepped on my tail widout realising he did it... i dun blame him, yet i can be irritated easily when he make silly jokes sometimes. aiya! duno la.. den just as my mood was swinging, i find myself being anti guys again. tink its becoz im comparing guys wid HIM again... i noe i shldn't do tt, but sometimes it just comes naturally to compare other guys to him. to me, he's a very gd fren, a sensitive guy, whom no one could ever replace HIM in my heart. this HIM, is some1 whom i known for many yrs, we had quite a few similarites. when tokin to jin, we both agreed tt he's de BEST of guys we've come across. HE is some1 whom i've come to know, but yet, i've missed to catch him. he IS a gd catch, and a very gd one. but unfortunately, he isin't The One for me. so sadly... i duno wat 2 say. i do cherish our friendship, though sometimes i kept tinking of the past. how things will change if we're realli together? frenz told me tt i've missed de opportunity to catch him, he was just within my grasp. so near...yet so far.... perhaps we're just not fated to be together, but just to remain as frenz. but being just frens, i'm really blessed and feel very lucky and fortunate in having to find him among de many ppl i've came to know. HE just simply stood out in the crowd, simply, by just being HIM.

HE is the one (so far) tt i felt differences btw us werent important. i fell hard, when he doesnt reciprocate how i felt for him yrs ago. but nvm, it was many yrs ago....it doesnt change for how i felt for him. a fren may he be, but he is one who has found a place in my heart. i thank god for letting us meet.
=)

ouch ouch! my shlders are lobster red now! so painful... hahha! i just went to wild wild wet (WWW) todae! hahha... its was quite fun, though only a few rides... but i enjoyed it, coz i had a tan..but not a very nice one, coz of de 2cm mark i hav on my left arm. it was thr coz i had to put de sticker ard my wrist coz we rented de tube.. =( so de tan on my left arm is sort of uneven... *shiet!*

anyway, we went thr too earli, it starts at 1pm, but were were thr at 1045am! haha, so hui, kaili and i sat at BK and chit chat. so when de time was up, we went in, onli to find out thr is tis bug grp of guys standing outside WWW's entrance. aiyoz.. duno isit army have free entrance fee for them or they're havin an army outing. tink have ard 50 of them! hahha...*i saw a few not bad looking ones* hahha... den i sat on de tube at de wave pool, when i nearli bumped into him. lolz... hui saw him, den she immediately told me "hey! ur type lei.. big size one" hahhaha... but he's not as big as Mr E la...

these guys are so crazy, when playing de dark hole, those few infront of us scream and shouted so loudly when they're in de tunnel... crazy! making every1 behind them luffing at their sillyness. guys these days... aiyo! lolz...

i bought a bottle of banana boat sun tan oil, but not sure if i've made a mistake of choosing de1 widout SPF. aiyoz... hope my skin will be protected against UV rays...

wonder how im gona sleep tonite... its painful and hot at de back of my shoulders... ouch!

woww... de 1st few days of my yr2 was like woahh... i was late for sch on monday, coz the bus stop at clementi was crowded wid students, duno from nyp or sim. i wasited for 3 to 4 buses b4 actually boarding 1. hahha...tml's thursday and i'll b havin my AF.

i saw Mr E on tuesdae, after lamenting how cum i haven seen him ard in sch. den sandy joked tt he has quit sch.. lolz. well, just as i was tinkin abt tt, he appeared infront of me.. hahhaa! i duno.. i just feel happy when i see him. andy said im madly in love.. sounds abit crazy. but cant blame me la.. haven seen him during the 3 mths long holidae. wonder how he did for his exams... so far, i dun hav any classes wid him. Hui told me tt he and 'mini-eyes' were in de same mkting class as her.. so gd.... dun tink i can change my class, coz it clashes... tokin abt mkting class, i had a hard time avoiding jh. he still duno tt im in de same class as him. sadny kept teasin tt he's alone. wat has tt gota do wid me?! hahha... im just afraid tt he'll sit wid us when he noes tt im thr, esp when he's alone for de lecture! yikes!!.... haha... den blur kaili accidentally flung her shoe hp pouch into the garbage bag. den she went to dig it out, and it was dripping wet wid milk tea! muahaha... sandy and i were luffin so hard tt every1 else were lookin at us. it was damn disgusting man....

hmm.... not sure if its a mistake to take cbis, coz u noe computer stuff is not my cup of tea. den i duno wats de lecturer tokin also... i must thank my lucky stars... haha, coz joyce and sharon are in the same class! pheww... meaning i'll hav company nxt time. hahha, den i icq simon just now, askin him if was in tt class. so he said nxt time we could sit together.. not a bad idea, afterall, guys are betta at such subjects rite? haha, can ask him if i've got any qns nxt time. hmmm... den we went to megabites to have our lunch.. and guess wat?! i saw Mr E again. muahahha.... he was at the both outside, tink odac havin activities again. tokin abt him, i saw his friendster pic wid tis gal again! haiyoz... *wonders if he's attached*

aaron kana wack my daddy tis afternoon, till de cane broke... coz he came home late frm sch after his prelim. den he didnt even call to say he'll be back late. worse, mummy was on half day leave, went to sch to fetch him, but couldn't find him. oops... so de anger was accumulated from last time... and aaron's so suay, coz he just lost his wallet (again!) yesterday... bad luck!....

im now havin classes from mon to thurs, tink im still not havin myself adjusted to this new routine. coz when back from sch, i'm like a dead pig, i need to sleep! hhaha.. den no energy to go gym and exercise! haiyoz... (thr goes my $$...) anyway, i tink thr goes my chance of going to tioman for my advance dive.. coz just quarrelled wid mummy, it was abt my sch stuff. she keep sayin wat wait i dun study i'll fail all my yr2 subjects... how can she say tt? as though im happy to be failing...always comparing me wid others...hmnph! she even ask me switch off de tv..stop me frm watchin. how can....!?

so angry... haizz....andy asked how cum nowadays i seemed to be angry wid every1. maybe im stressed la.. sorrie.... so have mood swings more often. im determined to prove tt i can do well k. i can create miracles...thr's nth i can't achieve if i WANT to...im gona prove to her, everyone else, to myself, and also to grampa. i CAN!! i believe tt was just a minor hiccup, im not just gona fall behind coz of this hiccup...i'll recover and show them wat im capable of. den grampa wun b worried abt me.. he can at least rest in peace. shiet! tokin abt grampa im all sad again.... im STRONG.

nowadays i hav less time and energy to tink of grampa (unlike when i was working). but of coz i still see him everydae, coz of de photo i put on my dressing table.. *i miss him SO much!* okok... im fine. im learning how to cope wid my feelings...though sometimes i feel myself choked wid emotions...and i just havta swallow it back....

okies time to sleep! tml havta wake up at 6.45am *AGAIN!!*... so tt i can at least take a bus instead of mrt.. hahha...(tis morning i saw a Mr E look alike on mrt).. *wink*... hahhaa... =)

phew.. luckily i'm still alive to tell all of u abt it. just now i came home on a motorbike. yap, u heard me.. motorbike! coz we went out to have dinner, den agnes was riding her bike. i tell u, i got a shock when her bike fell at the car park. duno isit her skill not up to standard or i'm too heavy. coz we were goin up tis slope, so maybe she's not used to it. hahha....coz its a bike, so diff from car. while she tot she's ok wid the speed, i tot it was a little fast. maybe coz of de wind, i'm not sure. hahah... noe wat?! i was so terrified tt i grabbed onto de bar at the back of the seat. hence, my hands and legs were numbed, coz i grabbed to tight and plus the vibrations of the motor, worse! hahha...

but it was quite an experience i had. Emily's 1st time on a motorbike! yippy!! =)

oh ya... today's andy's last day at DBS. haha... wonder how's his application to work thr part-time. hahha... yest i joked wid him, asked him to buy either Joyce or Godiva, den shld buy it either on sunday or mon and keep it in the fridge. den he asked me y so late since todae's his last day. so i said bring it to sch on tuesdae, coz its for me. hahha! so funni....

hahha.. im meeting, jun long, miao qi, jasmine and agnes later for dinner at Bakerzin! yeah.. yummy yum yum! lolz... we're the saxaphone section. hahah... too bad a few ppl are missing. ppl like zong ren.. haiz, ever since graduation haven seen him. he seems to be MIA. wonder wats he doing now. perhaps he has even got himself a gf. den his gf must be some1 who can tie him down. haha.. coz tis guy here has eyes for chio bus... his eye is ever roaming... lolz. den deepak.. hmmm... aiya, duno wana ask him. coz his hair is still like Einstein. tink ppl will stare at his bee-hive-style hair. hahha.... we had a gd luff when he came for the christmas bbq last yr. muahaha... tink barbers will have a hard time trimming his hair. i don't tink he go for a haircut lei... (oh i'm such a bad girl, toking bad abt other ppl!) but hor.. he's a genius k! dun play play... he's gd at his studies, which left me wondering if i can get 1% of his brain, den it'll be more den enuff. hahah...

alvin (my elder bro) said tis Diana Degarmo's song - Don't Cry Out Loud, very irritating. he stupid la.. his britney Spears - Toxic, is even worse... kns...just duno how to appreciate nice songs... blehh....!

hahha, tt day me and jin went for lo class, den the instructor was so girly, like sissy like tt. made me luff and luff non stop. we had difficulties coordinating our movements and made a joke out of the whole scene. looks like a ballet dance more than an aerobic exercise. hahha...

oh man! i'm gona be in trouble now... jh is in de same mkting class as me... =(
die la... how to survive like tis? i was sooo shocked, but i just couldn't tell him im in the same class as him. den he was askin if im prettier now... oh manz.. gimme a break. i duno how2 reply him, jin said i shld put "......", instead of replying anymore. wah paingz.. he very the kns... buay tahan him.

spoke to matthew last nite, so long didn't chat wid him...hahha, coz he's busy wid his army thingy at civil defence, and ever since he got himself a gf, which meant tt we have lesser chance of meeting up. hahha... so lucky him and for his gf to have found each other. (hey, did i detect a hint of jealousy?) muahaha... its been real long since we chatted like tis. duno how we broach up the subject of grampa, and boy, M was really such a sensitive and gd fren of mine, he can tell tt i was crying, though i didnt say anything. seldom ppl can detect tt.... only my very gd frenz. hahha, den he call me 'suo mui' = silly gal in cantonese. i call him 'soei zai' = bad boy in cantonese. hahha... so funny. he made me promise to take care of myself, if not he'll stuff me wid bananas.. didnt i just told him i wasn't a chimp?! (only jin loves bananas..., shld stuff her instead, hahha!).
haizz.. realli missed de gd old days...

wat to do? we just keeps getting older... =(

Here's me having my mango pudding at Sweet Dynasty during the HongKong trip. Yummy! Want some?

oh gosh! im so tired. went to amore and exercise today wid jin, actyually we planned to go for the hi/lo after kickboxing, but i was dead tired... can't take it anymore. hahha... we had a fun time exercising, coz tis time we had a different instructor for kickboxing. i'm not sure whether tis class was more tough or just becoz we haven been exercising for quite some time. lolz... but im really glad we picked it up again.

i'm listening to shrek 2 soundtrack now... nice! i mean tis is de kind of soundtrack tt i'll feel perked up and happy... hahah...

read the email aunt forwarded from cousin chong. seems to me he's doing real fine at michigan. hey! dun play play! he's gettin his double degree wid masters wor... lolz. aiya, all along he's been tt ambitious and hadn't let anybody down yet. and reading his email, i had a real gd luff, coz aunt tot wat the commotion and elaborated email was abt, she tot he's gona tell us he's gettin married. actually when reading, i also tot wat kinda big decision he's gona make? like marriage?! but he's only graduating nxt yr. hahaha... den found out his so called BIG DECISION, which took him hours to think abt, was to enter into the ironmen's race. it's a triathlon.... woahh! den he just wana ask us, who is interested and has de time to cheer him till de finishing line. the race is on 26th june. hey hey!! im free... lolz! exams shld be done by then.. wonder if i can join big aunt over thr. they can fly thr ealier coz of cousin chong's graduation ceremony. i can fly thr after my exams. shiok lei! den i can scream loudly.. "AMERICA HERE I COME!!!". hahahha.. its just a wish la, provided my parents willing to spend de $$$.

and also, jin told me pamela is workin at FHM. woah woah!! den she said she saw her pic in bikini widout de flab! hmm... maybe she becum slimmer. but indeed i must agree she has the height.. so its to her advantage. unlike us... so short! hahah... but she's like a giant lei. too tall no gd la. too AA (attract attention). i prefer to be low profile. hehhe... =)

hey... i'm still quite disappointed manz. hahha, tink i just have to live wid it. even brenda manage to pass all her subjects despite being so madly, blindly and crazy in love wid her bf during exam time. guess happy makes her efficient when studying. lolz... so lucky! i'm so envious!

was watching s'pore idol just now... tt malay guy was quite cute, but too bad when i listen to him singing, i can't make out wat he is singing! i can't hear de words and de song seems complicated like wat de judges said. hmmm.... and also, i tot tt daphne (de last contestant) was very lucky to get into de finals. actually, it was de song tt helped her. her voice was alrite, not bad. but somehow i felt tt it wasn't powerful enuff for tt kinda song. but perhaps it was just her style (abit of lazy lazy feeling). i tink de judges are looking for ppl wid de X factor and de rite kind of style. some ppl can sing.... but sometimes they chose de wrong song wid can do them little justice as it just doesn't bring out de best in them. pity tt....and i find it quite lame for contestants who argued wid de judges and say they will get a betta improvement or give a betta performance if they're given de chance to get into finals ------> lame manz! it just proves tt ur desperate. if u have de quality (looks & voice), u'll sure be given de chance mah...but sometimes like i said, competition is strong, and it all goes down to de voters and audience. but till now, tink they've made wise choices by choosing those who can SING and not just becoz of their looks. i had a hearty luff at de suave indian guy from de 1 quarter round. haha.. gd looks but his singing sucks big time. hahha...

tml i'm going down to hand in my time sheet... drag so long liao... so its time to get my butt moving, so tt they can pay me.. find tt $$ is so impt. its true $ can't buy u some of the valuable and precious things like kinship, friendship and love. but it ceertainly can buy us many other material stuff which i find it impt too! -----> like my sch fees. bloody hell, a re-exam of econ will cost me $525 while a new subject will cost $1050. superb ex manz... though my parents will b paying for it, but daddy said i've gota pay de re-sit myself! how can?!!.... thr goes my $$... fly away..fly away....hahha. and also nt sure if i wana meet jin and flora for mudcake, coz my mom said aaron asked her if she chld accompany him 2 de library to study, and since she's not free, she asked me to go. ahhh! den i sit down thr do wat? read story bks?! they say our 8 characters doesn't match, see each other and we'll quarrel within 1 min! nt tt i wana scold him, but sometimes his actions really disgust me. so rude, so dependent on de maid... so kns. hopefully he'll change for de betta when he is in sec sch. if i ever find out he smoke or wat.. he'll get it frm me. maybe i can fight im, i'll ask alvin to do tt. he really got some serious attitude problem.

aiya... wat shall i do? aahhhh.... i'm like a part time 'baby' sitter... tis aaron is really very troublesome....go lib? hmm.. his exams coming also.since im meetin jin on sat, den can give tml a miss hor? mudcake can eat anytime la.. tml i'll call aaron again.

im so damn fucking angry and disappointed at myself for having to fail econs!!! bloody hell!! can't believe it.. tink my luck is running out... tis is my VERY 1ST time failing at a major exam!! haizzz.... im realli very very super duper disappointed. y did they bother to gimme such high marks for maths when im failing my econs? make no sense rite? and de irony is such tt i passed my soci, which i really tot i whld fail. i passed by 4 marks... and tis so valuable 4 marks is missing from my econs marks... which meant tt i passed soci by 4 marks and failed econs by 4 marks. 4 MARKS!!!! can i do a mark transfer from math to econs? arrghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! de funny thing is tt i've got company man.... hui also failed her econs, but sandy managed to pass everything. good for her. i admit tt abit jealous, but i dun understand y they all can pass but i can't! im so frustrated... coz i did betta den them for econs during de mock and i hardly studied for it. that stupid amos.. i'm gona get him. amos is my Uk econs lecturer... how cum he just cant pass me. haiizzzz...........i really really tot i whld definately pass my econs, coz de exam seemed so... so... managable. i'm not joking... coz i found a few qns familiar. thr goes my effort...

heaven is playin such a big joke on me! and i can't afford to....i'm desperate! haizz.... so disappointed. i msg mom, dad and aunt tellin them my results. and surprisingly, mom said nevermind, try harder next time. pheww... guessed they knew how much stress i was going thru at tt time. i realli tried... though abit last min. who wants to fail? i hate failures... i do push myself. so tink i must start revision early tis time round. i'm gona score during my yr2! i'm gona prove tt a little setback doesn't hurt me. coz i'm EMILY FONG.... 9actually i'm quite used to failing, but not at major examinations)... haizz...